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Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

-- Neil Gaiman

Kid Talk

My cousin is so cute! His mom asked him where he wants to celebrate his birthday and he said:

"At home, because I want salmon, crabs, shrimps and turkey"

He is super adorable! So big and hug-able! Super kagigil talaga.

YM Message

Was chatting with a friend of mine... then before he left he said...

ey *insert my name*, i gtg, got some tennis scheduled, talk to u soon, don't stare at wentworth too much, it'll burn ur eyes out haha, ingat!

At natuwa naman ako dun.

Information = Power?

Listen to what is shared…respond as if “interested”… ask questions that do not sound suspicious and accept and digest whatever is uttered.

Is being an observer of psychological creatures unhealthy? Should some things be left at it is? Would lesser knowledge be better? Would it be better to be left in the dark rather to be lost in a blitz of confusion and not knowing what is real or not?

What is the deal? You said you wanna marry before you reach 30 so that you would still have the energy and physical capabilities to play with your kids. However, there are many obstacles with this plan of yours… such as not having a degree and not having anyone to be your wife.

Wala nga ba talaga? Kamusta naman yung nangyari sa Pudlot? Dinaya ka ba? Iniwan ka ba? O ikaw ang gago?

Stop playing with emotions… cause if you do not, I will stop playing your game.

Lost?

It is 1 am, and I cannot sleep. I keep thinking about my life so far... thoughts about the future, thoughts about what I have done with my life. Thoughts about what I should be doing are floating in my head right now... I try, but I cannot get a solid grasp of what they are. I cannot even put them to words, but I know, I am at a point in my life where I am reassessing my direction, my priorities... deciding what road to take... deciding whether to throw caution to the wind and follow my heart or stay rational and logical and follow my brain...
It is tough when you do not know where you are. When you are fearful that you have missed a corner and now traveling down a very different road. It is hard when you cannot read the signs and there is no way for you to know which direction you ought to take. It is scary when you know that you have no one other than your self to blame for whatever mistakes you made...
Run and hide or face it... seems so simple, but in truth is very hard to answer... I wish I had the courage to face everything head on... but sometimes, there are things that are better left in the dark... better left unopened... better left alone... and this thing... whatever it is, seems like one of those things... I will try to leave it alone for now... and then reassess maybe in a few weeks time, if I have enough courage or will to face it...