4th Year

Today marks the first day of another work week. It also commemorates my 4th year of service in this corporation. Never did it enter my mind I would last this long. When I started I told myself once my bond is finish I will transfer.

Now I ask myself, what am I still doing here?
What have I gained from this slavery I am in?
Is it still worth the punishment?
How long am I willing to endure this?
Do I enjoy what I do?
Do I find some sense of fulfillment at the end of the day?
Or is it time for me to try a different adventure?

Isip-isip.

On Laughter

If you do not know me, I bet your first impression of me is that I am mataray. Due to that, I do not have many real friends. I usually do not fit in so I guess that urged me to be a jokester which is in direct contrast to my taray expression. Laughter breaks the ice. Laughter makes it easier to get in with a group.

I like to portray that I do not take anything seriously that I cannot laugh about afterward. I have this thinking, “ang pikon ay talo”. If I could joke and laugh about anything and everything, I will fit somewhere eventually. Once I am accepted that is when I will have the chance to show my alter ego after they have eased up and laughed at me.

Laughter is truly amazing. Its keeps you younger and it brings down walls a bit to let the real person come out. As they say, Laughter is the best medicine. :)

On Wishing

People never seem to be contented with what they have. People always want something they do not currently have. People strive to improve themselves to be better individuals. I assume each individual would love to rub a magical lamp and gain three wishes.

Personally I yearn to travel. In almost 4 years of slavery, I never had the chance to work outside of the country. I have been assigned onsite, but just around the corner. Whenever an onshore opportunity comes around, my ears rings. At least it would be hitting two birds with one stone --- work and "play".

I just had interview for onshore work. The specifics are not laid out yet, but it would be a long term assignment. Now I am confused, is this really what I want? Is it worth it to change policies? In the long run, would I benefit?

Tsk tsk.. I should be careful for what I wish for cause it just might be a reality.

On Contentment

Time off is appreciated. There are no deadlines to beat. There is no urgency to come in early. I can relax and do “what” I desire for eight or so hours and still get paid!

Facebook is wonderful filler. Status updates, photos, videos, games, quizzes and the list goes on. I wonder how one can get bored. Then again, it is tiresome to add “s” to “http”. What a waste of time!

I move on those various instant messengers. However, I am not a friendly person. Thus, I do not have a huge selection of people whom I can engage with decent conversations. Then again, most often, many have a lot on their plates. So why bother to chitchat.

Of course, the most obvious thing to do is to explore the World Wide Web. There are tons of things to discover --- trivia, news, events --- random stuff with sense or whatnot. Then again, eyes eventually get sore. Back begins to get sore.

Okay, I can relax and do what I want in exchange for some sort of sense of fulfillment at the end of the day. Boredom can kill. Honestly. I am going nuts!

When will I ever be contented?

On Cutting

When the Cat is out the Mouse will come out to play.

The Cats were out so the mice maximized and took advantage of the situation. We jumped inside a cab like sardines and off we went to Rockwell to get some grub. It did not take us long. It was just like a trip to a world full of choices. Finally our Pepper Lunch yearning was answered!

Question: how long can we keep mum about this?

On Lessons Learned the Hard Way

“God ALWAYS forgives. People SOMETIMES forgive. Nature NEVER forgive”

Ondoy hit the Metropolis badly. Almost 80% was underwater. Hello Waterworld! But thank you because without you I will not be more thankful and blessed.

Proper Urban Planning
Real Estate builders or homebuilders should wisely consider where they would develop a community. Extensive research, meaning long term, must be done! Water level history, earthquake account, location, drainage systems and the like must be considered. One must disregard whatever development if research says the area is prone to danger.

Cutting Tress
Trees are our friends. They serve as shade during sunny or rainy days. They give us nutrition. They give us a place to live. They save us from landslides. So why uproot them?

No Useless Littering
Responsible throwing of trash can go a long way. It can improve the drainage system; prevent icky floating stuff during floods; avoid awful stench; especially help save Mother Nature. As they say, Basura mo, Itapon mo.

:)
Pinoys somewhat find a way to take pleasure in the current circumstance -- even if houses are submerged in water or every material possession was lost. Pinoys still have the energy to smile and wave for the camera. Kids even enjoy the new pool and jump from a lamppost! Yabang Pinoy!

Bayanihan
Its amazing how people from different lifestyles come as one for one goal. Volunteers of different ages. Donations from everywhere! It is SO overwhelming! I just hope that evil people will not take advantage.

“Often it takes some calamity to make us live in the present. Then suddenly we wake up and see all the mistakes we have made.”

On This Game

YOU have caused me so much pain. I have given YOU a huge part of my existence. I divided my family life to accommodate YOU. I turned down socials and trips in preparation for YOU.

After everything that I did for YOU, I still fell short. All the sacrifice and hardwork never seemed to be sufficient. I always ended up second… third… of fourth, but never the first.

Did YOU ever love me? Is there even sense if I still pursue YOU? Is it even worth it to give YOU another go? On the other hand, should I walk away from YOU to avoid the opportunity of more pain?

How is life without YOU? Would it still be worth living?

I love this game, but do YOU love me?

On Monday, September 7

Hi Team

Over this week-end, Malacanang has issued another announcement that the Business Process Outsourcing (BPO) Industry and the Electronics Industry will be exempted from the non-working holiday tomorrow, September 7, 2009. Therefore, please be advised that tomorrow is a regular working holiday at XXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXX because our company belongs to the BPO industry.

As this has caused confusion to our employees, and in the interest of time before the day begins tomorrow, I am issuing these guidelines:

· For those on billable projects, please come to work and lodge your time to your billable charge code. Please pass the word around (or SMS) to all concerned in your teams.

· For those whose billable projects are at the clients’ site in Metro Manila, it will be a non-working holiday for the client if their industry is not BPO or Electronics. If the client requires you to report for work onsite or offsite, please do so, otherwise, I suggest you take Sept 7, 2009 as a vacation leave upon the approval of your project managers.

· For those on the bench, you may take your vacation leave upon the approval of XXXXX XXXXXXXX.

· Employees in the support group may take their vacation leave only if approved by your managers.

For those taking vacation leaves tomorrow, please make sure to file your leaves in the Leave Management System (LMS). I am extending the LMS filing deadline to Sept 8, 2009 because of the situation.

Thank you.

XXX
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Kalokohan!

On Announcements

Over lunch, my officemate and I ranted that there will be no long weekend until November. Then lo and behold, we heard this news before heading home!

Yay!

Then again, I got an email that stated this:

Please note that it is still BUSINESS AS USUAL at XXXX on Monday, September 7, 2009 despite the late announcement of Malacañang declaring said day as a special non-working day.

All Delivery Managers, Project Managers and Team Leads must exercise sound judgment so that there is no disruption in service delivery and in order to avoid loss of revenues especially in Time & Material engagements.

• All employees who are currently on billing assignment must report to work and report their time to their billable charge code. However, those assigned in Manila Direct projects on staff augmentation must report to their projects if the client require them to.
• People on Bench are advised not to report to work
• Support group must provide for full or skeletal force

Thank you for your cooperation.

Now I am grateful that I am assigned on-site and I am not required to report to work!

YAY!

On A Moment of Pleasure

Darn it! I do think about you everyday. I do remember every look and every smile. My head rested upon your broad shoulders our arms linked, our fingers intertwined, no words spoken, just two hearts beating as one.

Grabe, it hurts so much. It makes me want to cry cause I cannot ever speak of the sensations I feel in my heart no matter how enormous the feeling is since in the first place I do not have the right to feel whatever emotion that is.

Then again, who am I to complain when I walked into this situation with my huge eyes wide open? It was my choice to lose myself in this insane emotion with you. No regrets. Just missing you.

I guess I should be happy now. Less complexity is what I wanted. Fate just made it easier. Nevertheless, why oh why does it feel so damn difficult?

"A moment of pleasure, a lifetime of pain"

On What Love Is

Everyone is capable of loving. It does not mean if one is not capable of loving that one is not capable to be loved.

I have done preventive measures in order not to communicate with you. I have erased you from my address book. I am not good with numbers thus I do not memorize it. I have immersed myself with various activities to keep myself busy.

However, it never fails. When I thought I have moved on you do something stimulating that prevents me from fully letting go. Somehow I find myself back to square one, sort off. Why is this so, I do not know.

How can I completely let go and not be affected? Should I completely erase everything that concerns you? Will doing so erase you from my mind and heart?

God, when will the time come when I awake I will not think of you? Is this what love is --- accepting the person despite one’s imperfections?

Ultimate Frustration

It truly hurts so much when one is looking forward for something then when the time finally arrives, it is cancelled.

On Seriousity

The Hali Family is composed of individuals brought together by their occupation. Hali Family is a group with different personalities from various backgrounds who enjoys having fun and fooling around. A day is not complete without jokes, side comments and remarks.

After one movie night, the Halis decided to go to a coffee shop for more bolahan session. However, 6750 was full so off they went to GB3. As mentioned, coffee time = bolahan. Various topics with sense or without arise. -- From movie jokes from the latest movie seen, letter game and the next trip. The subject matter was endless.

Then came, Tagaytay… game?!? Who would have thought that papatulan ang Tagaytay game? Then again, I think it was partly my fault. I felt na the night rather the morning was seriously bolahan nalang… so I blurted out… “For once, may we be serious?”

Thus, the coffee session moved to Starbucks Tagaytay! When we arrived there, more bolohans transpired while waiting for the Bulalohan place to open. When we arrived at on the dot, the place was close! Then we found out that there was a 24 hour Bulalohan place!

Seriousity killed the Kat.

On Looking For Answers

Why can you not say NO to the other person --- but it is all right to call a rain check when it is I who is involved?
Why do things suddenly occur whenever we have a so-called plan?
Why do you treat me as an option and not as a priority?

Why do I make an effort to preserve whatever we have?
Why do I even bother?

You cannot say no to others because they are your clients and I am merely no one.
Unexpected things come up because they are really planned.
You treat me as an option because that is what I am to you.

I make an effort for I thought what we have is something worth to be valued.
Now, I do not even know why I bother.

On A Player's Commitment

I need to be willing to make a commitment to being as good as I can be each time I play. I need to be willing and ready to do what has to be done to make a positive contribution in the most difficult of situations. I need to compete in each game as though there is nothing I will ever do that will be more important. I need to, more than anything, want our team t be the very best that we can be.

Is this to much for me to ask myself as a player?

On “Closing Thread Group. Please be patient.”

A patient person bears pain without any complain. A patient person portrays self-control despite grueling adversities. Oftentimes I demonstrate these characteristics. No pun intended.

As a corporate slave, I accept whatever tasks given to me -- as long as it is more or less within the scope of my skill set and/or they provide training. As a tester, I tolerate the time and again delays caused by “unavoidable” circumstances.

Waiting is a tedious task. It is not a wonderful experience. Time is wasted. Time lost is never reverted. Despite the tiresome incidents of waiting, I can contain myself – if still reasonable.

When JMeter (an automation tool) displayed the message above, I got off-guard. Imagine a testing tool asked me to be patient!

Apparently, I am not that patient after all.

On Shunga Shunga

In my whole existence, I can proudly say that I never been intoxicated. Maybe a little bit tipsy and that was it. That statement continued to be a 100% fact until last night.

I was sane but my perspective was tainted. I wholesomely entertained people and I bet they had a grand time. Thank goodness that I was still classy and cute despite my alcohol intake.

Jägermeister is certainly a “hunt-master”. It is my kryptonite. It stood by its name with honor and searched for me. It made me do things most liquor did not. The stag protected and preserved his game. Maybe mixed with a Bull the result will be different.

I drink therefore I am.

On Uncertainties

Here we go again. The other day, I got a phone call from Engagement. Currently they are seeking to close a deal. Proposals, budgets, resources – all those paper works and negotiations are in the works to win this project. Apparently, I am one of the candidates for this 3-month on-site assignment, which explained the phone call.

This afternoon, the RM head went up to me at my cube. He asked for my permission if it would be okay to line me up for the mentioned on-site project. Definitely, out of practice, before agreeing to something I asked for details. As usual, RM head does not have the specifics on hand as of the moment. All I got was nine months will be added to the initial three months.

With the so-called economic situation, the logical response that I had to give was my positive word. Did I make the right decision of saying “yes”, despite the minimal information?

Oh well. Nothing is certain for now. For this project to materialize is still uncertain. In addition, knowing how HS handled these circumstances, this will take decades to transpire – that is if ever it will happen. There is nothing I can do but pray what is best for my professed career and me.

On No Comment

I find it annoying when I get a “no comment” or “secret” response after I have asked a sincere and serious question. I asked because I do not know. I asked because I want to understand. I asked because I care.

Is it wrong for me to know, to understand and to care? Is it none of my business thus the “no comment/secret” response?

Well, I apologize for my intrusions. If you do not want me to make pakialam, then why did you text me that you want to talk to me in private in the first place then take it back after.

Is it offensive for me to expect a decent answer after leading me?

Answer: No Comment!

On Mondays

I dread Mondays. Monday is usually associated to Panic Monday since Mondays mean the start of another grueling work week. In my current project, our PM thought of this Pan de Monday activity wherein a group is in-charge to bring Pan de Sal or whatever breakfast food to entice people to come in work early during Mondays.

This activity is most often than not futile for a person who chooses sleep over food anytime. In the number of Mondays that gone by, I’ve only bonded with the group once. Honestly, I’ve tried to get up countless times so I could take part in this Pan de Monday activity but I often fail. All I can say is.. "At least I tried".

Tomorrow is another Panic Monday. Tomorrow is another day to overcome my laziness. Tomorrow is another chance to bond with my group mates. Tomorrow is another test of my will power.

I guess all I can do is try and try until I succeed. :) Aja!

On Moving On

I have been a corporate slave in the same company for almost 4 years. I did not notice that it has been that long until now. I thought that I would be the first ones to move out. Lo and behold, I might get a pen.

On the other hand, my salary is still the same from a year ago. In fairness, that amount is already 100% more when I started. I wonder how I survived earning four digits bi-monthly when I first started.

Am I happy with what I am doing? Am I contented with what I am doing? Am I well compensated? Is this time for me to move on?

On Torpe

On my way to my ULTIMATE experience, I received an SMS, which read:

“*Insert my name* punta ka b today?”

Suddenly I felt an unknown surge of sensation in my body. My heart beat faster. After three grueling minutes of emotion containment, I replied:

“Yup. You?”

His answer:

“I’m thinking pa. Wala ako kasama. Haha.”

At the back of my head, what do you call me? Am I not considered as company? Ouch. In my vain attempt not to nag him, I just said:

“Anye. Tara na!”

In which I got this response:

“Cge, let me think abwt it hehe.”

After that last SMS, I did not reply anymore for I do not want to harass him. I do not want to blow my cover. I might appear that I want him to come so I can at least catch a glimpse of him… Even if that is what I really, want deep down. On the other hand, I just want some uncertainty of not knowing if he will make it or not.

To my dismay, he did not show up. Oh well. Then again, why did he ask if I would make it? Is he not comfortable and satisfied with my company so he decided not to go? Or is he shy because he will in his lonesome?

Hay. Ayaw ko ng torpe.. pero gusto ko *ata* siya.

The Case of the Key

In our household amidst our common interactions we have our own separate lives. We have different obligations and schedules. We come in and out our abode at diverse times. The young once have their own set of keys in order to prevent hassle and danger.

Shockingly, it was not a fool proof strategy. The other night our eldest ranged the bell and honked his horn when he arrived. Our 3rd was disturbed from her online life and opened the gate to our fortress. Mysteriously one of our eldest's keys was nowhere to be found in his green and white lanyard! Thus the need to create noise in order to be noticed.

How could a key suddenly fall off a key ring? The green and white lanyard was last placed inside Daisy – the tae green vehicle. Assuming it was not there, it was usually among its fellow keys. But according to our eldest he remembered perfectly that he left it in his beloved Daisy.

Our eldest had a suspicion on where the key might have vanished. He left the green and white lanyard amongst its fellow keys before he went up to sleep. He assured us with conviction that it will be there tomorrow. Lo and behold, when he woke up, his keys were mind-bogglingly complete! However, the missing key was not in its rightful place. Obviously, the suspect was in a rush to put it back.

What sucks is the culprit does not even know that she has been caught. Should we confront her? Or wait til something more outrageous transpires?

On "Hi"

How would you feel if you bump into your old school friend whom you have not seen for what seemed like months? This friend of yours was part of one of your high school groups. However, this friend is not just an ordinary friend; this friend was your interest during junior year.

I did not notice him; he was the first who greeted me! Then again, with my grand entrance it was unavoidable not to notice me. With a simple “Hi, *insert name*!” a bizarre sensation occurred. Butterflies flew. Hair tucked. Head tilted. Eyes twinkled. Words stuttered.

It started with a “Hi!” and it left me high.

3...2..1..

In reality, I have no intentions of going to this beach escapade. However, almost everyone is coming along. In addition, I've missed out on the previous summer getaways. I do not want to add this to the list.

But how come fate seems to be against me? My other group of friends planned something for the same weekend. That would have been easier on the pocket but then again, I've committed already.

Oh well. No use on sulking. Might as well maximize my 4 day vacation. Maybe just maybe it will become an experience of a lifetime.

Para Kay Manny

All it took was less than 2 rounds
Congratulations, Manny PACMAN Pacquiao!
Yabang Pinoy!

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Minamahal kita ng di mo alam
Huwag ka sanang magagalit
Tinamaan yata talaga ang aking puso
Na dati akala ko'y manhid.

On Patience

Even the most patient can lose their patience.

On AIDS

One of the toughest things is to look for something to do when there are no tasks assigned the entire day. It is truly a talent to appear as if doing something a.k.a AIDS. It occasionally feels great to have a breather. However, I would gladly give up that breather in exchange for one time big time.

It seems like I have learned the art of AIDS, but I beg you, I am sick of it. Give me something to do! Rawr.

On All Talk

Never say stuff if you have no plans on doing it.
Never make people expect then not do your part.

If you do,
maybe when you ask them to do their part,
they will never be there for you.

Mark my word, NEVER.

On No Tissue

Not having tissue and toilet papers in the pantries and comfort rooms is the latest craze in the office. Is this one of their cost reduction methods that goes with earth hour which extends to earth day?

Now I wonder where the budget came from and the pantries are now day care color like?

On Drama

I just hate (I know hate is such a harsh word, but that is how I feel) it when people make such a huge fuzz of something when in reality it is nothing. In addition, people do not care on what that so-called fuzz is all about.

Do not get offended if people did not react to your "pampansin" actions, because like what I mentioned, they do not care.

The world does not revolve about you. Everyone has their own dramas. So please... grow up.

On Religious Obligations

I often wonder why people attend those religious obligations but their minds are elsewhere...

Birthday Wishlist 2k9 version

Since it is already April, birthday wishlist time!
Quelf Premier Edition Board Game


Looks like an interesting and fun game -- an addition to my trying hard collection of board games to instill bonding among family and friends.

May be found in various toy shops at around $25

Elastic Headbands



To keep my short hair in place

The Dollar Store, CVS, Walmart, Walgreens, goody really cheap daw

Sunglasses



To protect my big eyes from the sun

I still love my pair, but I’d love to get a new style – plastic (Script, Embrace, etc.)this time instead of wire.

MicroClear Bag



To keep my shades safe since I misplaced mine :(
$30

Small Vault


This one will suffice too
$25

IPOD Classic or any player which plays music & videos



To accompany me during my dull moments at work because eventually “entertaining” stuff will soon be prohibited in the workplace.
120GB $249

Headset/Earphones

To replace my busted pair :(
Sennheiser MX line or any good quality brand
500php ++

On Waiting for Life

First, why am I like this even if there is no assurance that things will turn out how I want. Secondly, why the hell am I putting myself in a situation that is killing me deep down. Lastly, why would I settle for something ordinary when there is someone extraordinary out there who not only loves me but respects me as well?

I guess I am like this cause being the hopeless romantic that I am; secretly I am wishing that things would eventually go my way. Maybe I do have a special feeling towards him because I am sort of allowing him to cause me pain. Finally, maybe I have not found the one yet that is why I am still entertaining him. Whatever!

Waiting is the most important thing we can do for the one we love. Nevertheless, it can prove one thing, as it goes, it can also change minds.

I am tired. Easter = new life. I guess now is the right time for a new rejuvenated me.

Hello world!

On Catching Up

Catching up with someone whom you have not seen and spoken to for the longest time is one of the most fantastic feelings in the whole wide world... make it universe!

'Nuff said.

On Saving Leaves

Going to work while 90% of the people in your project or in the office are on leave tends to give off a different environment. Lights were switched off the whole time that I think is a sort of lame cost cutting idea since I was in the area. My inbox was relatively quiet compared to the tons of messages received daily.

Not taking a leave while 90% of the project is on leave is boring but very very relaxing. At least I have saved 2 days vacation leave time just by petiks.

Child Talk

My niece asked these question to his gay uncle

Why are you sooo white?
In fairness, his face was really really white. As in, then match it with the plucked eyebrows and highlighted hair. Badingarsy alert!

Why are you wearing lipstick?
Promise, it was soooo red!

I love kids! They are so honest. They point out the obvious. I cannot believe that his/her.. its parents are mum about the situation.

Accepted na ba?

You Tell Me

Just because I do not talk much
Just because I look mataray
Just because I choose to have my own world at times

Does that make me suplada?

Just because I mess around
Just because I ride along with the jokes
Just because I am teasingly hali

Does that make me a flirt?

Are not those stuff I mentioned opposites?
So am I suplada or a flirt?
You tell me.

Whatever your answer may be, I will respect it because that is your opinion.
Then again, I know who I am.

I am just curious on why some people perceive me as such…
Do I sense insecurity… :)

On Starting A New Life

They say that success is picking yourself up after you have fallen and failed.

Defeat is really a tough pill to swallow. The thing what annoys me is that I know deep down that I could have performed waaay much better. It is useless to rant and be infuriated now. There is nothing I can do about it anymore. The moment has passed by already. The whole thing is just another addition to my pile of learning experiences. Oh well.

However, like what I mentioned countless times before, in every competition, there will always be a winner and the other. Too bad for my team that we find ourselves as part of the other once again.

I guess it would be better for me to move on. So today, I officially mark it as the first day of my preparation for my next tournament --- whenever that will be. I am still an athlete, thus I should be responsible enough and live as one. I hope that I will have the determination and perseverance to stand up for my declaration. So help me God.

On The Hidden Truth

A Townhall was held last February. One of the topics raised concerned the so-called crisis. The biggies did not deny that they had to let go of people however, they assured the people left behind that we are doing great.

The people came out confident after the Townhall with the knowledge that their careers are not in jeopardy. Then again, the biggies tainted the reality. They disguised the truth. Come mid of the month another wave hit the city. Theses outbreaks come monthly.

Now I ask myself, why do they have to lie? Why do they have to cover up the reality? Why do they have to put up the spirits of the people and eventually crush it? Do they do this to make believe that everything is going to be better since that is the only thing that they can do?

I do not know what to believe anymore. My respect, or what has been left of it, is quickly disappearing. In addition, I am in doubt if I would still desire to work for these biggies.

People tend to say things in order to avoid panic. Then again, the truth cannot be contained for a long time. Eventually the truth will come out. Once the hidden truth is revealed, expect people violently react and maybe chaos will emerge.

On Uncertainties

As the famous saying goes --- Nothing is certain. Having that in mind, I should make every single moment count. Another “wave” hit the city once again. Was it expected? On the other hand, was it unexpected? I honestly do not know what to think about the situation anymore. Another thing, I think it would be useless to think about the uncertainties. It would just bring stress and anxiety.

If my time is up, then bring it on. Carpe diem.

Untitled

A: Can we talk...
B: Okay… About what?
A: About you and me, what are we?
B: We are something you call *pause* complicated. You know my current situation… and I am surprised that despite all that you have been so good to me.
A: *inhale*exhale*
B: six more years to go.
A: Sorry
B: Why are you saying sorry? Sorry for what? You do not have anything to be sorry for.

Hay, why do I attract complications?

B: It would be still us right now if you have only answered me before.
A: Hah? Ambagal mo kasi.
B: *shocked* Anong mabagal?
A: Masyadong mabilis pala.

I honestly cannot remember if he courted me or when he declared how he felt. Unless, it was this incident.

B: You know what, I consider this as a date already.
A: *punches*

Please define what a date is.

On My New Look

On Haircuts

Shorter hair is a perfect look for the summer! Does this new look include a new attitude? It seems like it for m. Even before when I was frustrated or down, I would tend to cut my locks just because… I was badtrip or something. I have a subconscious hope that if I a have a so-called new look my outlook in life will also be fresh and new.

Was it the hair or the hoop earrings that gave a me a little push of confidence?

You tell me.

Movie 4: Vicky Cristina Barcelona

Vicky and Cristina are two young American women who come holiday. Vicky is sensible and holiday. Vicky is sensible and engaged to be married; Cristina is emotionally and sexually adventurous. They meet a flamboyant artist, Juan Antonio, and his beautiful but insane ex-wife, Maria Elena that results in a hilarious and harrowing experience as they all become amorously entangled.

I found the movie attention grabbing because it gave a glimpse of the Spanish culture, particularly picturesque sights of Barcelona and Oviedo. In addition, the characters were fascinating as they interacted in a complex twist of interesting relationships. There were many punch lines or so-called quotable quotes in halting English that struck me. Yes, call me a hopeless romantic.

Only unfulfilled love is romantic. You need to find the missing ingredient to make your love complete. What makes it romantic is that you have something to look forward in the course of finally fulfilling your unfulfilled feelings. Nevertheless, once you have found the missing piece, would emotion still be the same?

Love is complicated. Two people may be meant for each other and may not be meant for each other. Love is a contradiction.

On Social Networks

Everyone is connected in one way or another. An ex-significant other may be the schoolmate of one of your colleagues. This colleague may know the current significant other of another colleague. Thus, the current significant other your other colleague may know your ex-significant other.

Confusing? I guess that is why there is an emergence of various social networking sites. Site A helps you connect and share with the people in your life. Site B claims that it is a place for your friends. Site C focuses on helping you stay in touch with friends and discover new people and things that are important to you. Site D strengthens and extends your existing network of trusted contacts.

These sites suddenly find connections through the relationships you currently have. It may seem be interesting to find out that you are related to this certain someone in some way but on the other hand, it may also be freaky because the world it getting smaller which is a great advantage for stalkers.

So, should I kill my online life?

On Not Meant To Be

There are times when one subconsciously feels that there are things that needs to be attended too. For instance --- work. At the back of one's head one cannot help but think about those work eklavush. Even if it is not that urgent, the mind wanders how to get things done especially with all those "cuts" -- there is no security.

I do not know what I ate, but for the past two days I left the office at past eight. Take note, my manager or lead did not ask me to stay. It was my own initiative to "work". As if that was not enough, tonight I brought home work! Then again, one of the files I copied was corrupted.

It is not meant to be ... I guess.

:)

On Social Networking Sites

There are just too many of you!

Things to Check Before Going Down A Vehicle

1. Radio
2. AC
3. Lights
4. Engine
5. Lock
6. Alarm

One would think everything was covered in the list above. But guess what? When we got back to the car the window at the driver's side what 100% open! *Toink* How would the driver not notice that the window was still wide open when she went down the vehicle?

I honestly do not know since I was not the one who left it. Good thing nothing was stolen (as if!), and it did not rain or else...

On I Don't Want to Wear Socks

I had this conversation with my 4 year old cousin who was about to go back to Chicago...

Cousin: I want to go home when I grow up.
Me: How old are grown ups?
Cousin: 10
Me: So where is home?
Cousin: *points down"
Me: Philippines or United States of America?
Cousin: Philippines.

He does not want to leave, but he has too. So I asked him to wear his socks because in less than an hour they need to go to the airport. But, guess what he said?

I do not want to wear socks cause I'm not going out.

Awww.

Eventually he knew he had to leave. So he allowed me to help him with his socks. While I helped him he asked me, are you coming with me and mom, right?

My heart melted again.

In the end my cousin left. However, he left with the expectation that I would visit him soon. He already saved a spot for me in his room so that we can play all day long.

On My Childhood Crush

Guess what my mom unraveled from the numerous clutters in our room? Yellowish newspaper cut outs of this particular local actor who was my crush! There were articles of movies and shows where he belonged and pictures of his endorsements among other stuff. The clippings dated way back 1996!

I remember the days when I would sit in front of the television just to catch a glimpse of him. My friends would even call me up whenever they saw his hotdog and milk commercials. I was not the stalker-ish type but there was a point when I made prank calls to his residence.

In fairness, his name is still known in showbiz at present. So I guess he was a worthy actor.

Oh my gosh! I was such a fan girl.

On Bad Days

Days when I just want to stay in bed
Days when I do not like to be disturbed from my deep slumber
Days when I just want to curl up
And slowly be eat up bit by bit

Days when I do not feel like getting up
Days when I do not want to do all my obligations
Days when I just want to pause for a single second
To breath, to think and t relax

But no
The world will keep on turning
The days will continue to pass me by

There is nothing I can do
But to hopelessly hope
When I finally find the courage
To face all the bad days
Those days will eventually be better.

On What Will You Do?

What will you do if…

…the person you want to talk to does not want to talk to you?
… you want to resolve things with someone but that someone does not want to resolve things with you?
… you want to help certain person but that certain person does not want to accept your help?

What will you do?

Will you keep trying?
Will you continue being a martyr?

Or

Will you let things be?

And

Will you move on and start living the life you desire to live?

This is all I can say:

Patience is a virtue.
However, life is short.
So what will you do?
What is your Game Plan?

On Words

“I do not like her. It is hopeless to live with her. She is just plain evil. She is like a child who is impossible to talk too.”

“But I need to be civil with her for my son. I am doing all of this for my son. According to the law, the kid needs to be at least 7 years old before he can choose where he wants to stay.”

“Even if how much I want to get on with my life, I cannot. I might lose my son. Who would accept me with my complex situation? My friends keep on telling me to go on with my life. Every time I mention you to them, they always urge me to live my life. However, if we decide to be official, it would be unfair for you. I would look bad."

"I do not like to have flings. I am done with that stage. I am looking for something serious. Let us face it; we are not getting any younger. I do not like you to think that there is no future. That is why I am immersing all my energy in my work so that I do not need to think about these things."

"Even if how much I would like to go out with you frequently, I cannot. Even if how much I would love to hangout with you and spend time with you, I simply cannot."

After all that has been said, I ask myself… were his declarations sincere? Did he really mean what he expressed? Is he hoping for a possibility of something many perceive as immoral?

Whatever. Words remain just words without action.

On My New Assignment

Everything transpired unexpectedly. I extended my holidays for a single day. Before the holidays, one of those unorganized people asked me to come in work for an interview that never took place. Since I was on bench, I assumed life would be petiks until further notice. Then boom! I now find myself in another building for supposedly an urgent matter.

An urgent matter because my assignment is in a critical stage. We will go-live on the end of the month… finished or not yet finished. What a challenging task indeed. Hello to long working hours.

Good luck to me on my step closer to my first ever kudos.

On No Posts

Here we go.
Let the journey begin

Hello to at least 100 words a day
A hundred words on whatever
Events that I may have experience
Or maybe a just a result of my imagination

No matter what the topic is
May it be funny, nonsense, boring or whatsoever
Anything goes

Am I ready to know myself better?
Am I willing to accept whatever will confront me?
Am I prepared to deal with my life?

Scared to unearth my innermost thoughts
Afraid to get out of my comfort zone
Terrified to face the unknown
Frightened to deal with the so-called realities

Hopefully after all has been written
I will have more posts

On Kapamily Overload

Monday was for Wowowee with my brothers. I skipped work for a night club in the heat of the afternoon. Despite being such a guy show, it was interesting to watch all the works live... how efficient the people during commercial breaks, how the ASF dancers able to move and groove in their skimpy attires and thin shoes, the set, the "liveliness"... everything. It was such a rush.

Sunday was for ASAP. Timing, it was Piolo's birthday = nice numbers. As if ASAP was not enough, we just ate a quick "lunch" and ran to THE BUZZ.

Starstuck much?

2009: Movie 1: Baler

In 1898, a band of Spanish soldiers heroically defended Baler in Quezon province against Filipino forces for 337 long and grueling days. The battle, now referred to as the Siege of Baler, is the setting of a forbidden love between an Indio soldier and a Filipina lass who lived at the end of the 19th century

The movie was okay considering the fact that I had no idea what it was all about. It was an epic drama that gave a sort of sneak peak of Philippine history. It also caught my attention cause there were conversations in Spanish. Despite the not so good editing and whatever you may call that (reading a letter with the light/lamp below) the performances of the actors and actresses involved were exceptional. Even if "Filipina" daw si Anne Curtis with all her mestiza looks, she portrayed her role very well. Sexy ni Fafa Jericho. Poor Bravo = Puppy. :( All in all, I guess it was a good movie since my aunt did not fall asleep and her husband was able to under the film thanks to the subtitles.

Quotable Quote: "Love is difficult in times of war."