Transparency

How difficult is it to disseminate information? We are within the same vicinity and you still cannot find it within yourself to approach me and to talk to me personally. With the existence of technology, you have options. You can either email or text me. I wondered how come you did not utilize any of these resources properly. What stopped you?

Transparency is one of the foundations of a good organization. When everything is laid out in the open, questions are minimized and the matter is easier to understand. So why hide information? Why did you wait for me to act upon the situation before you reacted? Thus, lack of communication was showcased. How come you did not have the decency to discuss the matter?

All I ask is some transparency. Isn’t it my right to know? Why can’t you just be a little bit more honest and open? What happened is obvious. You do not have the wares of a great or even a good manager. You only had the guts to give a slight preview of the current situation so you will have someone to blame. Tell me now if my understanding is incorrect. But you are full of deceit and I don’t like it.

Terminated

I got in work and did my routine. I turned on my machine and opened the web browsers to VPN, Client’s email, testing tool and test scripts repository after accessing the social networking sites. Surprisingly, my VPN account was disabled, I cannot access my Client’s email and cannot login the testing tool and test scripts repository. I tried again and entered my passwords with caution. Yet, I still got the same results.

So, I emailed our Client using my other email and reported my concern. After a couple of minutes my oh so responsible Madam replied and said:

XX disabled your accounts today, let's discuss this when I come in.

My instinct was correct. The client decided to terminate the project abruptly due to attrition and quality of work. Attrition is acceptable, but quality of work? That was kind a low blow. Whenever I talked to my counterparts they always had positive feedback.

I was like… OKAY. What pissed me off was she did not have the decency to inform me before hand. She had to wait for my email instead of contacting me beforehand? It only showed the lack of communication. I bet the second reason was due to bad management.

Good bye project. I’m free! :)

M&M 2010

The whole league was a truly challenging experience. It was the venue where the ladies can shine for there were no men in sight. There were no athletic guys to count on. Each one was forced to step up and work on my so-called game. We only had each other.

I merged with a fairly new team. Practice was not held weekly. If we were lucky enough to have training we were not complete. There were some teammates who I only saw during game day. It was stressful.

How do you expect to perform well if there was no right preparation? How do you work as a team if there was no communication? How do you know what to do if it something is not explained in detail?

It was not smooth sailing. There was no synergy. Personalities clashed. Conflicts aroused. Individualities were provoked. It was that bad that there came a point that I missed my original team and sadly I wanted the league to be over. But, I did not give up. I kept fighting the battle. And I am happy as each game progressed we started to work as a so-called team.

Despite all the adversities M&M was one for the books. I was given the chance to exercise my patience and push myself to my limits. All in all, I learned a lot. We may not have gotten a W but I gained experiences that can make me a better Ultimate player.

Salamat PaTerrors!

On Putting Things in the Right Perspective

You go to the office to work and earn money. You are an employee and not a parasite. So please do not waste the resources to surf those social networking sites for entertainment, vanity and the like. You are in a corporate environment and not in a club. So please wear the appropriate attire and not go make pa-cute because honestly, it ain’t cute.

So cut me some slack if you cannot accomplish your tasks on time due to your personal working habits. You do not have the right to be cranky, make dabog and be snooty whenever I ask for your status and accomplishments. Show some professionalism cause that is what is expected from you.

There is a right time and place for everything. Like what I said, you go to work to earn money and nothing else. If you get the chance to surf those networking sites and gain friends, then that is a bonus. I do not care what you do during your free time as long as you deliver and meet if not exceed the expectations of the client. However, if the value of our deliverables is affected, then that is another matter. Do not make excuses that you have lots of stuff on your plate and you are not super girl thus you cannot do well. Do not provoke me and I might just bring out your kryptonite.

Here vs. There

It is really difficult to be in between. I do not know where to place myself and to look forward too. This anticipation or lack of it is killing me. Should I start packing and getting stuff that I need or should I continue living within a budget to have “pocket money”?

HERE
1. Ultimate: Beg Nites Mondays at Meralco, Ultra Wednesdays, UP Saturdays, Apollo 10, PULL, Spirits... and the list goes on and on like the Energizer Bunny
2. Trips: Palawan, Macau, Laguna and a possible Surf Trip
3. QT with Family: Kuya’s wedding = relatives coming over from all places

THERE
1. Money: Per Diem = $$$
2. Trips: it is a trip itself with a possibility of numerous side trips
3. Dream: Onshore = long time vision for 5 years and counting
4. Growth: first time to be away from family for a long period of time
5. Miles away

Err. Whatever. In any case, it is I who will make here or there a win-win situation. Yes, buma-brightside! Guide me Kuya Jess and give me strength to face what future head on. May Your will be done. :)

On Making Do

I may not possess every characteristic a talented competitor should have but I make do with what I have to achieve something -- a goal. A goal not to waste what Kuya Jess gave me. Thus, I need to work hard and improve my so-called skills.

I do not have the physical qualities of a great athlete. I cannot run as fast as a cheetah, jump as high as a puma and certainly not as flexible as worm. All I have are my feet and legs that can bring me from point A to point B. Limbs that allow me to engage in different activities such as ultimate.

Self improvement, I need you! So I can be the best that I can be individually to develop my game and eventually help my team. Positivism do not leave me so that whatever experience I encounter in the future I will continue to fight.

Ability is what I am capable to do. Motivation determines what I will do. Attitude determines how well I do it. So help me God!