Question

What will happen to me in 2007? They say you have your own destiny. But then again, would it be better if you choose your own?

Things To Do When I Am Bored

1. IM people
Talk to anyone in my list about anything and everything. However, YM is acting stupid.

2. Surf the Internet
Browse Wikipedia, read the news, multiply stalk, download stuff and read random blogs. Then again, hello earthquake and jargonic fiber optic cables!

3. Soundtrip
Open iTunes and listen to whatever I find there. Add the occassional singing along and dancing. >:)

4. Series
Watch videos, movies and series in the network. Too bad the shows that I am into are on break :(

5. Exercise
Go to the banyo... and stretch! Get some water. Walk around the floor/s -- workstation hopping. At times, invite someone for yosi. How about starbuko momments?

6. Arts & Crafts
Hello Beaded Mosaic Bear! Thanks Mommy Mark!

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Yes, these are the things I have been doing since for the past few working days of 2006.

Whatta life!

Leaving On A Jet Place Yet Again

I will be hopping in a plane by 10am tom.
Once again, I haven't packed yet.

Question:
Pack or sleep to be able to get up for simbang gabi at 5am?

Answer:
SLEEP!

See yah when I get back

Advance Merry Christmas!
:-h

Chronicles of an Emobear 103

I miss you. I cannot begin to put into words what I experience to not be able to tell you. I fancy you for the jeopardy of using the L word and I cannot even imagine how to explain how it feels to know that I will never tell you.

I am too trying hard to be tough and pretend I feel nothing. I could care less. I am too much of all of these whatever to ever be exposed. So here I am frightened to remove my mask. Much that I have and will always let you do as you please, with a brave face.

All I can do is hope...

Though my cartoon-like exterior, my serious side will reveal when necessary, though my eyes are eternally Garfield-like I will never let you out of my sight.

toink

TL: Tuloy ba leave mo?
Me: Yes sir, cause it is the golden wedding of my grandparents.
TL: Sige, kalian ka papasok?
Me: After Christmas…
TL: Sigurado ka?
Me: Yes sir, sa December 27.
TL: Sigurado ka? Ikaw lang mag-isa dito sa team kasi magleleave kami ni *insert name of teammate* hanggang New Year.
Me: Ahm… *speechless* okay lang sir… titingnan ko nalang. *insert dumb expression*
TL: Sige, i-aaprove ko na yung leave mo.
Me: *still with my dumb expression* Salamat sir!

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*toink!* I should have said, something else... something that means yes sir I'll extend my leave til New Year!!!

I miss having a Christmas break!

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How I felt when I was in Tagaytay? I missed you. Where did that feeling come from? It came from the heart since all emotion come from the heart. Well it could be trip lang… Fine… Then mixed… From the heart and trip lang. When did I start feeling annoyed with you? Well, when was the last time I did something for you? Or better yet, when was the last time I gave you *? You know even that small thing I cannot do for you anymore. I am not inspired to do it in other words. Due to that I cannot find time. You know lagging tamad. Okay. I am insensitive and not you. It is my fault and not yours. Why I am acting this way? Because of what happened in the past that I cannot forget even how hard I tried it always popped out. Why is this so? Maybe because it has caused me so much pain. But wait, like I have not caused you pain, right? Mas malala pa nga actually. However the difference is we are totally different persons. You can still take it and you do not want / cannot give up. I on the other hand do not know what to do but let go and give up. Why is that so? For I am not certain of myself. I do not know what the hell came into me and answered you! What could I do? It is already there. Just go with the flow.

Do not worry. I will go away slowly. You will definitely find another girl. If I know, marami ng nakapila. As for me, I will go on with my life. Not getting to close to someone, living by myself, I do not know how to take care of myself. So there, I will concentrate on that and my family. I will repay them for all they did for me. After doing that, I will move on to the 10 people I treated like sh!t!
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My feeling for you remain the same despite all the hardships you are putting me thru. I have remained strong thru all the challenges but its somehow hard to please you. I gave you my world, you are my everythin. I do not know what I will do without you. I gived my best in making you stay but it seems to be getting harder becuase you cannot seem to forgive me. I want to be one with you and I guess I was but some things got in the way. I mourn for the love that we had because it is slowly dying in your eyes. I still want to continue and have to conquer this challange becuase it is harder to win back what little or a lot lost from you. Winning you back is what matters now as I ponder on what I have done to lose such a splendor like you.

On Haircuts

Every time I get a haircut I feel rejuvenated afterwards. My hair is not tikwas and is in the right place. I feel oh so beautiful! However, other than the evident physical brilliance I experience something much deeper. I undergo not only a physical change but an inner transformation as well.