On People Who Take Advantage of the Christmas Season

Christmas is a season of joy, hope and love. It is the time of giving. But it irritates me when numerous "beggars" ring your bell and expect to get something. Even if how nice you try talk to them, they do not stop! They even have the guts to bad mouth you and stuff.

God, they are capable of earning! It does not mean just because it is Christmas they can do that. It does not mean that I suddenly earn a gazillion bucks since its the yuletide season and that I have something to spare them. I am not being greedy, it would be okay to give to the mailman, garbage man, recycle boy, waterman delivery dude... but random people? Gosh.

Wish List

I usually do not have a wish list. Maybe because I do not want anything in particular. If ever I do want something, when I ponder if I will get it, I end up not getting it due to multiple circumstances such as I do not really need it.

But lo and behold, my very first item:



Tokyo Flash

Would someone be my Santa for this year?

On Wishes

A wish is a desire... a longing for a specific thing. Earlier this morning there was a meteor shower. I made tons of wishes on the falling stars. One of those wishes was for us to win our game today.

We were surprisingly ahead by the end of the first quarter. Sadly, basketball is not composed of one quarter. By halftime we were double digits behind. But, I did not stop fighting. We made a run and by the end of three quarters we were only behind by 3! Then again, lack of training and resistance took its tool. They killed us in transition offense.

Even if I make countless wishes upon falling stars... it would never be enough if not everyone would exert 110%+ effort.

So do wishes come true?

Kalungkutan

Nakakaasar kung matagal kang pagbuksan ng pintuan. Tipong wala ka pa sa tapat ng iyong bahay nagsimula ka ng bumisina ngunit walang epekto. Kinailangan parin magantay ng siyam siyam bago kang pagbuksan. Tapos malamanlaman mo lang na tulog na ang katulong na 10! Ang sarap ng buhay ya, pabunjing bunjing lamang.

Pero ito talaga ang hindi masaya... ang umuwi sa bahay na walang laman. Napakatahimik. Walang sumalubong. Madilim. Ni ilaw sa itaas walang nakabukas.

I don't wanna be alone!

On OT

Im dead na...

Bye!

On Addicts

An addict is to occupy or involve in something habitually or compulsively. If this routine is disrupted, one is incomplete. Usually the term addict is associated with drugs. Then again, one may be obsessed in other things. Fetish for shoes, craving for chocolates, yearning for sex and engrossment towards games are some examples.

Sadly, I am addict. I am an addicted to this no filler game called bejeweled 2. I know this is such a lame and old game, but I do not know. Every night I play it. I say that I am waiting for sleep to catch me or that I am waiting for my hair to dry but I end up being too engrossed in the game. I would not stop until I beat my previous high score.

There was a night when I planned to sleep early because I will meet up with my officemate at around 7-ish. So I was in bed by 11ish. But guess what? It was already 2 in the morning and my eyes were wide open. Was it because I was not able to get my dose of excitement or was it because I was excited for the next day?

On Dares

A dare is to challenge someone to do something which requires boldness. There are instances that need some courage in order to accomplish something. Then again, there are occasions wherein it appears foolish to do something just because of a dare and due to the anxiety to be named chicken.

I do not consider myself audacious by nature. I have to work on my confidence and stuff. But it surprises me that when push comes to push, more often than not, I rise to the challenge. I find the nerves to showcase that I am not what they think I am.

I have not been major-ly dared; I stun myself with my actions. Such actions include looking like a dope by doing silly stuff resembling to smooching a person. Does it pay not to back done from dares? It adds color to life. In silence, I snicker on their disbelief and shocked reactions.

Note: Next time when you dare me, make sure that you are ready. You never know. I might just do it. Be ready with the consequences that may arise because of what you asked me to do.

Nothing personal. I just did what you DARED me.

Now, I dare you to move! :p

Bato bato sa langit

the whole context in which we met was innocent
it wasn't me who led
one long day it came with a rush
whom have you worked this magic on before?
you hide your thoughts and shroud yourself in mystery
when did you make a hole inside of me?
trapped in this room, suffocating in your niceties
somehow i want to hide myself somewhere away from you

-- Shiina Ringo

Finally

We won one! :)

It seems like ages since I last experienced the feeling of triumph. Yuck. Please. As if it was a championship game. Oh well. Pagbigyan nyo na... this does not happen very often. ;)

The good thing is that we are still ALIVE. We still have a huge chance of entering the final 4. Then again, there are only 6 teams. Hope we win our next game and the games after that.

Libre lang naman mangarap eh.

huwhy?!?

It is soooo unfair! How come those guys are gay? :( In fairness, they were kind and not the bastos type.

Still... it breaks my heart. Why can't they be straight?!?

Lazy Jologs Tae

What a day! It was such a lazy day. It was the last work day for the week. Throw in the gloomy and rainy weather. Plus the chaos caused by this dude who has a thing for hotels in Makati. Oh and of course the super tight work load we have to accomplish but failed to due to unavoidable circumstances.

Something jologs occurred. My brother texted me and informed me that someone hacked my old ym account. His friend, who is on my old account list, contacted my brother. He asked how I was. Apparently my old account messaged him. The archive of that conversation is in the office. Anyway the gist went something like this...

I asked for some phone card load from my brother's friend. And then I made small talk ek ek. Like I was badtrip that my brother's car got hit.

That was the first incident. The next one was.. my brother messaged me and guess what I replied?!?

Kuya?

Anak ng tokwa! Alam ya na kuya ko siya!

I also got a text message from another friend. He asked how many call cards I needed. So I replied that my account got hacked blah blah. He replied, no wonder ayaw ng pasaload. I guess he was bored and entertained this jologs hacker. He tried to catch him and oh man, maabilidad! He made one story after the other.

I think my other friend kinda caught him. My friend asked me why I used my old account. He sensed something dubious since I messaged him and I was invisible. Whoever that jologs hacker didn't bother my friend anymore.

But, ito ang panalo... my old account replied to me! WTF! It asked me if I wanted my account back. WTH! I said, no you can have it. As long na wag kang jologs at humingi ng phone card sa mga contacts ko. My old account did not reply anymore.

Jologs man. The nerve!

I do not know if I'll get annoyed, mad or if I will laugh it off. Sobrang jologs talaga. Walang kasing... It was sort of a hassle informing my contacts that it wasn't me and stuff. And it was kinda embarrassing... imagine... me asking for phone load? WTF! Then again, at least something preoccupied me. Haha.

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Tae talaga si Trillanes at si Lim. Ayos na lahat ng plano.. kain sa bombayin na lugar at pagkatapos manood ng gig ng kaopisina. Ngunit naging drawing nalang tuloy! TAE!

Curfew. What is this? A dry run of so called martial law? WTF!

Earthquake

After lunch, as I fought my urge to sleep, my chair suddenly shook. I thought someone was trying to catch my attention, however when I turned around no one was around. I looked below and checked the wheels of my chair if it was complete. And it was. Apparently, there was an....

EARTHQUAKE!

It lasted for around 5 seconds. No reacted immediately. Baka nakiramdam pa mga tao.

Quotable Quotes:
Ano gagawin ko? Magtatanggal na ba ako ako ng sapatos?
Saan ako magtatago?

Kulit mehn. Pero promise, medyo nahilo ako dun.

After two days...

It is still playing in my mind...
How I escaped...
How I drove in the middle...
How I threw it...
How the adrenaline felt...
How it circled around the rim...
Once...
Twice...
and finally...
it went....

OUT!

Err!

2nd Year

Happy 2nd year to me and my fellow booty campers who are managing to get through the unfair work circumstances/benefits of the company!

Alleluia! I am FREE!

So what now?

One of those questions

Why do people leave?
Do they leave so that they can come back?

So are you coming back... with a baggage?

Whatever!

Oh Grit

Bravery is difficult to acquire. It takes time, a day… week… months… to unearth the guts to act on something uncomfortable… time to set aside uncertainties. Even if unsure of the outcome, one digs deep to find the nerves to overcome fears. Desperately tries to anticipate the consequences nonetheless can never be prepared of the results.

Grit is doing disconcerting things. It is an admirable characteristic to possess. I appreciate it even if it took you half a year to be MAN enough to reveal the UNFORGIVABLE act you engaged in.

All I can say is…

Thank you for the delayed honesty.

Realization one two

Last August, when I browsed over my blog I found out the my blogs were work related RANTS!

Now it is already November. Here is the trend of my posts for the past two months:

September
Nothing really special or personal. Just random stuff especially movies!

October
I would say.. some stuff with sense. Mostly concerned my family relationships. And yeah, some personal growth for me I guess. Ohh my.. I forgot to update on my movies! :/

How would the last two months for 2007?
Hopefully less rants and less nonsense stuff. :))

When Will This All End?

I have been stuck with my current project for almost 2 years. Originally our target delivery date for phase 1 was set last October 2006. Sadly, due to unavoidable circumstances, we were not able to deliver :( On the lighter note, our client gave us an extension. I guess they knew that they were not doing their part.

Anyway, due to the extension, we continued with the project. Like how the saying goes...the show must go on. The show went on and on. What was so frustrating was our team gave all out effort to accomplish whatever was asked from us. Even if it was out of our scope, we did it! Even if it was not initially assigned to us, we eventually did it so that at least something would happen to our project.

In spite of all our efforts, I still did not see the light at the end of the tunnel. Then again, maybe I saw something before... but right now it is total blackout in here. :(

Crap. It does not feel good to do stuff when at the end of the day there is no accomplishment. Or you have accomplished something but on the next day it would be all scraped out because of some change of requirement. Argh!

October 2006... January 2007 ... March... August... October... December...
....
February 2008!

When will this all end?

Hopefully this would be my last work rant regarding this oh so beautiful project of ours. I hope the management would do something about what has been happening since I bet they already know the source of the delay. Then again, if our client would still not cooperate then I guess they should do some kind of a work around. If they would not do anything about it, then I guess the people would leave the company. Just like what our database manager, attorney, project manager, java architect, oracle dev and other java gurus did.

...

i'm doing well. hey, i wanted to talk to you for the longest time..

Sing this song...

" I gave my love to you despite
Your evil ways
I guess it's clear to me there's only
One thing left to say"

- Till you do me right

Eeep!

There was a time when I was addicted to downloading songs. I did not download just any song. I had a theme. It was not the current songs... not R&B... not house... not trance... not even the 90's. I looked for my wedding songs!

This was what I came up with:

* Beautiful In My Eyes by Joshua Kadison
* I Could Not Ask For More by Edwin McCain
* Your Smiling Face - James Taylor
* All You Need Is Love by Lynden David Hill
* Ikaw Lamang by Gary Valenciano

My search for wedding songs happened around a month ago.
Now I am addicted to weddings videos!

Oh my gulay. I know! So cheesy!
Eeeep!

To my future husband, please sweep me off my feet ASAP.

My Way Back to Basketball

Out of the blue.. I recently joined the team of my college teammates for this upcoming league this November. It was sobrang biglaan. Lately I felt like lazy ass. So I told myself I better do some physical activity other than playing WII or else my health would suffer some way or another. And guess what happened next? One of my college teammates messaged me in YM and invited me to join their league. So there. End of story.

Trained with them awhile ago. Whatta a way to welcome me. Good thing I was able to survive almost 45 minutes of basketball non stop. Huwow.

Now I am off to bed. Goodluck to my bodylicious goal.

Haha

Unknown

You're young until you're not.
You love until you don't.
You try until you can't.
You laugh until you cry.
You cry until you laugh.
And every one must breathe
Until their dying breath.

The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

some stuff to think about...

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it, or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own; if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, 'Yes.'

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Lazy Ass

I have been such a lazy.
'nuff said.

Huwow, Technology!

It is how amazing how technology works. Now I get to constantly communicate with my 7 year old cousin who in the US through email. I know, she is only 7 years old and she is already computer savy.

I just got an email from her. She said how much she misses us and how she hopes to come back and visit the country on her vacation.

Isn't she a sweetie?

:)

Unbelievable

No more Glorietta for the time being.

Unbelievable.

How could anyone do that? At first I thought it was some lpg of some sort that exploded. Sadly, it wasn't. Based from the damage it looked like some explosive chemical whatsoever was used. Insane. What was the motive behind all these?

I pray for the people who lost their limbs and lives in this unfortunate event.

Nawawala

Ako ay nawawala muli sa aking landas. Hindi ko alam kung ano na ang nangyayari sa aking buhay. Pakiramdam ko na ako ay isang robot. Natutulog, naliligo, nagtratrabaho at kumakain. Liban sa mga bagay na aking nabanggit, ewan ko ba, hindi ko alam kung ano ang gusto kong mangyari.

Ako nga ba ay nabubuhay o nagpapadala lamang sa agos ng buhay?

Ito ba ang tinatawag nila na mid-life crisis? Haha, baka is-tress lang ito.

Manang No More

After two weeks of not seeing my nephew...

He now calls me....

TITA and not Manang!

:)

:(

Spending time with people you love is one of the best feelings in the whole wide world. Spending time with people you haven't seen for the longest time is surreal.

People come and go. The one thing that you can do is make every moment count whenever you can. Time is something you cannot have back. Time passed by is gone forever.

Now, I am miss lonely without my two cute little cousins and their mom. :(

To my lil man... I wuv you...
To my "look a like"... Hello again!
To my aunt... *hug*

*tear*

Toy

My cousin would be turning 3 this 17th of October so I asked him...

Me: What do you want for your birthday?
Him: A tooooooooy!
Me: What kind of toy?
Him: A pa-tu-tooooy! *grins*
Me:*lost*
Ate: *starts laughing*
Me: *finally gets it*

Movie 37

88 Minutes

My brother wasn't up for a "heavy/serious" dvd, so we ended up with this suspense film. It was not a bad film. It made me say "Oh my gulay"! Haha. In addition, it lived up to what my mom said.. a thriller.

But next time, please do not make Al Pacino run... he is too old for that.
:)

Movie 36

Rouge Assassin

Since the 8pm showing of Adam Sandler's movie was already sold out, we decided to what this movie instead. I had no idea what it was about... I only knew Jet Li was one of the actors therefore I had this equation.. Jet Li = fighting scenes. And guess what, there were a number of blood spilled every now and then. Not only that there was also a car chase and even a motorcycle chase! Then again, the were some parts were not that smooth... or maybe they intentionally cut/deleted those scenes to make it a PG-13 movie.

(Note to self: get an uncut version)

Nevertheless, I enjoyed the movie. It had twists. And who wouldn't enjoy Jet Li?

Movie 35

Lucky You

Sometimes nothing's enough.

Horoscope

Hmm, for some weird reason natamaan ako.

Ouch

My brother's friend blurted this out when he saw me...

You look stoned!

Nice one pare!

Movie 34

1408

Good movie. Malinis ang pagkagawa. Smooth transitions.

Take note: Napasigaw ako ng di oras.

Hehehe.

Bloody Moon

Too bad it was cloudy here in Manila. I think my neck nearly broke from searching for the bloody moon. Just took this photo somewhere online. This was the view from Davao. I wish by Feb 2008 Manila would have a better view.

Good morning!

After a long lay off, surprisingly I arrived the office at 8! Yes, work mode already! As a routine, I checked my outlook as I updated my CVS. And then I saw an e-mail that ruined my day...

Starting August 29, we are required to come in at 12 hours a day until September!
What a way to start the morning!

I was so badtrip that I slept immediately after I ate dinner. That is the reason why I am already up at this hour. As if logging in 12 or more hours would equate to productivity. I could rant on this but right now, I opt not too.

Oh well, I think I should start Yoga-ing again to let go of all the negativities.

Namatze! :)

What a question...

So...naging kayo ba ni... *insert name*?

My reply: NO!

gave me a talaga lang look

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This wasn't the first time I was asked this question. What the heck. What made them think that?

Then again, everyone is entitled with their own opinion.

Still..

What a question!

My Look Alikes

Alizee some dancer/singer---artist who was born August 21, 1984, in Ajaccio, Corsica.

Janie Tienphosuwan - some Thai Model

and papa DAVID!

Weeeh, celebrity look alikes nga e!

i'm too tamad to look up the others.

Realization once again...

Most... rather ALL of my previous posts are work related RANTS!

Oh my, what does this imply? Am I not happy with what I am doing?
...
If so what should I do about it?

Help!

Cartoon 1

This is all I need right now....

OA!

And it is not over, goodbye YahooMail!

Good job!

So what did I resort to? I browsed through HQ out of boredom. And may bagong kababalagahan... I have a new APPR manager!

What the heck! How did that happen? There wasn't any advice. Crap! I cannot update or edit my objectives anymore! I aligned what I wrote earlier based on the what I have discussed with my "supposed" APPR manager.

Whatever talaga!

OA!

TAE!

Ok great. They blocked more sites!

Goodbye GMAIL! and not only that, they also blocked the proxy sites too!

Booo!

Now even project related sites take super long to load!

TAE!

Confession

There are moments that I think about you.

Loooong Layoff

Errr, back to so-called work tom.

Have to get back in the groove.

Bored?

105 Facts About Me

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
yes... oh, that was only a candy ring.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
who is counting?

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
this bracelet with a "hallmark" bookmark.

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
unintentionally..

5. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED?
for my day job, last Friday... for the other on, thats every instance.

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
food, r&r

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
ice cream... the one in the commercial of ate shawie

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
is he gay?

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
lss: beautiful girls - jojo

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
mental hospital

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:
St. Pedro Poveda College when it was still Learning Centre

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
I am Smart thus I use Globe when there is Sun.

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
sport shops, video stores and bookstores

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?
the one that I have right now... a year and 10 months and counting...

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
What?

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
Before >:)

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
an Indian wedding -- 07/07/07 at BKK

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
my mom

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND(S):
I do not have best friends.

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
fast food = unhealthy!!! then again, anywhere sulit!

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
I am okay...

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
anywhere with booze.

24. CAN YOU COOK?
of course... spam, corned beef, hotdog, egg... take your pick! :)

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
pUJE

26. BEST KISSER:
Me

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
July 15 out of frustration regarding how crappy Filipinos are... pasensya na.. pareho naman tayong Christyano, diba?

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
uberly spicy stuff

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
I am mean... and I like it! hihihihihi

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
lack of self confidence...

31. FAVORITE COLOR (s):
i do not have favourites but i am found with b&w

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
12 hrs.. then again.. I hardly work

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
she's all that hihihi

34. CAN YOU SING?
definitely, who can't? :))

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
Cascades at Lee

36. LAST KISS?
Friday

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
Macbeth.. for some Lit related thing

38. ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
myself. clothes and footwear.

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT:
the beach

40. LAST VACATION DESTINATION:
BKK and Laguna. I need a vacation for this month.. any takers?

41. WHERE ARE YOU GOING NEXT VACATION:
anywhere but here.

42. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO:
Australia

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Desktop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
Myself

45. DO YOU SMOKE WEED?
hell no!

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
with clothes

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
my sis

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
if you want it to work, you will find a way.

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
null

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
depends. id go for pancakes if it was tiny ones like the ones they serve every bfast at Marriot. Yum!

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
At times when my huge eyeballs cannot be seen anymore and when my hotness isn't enough.

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
soft... and scrambled.

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
we make our own destiny.

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
Karen

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
Dad

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?:
some forward quote or something that I instinctively deleted without reading. my bad.

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
none

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
spag top and bball shorts

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
why do i even bother waiting for you...

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
Strawberry

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
yes...badly

63. CAN YOU SWIM?
yeah... even synchronized!

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
dirty ice cream

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
maps = adventure!

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
i am sexy... oh, you knew that already?

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
yeah... and waiting for next one ;)

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
summer

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
always. i have my own world

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
woke up at 6 but got up at noon

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
snow angels

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
never

74. WHAT WAS IT FOR?:
never nga e.

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
tobot?

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
jack sparrow is.

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
into the jungle!

78. BIRTHDATE?
04/30

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:
a princess

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
nope. im using persophone

87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
oo, habang nakakunot ang noo

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
yes

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
Africa

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
i could pass as a high school student

93. DO YOU HAVE A MIDDLE NAME?:
jimenez

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?:
i do not have favourites.

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?
hot red

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?
Nope

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
yes, bkk

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
nope, but I would love to go to one.. the one that includes Alaska!

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
yes

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
yes

101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
what is love?

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?:
yes, just last week

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?:
yes

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?:
does a tongue ring count?

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?:
surf!

Charan

I received a letter about the mystery last Friday.

Charan, so I got a raise and promotion which took effect last July pa.

So what is next in line for me?

Rainy Days

Hello Egay!

As usual, PAGASA's announcement was late.

Dapat ako nalang ang nag-aanounce kung may pasok o wala e, kasi ayun, tama nanaman ako at uulan ng grabe!

Hehehe

Question

It seems like I cannot think of something interesting or worthy to write about. What have I been up to lately and nothing inspires me? Am i living or am I just existing?

Feels Like Christmas

When I got in the office, I checked my account online since it is Friday Pay Day. To my surprise, I got credited more than I expected. So I emailed ms payroll regarding this matter. Apparently there is a salary adjustment and I got some retro pay. The letter would just follow.

So when will I get promoted? When will be my next increase? Hahahaha!

Merry Christmas!

jakabut!

First: A memo
a) ANNOYING loud voices
- it can only be loud voices, but why add the ANNOYING? but how come you can laugh out loud whenever you are over the telephone?

b) people spending way too long for breaks
- technically, having a 15 minute break in the morning and one in the afternoon and an hour lunch break is enough... only if once we get up our seats we have food already and there is a place to eat in the pantry.

c) coming in outside the core time
- as if you guys give us some benefits if we stay for more than 8 hours.

Second: block the recreational sites.
what happened to growth? how can we gain more knowledge if we do not have access to it?

Third: erratic internet connection = no net at all = faulty messengers
What if I need to verify something from my co-worker... do I need to go all the way to his cube instead of just pm him?

Hello, loud voices!

Word of advice:
Practice what you preach.

Movie 33

The Simpsons Movie

Spider-Pig, Spider-Pig.
Does whatever a Spider-Pig does.
Can he swing
from a web?
No he *can't*,
cause he's a *pig*.
Look out!
He is the *Spider-Pig*!

My Nephew

I got my nephew form his yaya while his yaya prepared his food. Apparently, my nephew is uber attached to his yaya that he called out his yaya’s name continuously. My nephew looked for his yaya even how hard I tried to entertain him. Suddenly my nephew acted like he was about to cry. So I went to his yaya.

Nephew wanted to jump into his yaya’s arms who had her hands full with a plate and a bowl.
Me: Kaya mo?
Nephew: Kaya
Yaya gave the plate and bowl to the other helper and got my nephew who had a mischievous grin.

Movie 31

Charlotte's Web

No. Good things come to those who find it and shove it in their mouth!
- Templeton

Bumping Into People Who Think They Are Famous

Person #1:
While I made my way from one mall to another it suddenly became dark. A tall dark creature blocked the light... it was the import of the current champion team in Philippine Basketball Association. He was all by himself with this half smile plastered on his face. His height made me caught my attention. Good thing I did not bump into him despite being my usual self...not looking where I was going.

Person #2:
After a movie... my friend goes... "Kitchie!" then made his swabe move and made beso the creature. This simple girl was with another guy, and his face suddenly transformed. Haha! My friend introduced me and the simple girl with a tattoo on her finger shook my hand.

Yeah, feeling famous na din ba?

Help Me

I'm trying to wake you up! There's a big fucking world out there. It's messy, and it's chaotic, and it's never, it's never ever the thing you'd expect. It's ok to be scared but you cannot allow your fears to turn you into an asshole, not when it comes to the people that really love you, the people that need you.

I need to be stronger! I cannot let some freaky old man scare me.
pasensya na, pareho naman tayong Kristyano... Magkano ba yan? Ito! Limang daan. Hindi kasi tumunog ang ditector ko e.

Go to hell man. Karma!

Somebody help me! I

Movie 30

In The Land of Women

why do you run sooooo gay?
waaaah!

Movie 29

Die Hard 4.0

That is why it is called Die Hard... he just wouldn't die!

Movie 28

The Reaping

Can love be learned?

I just got back from BKK last Monday. Shopping nor the elephants and temples were not my major priorities. I went there mainly to attend a friend’s wedding. It was not any ordinary wedding… it was an arranged Indian wedding. I felt like I was watching a foreign film without the subtitles because the events were in Indian or whatever that language was.

I still cannot believe that she got married. Imagine, she is only 23! My friend never introduced a boyfriend, or if ever she did, it was different guy. Anyway, I am not sure who the guy is. I never got introduced! They said that the guy is a family friend or they met through a matchmaker of some sort. Well, whatever the circumstances are, when did marriage become an institution? I am not sure if my friend have some passionate feelings towards the guy.. but at least they said the guy respects her. Then again, is it possible to learn to love someone for the sake of your family name? Maybe that is how Indian culture goes.

Do not get me wrong, I enjoyed every moment of it. It was a different experience. I just hoped someone explained what was going on. All the same, I am very thankful that she invited me and even shouldered the accommodations at this 5 star hotel.

Movie 27

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

...the world isn't split into good people and death eaters. We have all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the power we chose to act on. That’s who we really are.

Movie 26

Next

Movie 25

Transformers

Lesson: More than meets the eyes...

I <3 Bumblebee!

Ang Aking Kapalaran

yikes. so should i go on with the biz venture?

Cruiser Times

made by Foxy Faye

Take Your Pick

Which aroma would prefer:

* coffee breath

OR

* morning breath

Early Bird

Lately I’ve been arriving before 8am in the office. Yeah, I know that this is way out of my character. For instance, last Tuesday I go in at 7:45 – yoh! I started hearing comments from my so-called early officemates. It was my earliness or my black is beautiful color. Because of this, my officemates and I decided to amuse ourselves.

Game: Earliest to arrive in the office
Prize: The first person gets a free lunch.

Aren't we such kids?

Too bad I wasn’t the first, but its alright I wasn’t the last naman.

Now I am getting sleepy.
Time to get coffee.

PJ

My cousin from Chicago was here for the past few weeks. It is his first time here. He is an American Citizen but then again, he is pure Filipino. Weird? Well, thats him.



1. Food trip
At first we brought him to various restaurants, but it turned out that he is easy to please. He'd eat anything and everything... just not mangoes. Number one on the list: C2 = two piece chicken with extra gravy please. :) JOLLIBEE is his closest friend.. he is so JOLLY and it makes him smile



2. Paintball



It was my second time to play. It was kinda expensive... 500 bucks for 100 bullets. But no regrets. Who would have thought that shooting people would be super duper fun?

3. Trips

Went to Boracay with the Jimenez clan... Cunanan, Siwa, Jimenez, Mercado. And guess what? Even Lolo came! We weren't complete though, nevertheless we had innocent fun ;)

4. Clubbing
Embassy, Warehouse 135, Alchemy... plus other places in Timog. Yeah, that kid is so sociable. He lives to party. 'nuff said.



These are some of the stuff we did during his stay. Not really though, I missed out on the other stuff... like the ghost hunting at the film center -- he is a scaredy cat, second round of paintball -- he is the favorite of the guy who manages the place, more clubbing and drinking -- he drinks WAY too much!, more eating aka saisaki -- he really has a HUGE appetite, bowling, malling but then again, I had my own fun in the Visayas. Well that is another story to tell, this is about PJ who is one huge crazy kid stuck in a macho body with a beer belly.

'Til lext time. Remember, stay out of trouble, behave, do not talk to strangers. :)

Rock and Roll!

Movie 23

Fantastic Four Rise of the Silver Surfer

Lesson: We always have a choice.

Spoiler alert...
Victor Von Doom lives
Susan Storm dies...
Silver Surfer DIES as well

wehehehehe!

Watch it and see it with your own eyes!

Leaving On A Jet Plane

Summer is not yet over for me...

Baguio...Batangas... Boracay... now...

CEBU and BOHOL

:)

See yeah!

Early Bird

Oh Yeah!
Time check? 8:09AM!
Good job!

Until when will this "new life" of mine last?

New Life

Guess where I am right now?
In the office!
Huwhat?
Is this me?
Hahahaha!
And take note, Ive been here for almost an hour now.

So this is the life...
Come in early, when the big bosses are not around.
Pretend to be working aka "petiks"
Then leave when Ive accomplished the number of hours.
Not my fault I have no urgent tasks.

:)

MIxed Nuts

I got another notification regarding an extension in my current project. This is the second one I got... January became March... then March is not September.

Should I be happy or sad?

Celebrate cause at least people need my services or be weary since I would be stuck in this project?

Deli's

For the pass two Fridays I found myself having dinner in Delis.

thinks... what is a Deli...

With the help of Wik!pedia...

Reference works state that the word delicatessen comes from German Delikatessen, and that this German word is the plural of Delikatesse, which in turn comes from French delicatesse and means "delicious things (to eat)". The word delicate is recorded in Latin as delicatus, with the meaning "giving pleasure, delightful".

An alternative (although wrong) popular etymology supposes that the -essen part of the word is in fact the German word essen (= English: to eat, German: das Essen = English: the food). This would mean that the word is a portmanteau of the German words "delikates" (delicious, nominative case) and "Essen". "Delikat essen" (with delikat as an adverb) is also a comprehensible phrase in itself in modern German, meaning "to eat delicious things".

Anyway, moving on... last Friday I was in Swiss Deli and Bistro. My colleague's band had a gig there and coincidentally, one of my closest teammate from college wanted to hang out. To hit two birds with one stone, I suggested to have dinner at the Deli along Pioneer and Sheridan St, Mandaluyong City. We did not have a difficult time finding the place, with my "research".

The ambiance was nice (for a lack of my vocabulary). It had a homey feel. The Deli offered many products... from hams, sausages, beef and other authentic ingredients they utilize.

When we sat down, they served us with "complimentary" bread. We got a Caesar Salad --- super filing, Raviolli in Tomato Sauce and some Sausage dish --- forgot the name, decided to get this cause it looked like Sausage dishes were their specialties. For dessert we got heavenly truffles! *yum* I do not know why, but I enjoy Swiss/Belgian or whatever you call those chocolates with description. I guess it adds a little excitement... It was great. We were so stuffed. Good value for our money.

Sidenote: I feel kinda guilty tho that I wasn't able to watch my officemate sing.. but in fairness, I heard her sing. :) I wanted to shout like how a typical "groupie" would react, but I still have my manners... then again, maybe I chickened out because I was shy and that I might make a fool out of myself.
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Awhile ago, I had my second Deli experience. A friend of mine invited me to have dinner at Galileo Enoteca. I had no idea what kind of restaurant that was, so since I sit in front for like 8 hours, I decided to research on it to avoid any humiliation.

The real thing did not fall short based on what I saw online. The place had an Italian theme and I felt I was in a totally different place. I am not good with words and bad with describing, so I suggest you go to their Mandaluyong or Makati branch to see it for yourself. :)

Let me go to the food instead...

I think in Deli's they really serve bread... (sorry naman...) It had three dips along with it: pate, tomato salsa and this green thing (balsamic) swimming in olive oil (forgive me for not knowing what it is called). Then we got a feeling healthy garden salad and mushroom risoto along with our chilled white wine. The salad was tasty while the risoto looked like sticky rice. It was heavy. But of course, we had space for dessert... Gelato After Eight -- a mint and chocolate gelato cake with chocolate bits. It was soooo good like O.

We paid already, but guess what... there was more! They gave us this dessert wine. I do not know what its called --- it was a light white wine with a fruity taste. But man, ang lakas gumuhit ... like traitor margarita. (hahaha hirap na hirap mag explain) I thought that was all, but lo and behold... they gave us this thicky velvety hot chocolate! It was just right. Not too bitter and not too sweet! Panalo!

So there, ang haba na nito.

Hmm, whats next kaya?

Hehehehehe

Who Let The Dogs Out?

Me: Yes?
X: Maybe you are worrying why we are not yet at home...
Me: Yeah... where are you?
X: *calmly* We are in the hospital... *insert name* got bitten by a dog.
Me: Hah? How? Where was he bitten?!?!
X: At the eye area...
*Me pictures a huge dog attacking him*
it was a house dog... he thought it was a pillow.

All At Once

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and
The right thing are the same.

Was I in pain? Or am I still?

Movie 22

Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End

Should I be shocked?

I'm gay, that's why.

Chronicles of an Emobear for May

…knew the signs wasn’t, right I was stupid for awhile…

At times, a so-called mistake done once may become a sick cycle. They say that a thing which occurred once may never happen again. But if there is a second time, surely there is a next time. So why allow and situate yourself to commit this blunder? What triggers it?

Maybe perhaps wishful thinking, belief that people change, benefit of the doubt or perhaps plain stupidity…

Perhaps perhaps perhaps…

So was I ever loved by you? Or did you feed me lies of some idealistic future?

Private Coversation

17 year old boy: Ummmm.... (clears throat), I have a private question...
Aunt: Yes? What is it?
17 year old boy: Is Ate *insert name* pregnant?
Aunt: Yes, why?
17 year old boy: starts to laugh hysterically
Aunt: Why? What is wrong with that? She is married...
17 year old boy: continues laughing hysterically
Aunt: Oh yeah, you had a crush on her. *laughs*

Truth?

the truth is, everyone's gonna hurt you. you just have to decide who's worth the pain.

Movie 21

Shrek 3

Commitment

How come some people have fickle minds?
Why do they agree to do something then suddenly back out cause another thing comes up?

If you want to go there instead of going with us we understand. Just go straight to the point and stop making whatever excuses cause blah blah blah. It is not as if we cannot continue with what we planned.

Movie 20

28 Weeks Later

My cousin was in heat so he suggested to watch a movie. I had no idea what the plot or whatever the movie was about, thus I did not expect anything. Then again, what amazing things can you do with crazed rampaging killers with bloodshot eyes infected by some virus?

All I can say is... it was an eerie and scary/morbid movie. If you do not have anything else to do, still do not watch it. No offense meant, but the movie was not that great. It lacked something. Maybe an ending?

Hahahaha! Rip off!

Movie 19

Thank You For Smoking

12

My pm is “exhorting everyone to extend work hours as necessary to be able to deliver these expected deliverables..”

There is no doubt that we are way behind schedule. There are many things to be done but too little time. It is not there are no people to do it, we are one of the largest project. In my opinion it is just a matter of scheduling and prioritizing tasks. Poor planning!

It would be fine to log in 12 hours if I was paid accordingly. Who is in the right mind to work 4 extra hours for just 100 bucks?

Hello! I have a life outside of work!

What to say?

What would you say if you find out…

You do not have a dad anymore?
Your mom’s time is about to end?

Letting go is certainly difficult.

On Birthdays...

No real big celebration...
just indirect events such as...
dinner with officemates at dampa ortigas
impromptu inuman afterwards
roadtrip
beach beach
foodtrip
lunch with family
pakain sa office
"party" at embassy
spidey

Movie 18

Spiderman 3

Keso!

Cheese. Cheesier than nacho cheese and a four cheese pizza. It makes some cringe and sick. But what guess what? One can make cheese that is cheesier than all 4 cheese pizza that pizza parlors can create, or better, a whole galaxy of cheese planets all rolled into one giant cheese. It is definitely gross, but it means a lot and I guess the bitterest people write the sweetest lines that makes those cold hearted people throw up. The twisted feeling in the tummy that also warms the heart, that drives makes people insane and crazy.

It is gonna be a secret.

How stupid is it? I can't talk about it
I gotta sing about it and make a record of my heart
How stupid is it? Won't you gimme a minute
Just come up to me
And say hello to my heart
How stupid is it? For all I know you want me too
And maybe you just don't know what to do
Or maybe you're scared to say: 'I'm falling for you'


The thought of you makes me smile. The thought of you and people like you breaks my heart.

Movie 17

Pan's Labyrinth

Ang Pag-Ibig

Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin.

Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw.

Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason. Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang. Leche, ano ba talaga?!

May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people." Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon.

Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang.

Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig.
Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya.
Lahat ng malalakas na tao, humihina.
Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba.
Ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa.
Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot.
Ang malulungkot, sumasaya.

Nakakatawa talaga. Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh. Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na "Ayoko na ma-inlove!" biglang WACHA! Ayan na siya.

Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman.

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing galing mo?
Pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala ring tama?

Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig.
"Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala. Sabi ko na eh!"
"Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na 'ko mamatay. Now na!"

At hindi lang 'yon. Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos 'pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan. Siya!
"Bakit niya 'ko sinaktan?"
May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon, at pagbabagsak ng pinto.

Hayop talaga.

Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatawa 'pag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na 'ko.

Pero wala pa rin akong alam.

Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline.

Nakakatawa no?

Nakakaiyak.

Looking Back...

A continuation of my realization... sorry don't know to do the cut thing...

I wrote this last May. 3rd, 2005|10:11 pm]

Birthday Memories

2001
I spent this in HK with the ladies. Then my friend invited me to go to Shang when I arrived. He inivited me pala cause my friends fixed a "surprise" party for me. Thanks for the video as well. I also had a small dinner at Club Filipino. Haba ng birthday ko diba? Hehe.

2002
I had a small dinner at the other house. I wore this dark blue sleeveless blouse and skirt picked by my sis. Then a not so nice incident happened towards the end. Tsk tsk. What would you do if someone is gay? Guess you should be happy for that person nalang.

2003
Some of my teammates came over at 12MN and surpised me. But as usual I did not get surprised. What's new? Hehe. Then during the afternoon we had a game versus boys! Hehe. Then had dinner Don Hen with the team and family. Afterwards dapat mag-billiards but I preferred to rest nalang. Am I old? Hehe.

2004
I had a small dinner again at the other house. I wore this gray t-back top and black skirt picked by my sister again. :)My cake was shaped like a jersey. Thanks mom and sis! :P If my memory is right spag, pita, lengua, chicken and bbq was served. A number of people went home drunk. Haha!

2005
I had a small dinner at the other house...again. I wore this white spag top and beady butterfly wrap around skirt picked by my sister... again. My cake this time was round with overflowing flowers at the center. Thanks to mom and sis... again! (Wow! Ain't I loved? Hehe.) This time (the ever famous) spag, honey chicken, beef and mushroom (champion) bbq was prepared.

Grabe! Ang tanda ko na pala! Haha! Pero kahit na.. papasa parin akong 16 years old... Hmm, kaya pa atang 14! Haha! Pero parang tulad nga ng sabi nila, mga 40 years old daw ako na stuck sa katawan ng teenager! Ano ba naman iyun! Wahahaha!

Malamang sa susunod na taon wala na akong pakain kasi hindi naman akong pedeng humingi na ng pera sa aking mga magulang kasi dapat sa araw na iyun nagtratrabaho na ako. Hehe. Tingnan nalang natin.

Maraming salamat sa lahat ng bumati sa akin at lahat ng pumunta. Mahal ko kayo! :D
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Then this on... April 30, 2006 - 23:23

23rd

Before 5am in the morning I've barfed three times already. I saw the toppings of the Hawaian pizza that I ate earlier in the sink since I wasn't able to reach the toilet. It was gross. I haven't barffed that much in my whole existence.

Due to my upset stomach our breakfast out did not push through. I felt such a loser since my family was excited and woke up early. I told them to go ahead without me however they decided not to since it would be different. I woke up at 12:30 and wasn't able to hear mass with my folks.

I arrived at 1 for lunch. When I got there, everyone knew about my condition. Oh great. Since I was not confident with my stomach I wasn't able to enjoy the food. I didn't even get a slice of cake and scoop of ice cream due to the fear that I might throw up or whatsoever.

I slept again when I got home. When I got up again, I dragged myself to dinner which I didn't appreaciate that much due to my condition. I didn't stay that long since I had to hear mass and thank our Creator for giving me life.

And that was how I spent my 23rd year in this world. No small dinner with friends for this year. Tsk tsk.

Realization

Oh my! It is already April! Therefore it means...

Yikes! Plus 1!

How am I going to spend it for 2007?
Will it be a couple of days affair?
Will it be like any ordinary day?
Will someone or people try to surprise me?

*hint hint*

:)

Holy Week 2007

Monday
Didn't go to work. Went down from Baguio.

Tuesday
Went back to work. Wasn't doing anything... productive. Was bored to death. Suddenly, hello meeting from 2pm - 6pm-ish. Kamusta naman yun?

Went to south for a dinner party. Hello shrimps, crabs, salmon and turkey. I love my clan!

Wednesday
Super lazy day at work. Feel na feel na mag bakasyon! Wore a skirt. Wrong move I guess cause many people were dressed down. On a lighter note, I think I should do it more often, so that masabihan akong "Sexy!" Wahahaha! Just kidding!

Went to Katipunan. Got kinda starstruck. Saw a number of people who think they are famous. Haha. I write a separate entry about that one.

Thursday
Attended to my so-called religious obligations. Washing of the feet thing. Then visited churches. Stations of the cross. Naudlot yung Manila Cathedral. Ambisyoso! Ended up in Mcdo.

Friday
Attended mass at MTQ. I guess that was it. Watched one episode of 7th Heaven. Man, I totally forgot about it! Did some "spring" cleaning... na up to now I am not yet done with. :(

Saturday
Tried to do some cleaning. Finally, landline is up again. Why does it always die during the Holy Week? Found out 2 deaths --- one stroke the other was suicide :( Had dinner at Serendra and hanged out there.

Sunday
Seafood menu for lunch! Played with my nieces and nephew. Cute Cute! They always make my weekend! Wasn't able to help out in the Easter festivities cause I had to get back to cleaning :(

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One more day before I get back to "reality". Hopefully it would be a productive one.

Ho-hum!

<3

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

-- Neil Gaiman

Kid Talk

My cousin is so cute! His mom asked him where he wants to celebrate his birthday and he said:

"At home, because I want salmon, crabs, shrimps and turkey"

He is super adorable! So big and hug-able! Super kagigil talaga.

YM Message

Was chatting with a friend of mine... then before he left he said...

ey *insert my name*, i gtg, got some tennis scheduled, talk to u soon, don't stare at wentworth too much, it'll burn ur eyes out haha, ingat!

At natuwa naman ako dun.

Information = Power?

Listen to what is shared…respond as if “interested”… ask questions that do not sound suspicious and accept and digest whatever is uttered.

Is being an observer of psychological creatures unhealthy? Should some things be left at it is? Would lesser knowledge be better? Would it be better to be left in the dark rather to be lost in a blitz of confusion and not knowing what is real or not?

What is the deal? You said you wanna marry before you reach 30 so that you would still have the energy and physical capabilities to play with your kids. However, there are many obstacles with this plan of yours… such as not having a degree and not having anyone to be your wife.

Wala nga ba talaga? Kamusta naman yung nangyari sa Pudlot? Dinaya ka ba? Iniwan ka ba? O ikaw ang gago?

Stop playing with emotions… cause if you do not, I will stop playing your game.

Lost?

It is 1 am, and I cannot sleep. I keep thinking about my life so far... thoughts about the future, thoughts about what I have done with my life. Thoughts about what I should be doing are floating in my head right now... I try, but I cannot get a solid grasp of what they are. I cannot even put them to words, but I know, I am at a point in my life where I am reassessing my direction, my priorities... deciding what road to take... deciding whether to throw caution to the wind and follow my heart or stay rational and logical and follow my brain...
It is tough when you do not know where you are. When you are fearful that you have missed a corner and now traveling down a very different road. It is hard when you cannot read the signs and there is no way for you to know which direction you ought to take. It is scary when you know that you have no one other than your self to blame for whatever mistakes you made...
Run and hide or face it... seems so simple, but in truth is very hard to answer... I wish I had the courage to face everything head on... but sometimes, there are things that are better left in the dark... better left unopened... better left alone... and this thing... whatever it is, seems like one of those things... I will try to leave it alone for now... and then reassess maybe in a few weeks time, if I have enough courage or will to face it...

Chronicles of an Emo Bear 104

I should be happy right now because this was the sign I prayed for. This is what I wanted. This is the “right thing” to do. You just made it easier with your “stupidity”.

BUT… why does it feel so difficult?

It is so damn difficult to push away someone you desperately want to stay because it is the “right thing” to do. But what hurts more is when find yourself still wishing the person is there despite the fact the person cannot be with you.

“The farther I go away from you… the closer you feel inside…”

Anak ng…so EMO!

Movie 16

Little Miss Sunshine

Movie 15

Premonition

On Annoying Drivers

Would you tolerate the so-called skills of those annoying bus, taxi and jeepney drivers? Would you let their king of the road attitude go by? Or would you allow them to stress you and go neck to neck with them?

These infuriating drivers have their reasons for acting as such. Imagine weaving through only in the Philippines traffic all day long. It is a tough life out there, you know. They need to make a living by getting as many passengers and trips as they can. However, are these good reasons or explanations for their actions? How come in other countries drivers of public transportations follow the rules? Drivers should have discipline kasi.

Then again, how could people have discipline if people with authority break the rules as well? There are rules but no action or no right implementation. This is sad.

So what would you do? Let those reckless drivers get away or stand up for what your rights?

Movie 14

Because I Said So

Friendster Horoscope

Wouldn't I be toooo EXCITED if I did?
;)

Such Kids part 2

The kids are now friends...

My older brother (26) and I recently had a fight (that I thought of blogging about, but decided otherwise). It was a huge one, basically, just like the other rare fights we've had in the past. I acquired a huge bump on my head. One that made me look like I had half a balut stuck on my head.

Therefore, I ignored him during the next days. Actually, I didn't see him at all even if we do live in the same house. Or maybe I just don't look at his way whenever I feel like he's around. I just hated the idea of him and me sharing the same oxygen.

But, of course, he'll always be my brother. I hate to admit it, but we're so similar in a lot of ways. Ironically, those similarities make us clash with one another. We're both competitive and we can't handle immaturity--even if we have tendencies to be immature. Blah. It's weird.

Anyway, he woke me up awhile ago, while I taking a nap before dinner time. He had a box of Hello Panda and a pack of Chocnut. & then, there, he apologized.

That's when I realized the number one thing he has taught me through these years: Apologizing. I'm so bad at it because I always come up with reasons not to. Good thing my brother, despite being the big and angas person that he is great at it.

&, anyway, i hate fighting with any of my siblings. despite our differences, i'm thankful that i ended up having them. :)

Movie 13

The Good Shepherd

On Writing So-Called Letters

Why do I write those in the first place?
Maybe because I...
do not really have anyone to address those notes to...
wanna make others happy...
wanna express my so called "affection" even in a weird way...
am secretly hoping that I'd get one of those from someone who really cares.

Errr....
Hopeless romantic strikes again!

On Being Lost...Again

Heart beating so fast… out of breath… cannot keep still…
Many random thoughts running through my mind…
I HATE this!

Once again, I am lost. I do not know what I want. Rather, what I want to do with my life! Am I experiencing some sort of a crisis here? I feel like a robot who does routinely activities. Wake up in the morning… prepares to work… pretends to work… mingle with people… pretends more…goes home and drain myself with my useless thoughts. I do go out at least twice a week, but its not much. I still have a hella lot of time for my nonsense and it is killing me!

What is my purpose in this lifetime? I try to make people happy, do they even notice? Would it even matter if the ground suddenly opened and swallowed me?

Maybe I need more action. I need a LIFE… a life with PURPOSE!
Somebody… save me… PLEASE!

Such Kids

Message 1:
Ate, please go to the other house. Your sister is here.

My Reply:
Why? Whats up?

Message 2:
She got in a fight with your kuya and she has a huge bump on her forehead. It is swelling right now.

My Reply:
I'm not at home.

Okay great. My siblings are such kids! Imagine a 26 year old huge guy lay a hand on a 18 year old lady! Mind you, this was not the first time this happened. As of now, I do not know what the exact story is, but I guess it started with a simple chanchawan. Knowing them, a mababaw thing can grow into something else.

They are really siblings. Walang gustong magpatalo.

Tsk tsk.

Movie 12

300

Movie 11

Flushed Away

Roddy is a decidedly upper-crust "society mouse" who lives the life of a beloved pet in a posh Kensington flat. When a sewer rat named Sid comes spewing out of the sink and decides he's hit the jackpot, Roddy schemes to rid himself of the pest by luring him into the "whirlpool." Sid may be an ignorant slob, but he's no fool, so it is Roddy who winds up being flushed away into the bustling sewer world of Ratropolis. There Roddy meets Rita, an enterprising scavenger who works the sewers in her faithful boat, the Jammy Dodger. Roddy immediately wants out, or rather, up; Rita wants to be paid for her trouble; and, speaking of trouble, the villainous Toad--who royally despises all rodents equally, making no distinction between mice and rats--wants them iced ... literally. The Toad dispatches his two hapless hench-rats, Spike and Whitey, to get the job done. When they fail, the Toad has no choice but to send to France for his cousin--that dreaded mercenary, Le Frog.

On Humility

There is no paradigm shift without humility.
Humility is the foundation of all virtues.
Without it, there's no virtue to speak of.
They are mere role play -- acting.
Like an actor or any actress,
Waiting for the crowd
To applause.

Tablado?

A: I am so disappointed at you…
B: Like what you said, we are still in the process of getting to know each other… so do not expect much/anything from me.
A: Yeah, I know… so who am I to feel and react this way? I am just your friend.
B: C’mon --- we both know there is something to look forward too…
A: Honestly --- right now, I do not know… I do not think so…

SILENCE

B: What are you doing? I think I should go to bed.
A: No.. I am doing something pa.
B: Okay. I'll go to bed na...
A: Alright. BYE!

Movie 10

Letters from Iwo Jima

The island of Iwo Jima stands between the American military force and the home islands of Japan. Therefore the Imperial Japanese Army is desperate to prevent it from falling into American hands and providing a launching point for an invasion of Japan. General Tadamichi Kuribayashi is given command of the forces on the island and sets out to prepare for the imminent attack. General Kuribayashi, however, does not favor the rigid traditional approach recommended by his subordinates, and resentment and resistance fester among his staff. In the lower echelons, a young soldier, Saigo, a poor baker in civilian life, strives with his friends to survive the harsh regime of the Japanese army itself, all the while knowing that a fierce battle looms. When the American invasion begins, both Kuribayashi and Saigo find strength, honor, courage, and horrors beyond imagination.

Everything happens in threes.

Unspoken Thoughts 3

If you only knew what was running through my mind would you even think twice before doing what you did? I was worried. Countless scenarios entered my mind. What if you got in an accident while you were driving under the influence? What if you got into a fight on you way home especially with a temper like yours?

I know those were stupid situations. And to top it off, when I woke up I checked the newspaper for accidents…the obituary…etc. When I got to work, I checked the news. Yes, I was that PARANOID!

But guess what? Apparently I was on the right track after all. You did something STUPID and found yourself inside the hospital!

I appreciate your honesty and repentance. Alright, I forgive you because who I am nt to? So there, I guess that is my sign to stop whatever this I am feeling. Like what I said… why settle for someone ordinary when there is someone extraordinary out there who is not into yosi and DRUGS!
---------
Do you forgive me?
silence
NO!

Unspoken Thoughts 2

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between I think of you. I know it is stupid. You may like me, but what I feel towards you is something I cannot describe. I am not your significant other or whatsoever, but not knowing where you are and what you are doing bothers me. Not getting any response or answer to message and call makes me uneasy.

This is REALLY ridiculous!

I just have to control and stop it. Like what I said before, I am still getting to know you. Everything is happening so fast – then again, you like it fast. You may still be in the rebound and stuff. On the other hand, I am not 110% certain if I am ready to allow you to cause/inflict me pain. Lastly, why would I settle for something ordinary when there is someone extraordinary miles away from me?

On Life

Life is really ironic. It is like a paradox.

The person you like, does not like you or s/he seems so far and distant.
On the other hand, you do not like the person who likes you.

How many people would actually wait?
And how many would actually just take the easier way and be loved instead of to love?

Is it fair to be loved more and not to love as much in return?

Life is never as straight forward as it should be.

Then again, we have to move forward and not just move straight ahead.

Ang Cupido

We all fall for someone from time to time. This isn't our fault, it happens because we get hit by one of Cupid's arrows. Cupid was born in 1573 in Paris, the son a French painter and his beleagured wife.



An artist's impression of Cupid

Cupid never actually graduated from Love School; he failed his archery exam because he was such a terrible shot. In spite of this he has gone on to become the most successful person to have attended the school.

In his own estimation his proudest moment was making Adolf Hitler and Eva Braun fall in love. Cupid was himself a Nazi and wanted to do something for his good friend "Addy", indeed Cupid stayed in Hitler's bunker until the very end.

For true love to occur, one of Cupid's arrows needs to pierce our heart directly (see diagram). The closer to the center the better.




Cupids arrows are dipped in love juice, this disperses into the heart making the person all sappy. The love juice is made from:

• Melted down romantic films. The quality of the film affects the love's chance off success. Should it be something fun and funky such as the Wedding Singer the relationship has every chance. However if the film was some god awful tripe featuring Julia Stiles then it is doomed from the very beginning.


• Awww juice. This is created every time someone saws "awww" because of Cutesy Wutesy Kittens, Fluffy Wuffy Bunny Wabbits or Sweet and Cute and Ickle (sic) Ducklings.



• Mushed up Flower Petals. Cupid uses sweatshop workers to stomp on them and give them the correct texture.

However as already mentioned, Cupid isn't the best shot. This means things frequently go wrong, which we will cover in "Heartbreaks".

source: http://blogs.warwick.ac.uk/mwalker/entry/guide_to_love/

Movie 9

Curse of the Golden Flower

Movie 8

Stranger than Fiction

Unspoken Thoughts

I have been thinking about what you said while we were waiting for our food. I am flattered that you feel that way towards me. I know during that time I said that it was okay but right now it does not feel right. I am not good with words and I do not know how to explain my thought. Guess what I am trying to verbalize is that I am confused and I do not know where to place myself.

I admit that I enjoy your company. You are easy to get along with. You are an athlete thus more stories to impart. On top of that, you seem to be a gentleman in many ways.

But the bottom line is, I am still in the process of getting to know you. Maybe all these things I mentioned is you with your best foot forward.

Who knows, right?

On Reaching the Finish Line

Initially the target date was to finish the first part by August last year. However, due to the ever changing requirements the deadline was moved...and moved and moved until I cannot see the finish line anymore.

When will the extension end?

According to my assignment, I have to suffer until March 31. But with how things are going, I am hopeful we would be able to deliver. Yeah, that is was you call positive thinking... or maybe wishful thinking! In fairness, I starting see a faint light at the end of the tunnel.

I guess I have to slug it out for now and hope that I will eventually reach the finish line on the top of the pack with matching medals.

Movie 7

Ghost Rider

Movie 6

Music and Lyrics

On Waiting

Waiting is such a tedious task. There is an uneasy feeling. It is like hoping for something without assurance you will get whatever you are wishing and hoping for in the end. It even gets tiring to wait. Then again, why the hell wait? Why not leave?

Piece of advise, if you make someone wait, please come back. If you want to wait for someone, then wait, it is in fact your choice, However, do not expect anything. If you want to wait, then wait. Do not complain. Do not wait just because someone made you. Wait because you want to.

Then again, maybe I am waiting for nothing after all.

:(

Ohhh Okay

A: I was thinking of asking you out but you have dinner planned na.
B: Ahh really? Next time nalang. Our clan prepares something yearly to avoid the crowd...
A: Oh.
B: So instead of going out, we have our own thing... and we are allowed to bring one person.
silence
B: *continues describing the theme, ambiance and food*
A: Anyway, we could always go out anytime naman e.

On Letting Down

It is peculiar how we have our expectations towards others even if we have just met or known them for their entire life. Is it even rational to expect?

Anticipation may lead to disappointment. The degree how down one gets when one’s expectations are not met varies. But wait; is it just to feel upset? In the first place they are not even obligated to do this or that since no one told you to expect anyway! Then again, you still expect someone to do this and that based on first impressions or what you heard about them. However, when you expect someone to behave a certain way because you have known that person for a long period of time, things get bizarre.

Do you expect too much because you thought or felt you knew?

When will I learn? People are people. Sadly, as I wake up each morning expecting something… when in reality I should not really be expecting at all.

Movie 5

The Holiday

Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you.

Movie 4

The Messengers

There is evidence to suggest that children are highly susceptible to paranormal phenomena. They see what adults cannot. They believe what adults deny. And they are trying to warn us.

Gentleman or Player?

Someone who...

... intently listens to you while you are talking a.k.a. stares at you?
... opens the doors for you?
... pulls a seat for for you?
... asks you if you are cold and offers you his jacket?
... guides you while you cross the street by putting his hand on your waist area?
... holds your hand while you are leisurely walking?
... gives you compliments on how you look et al?
... kisses you before you part ways?

On Deaths

Death is a part of life. Death is our constant companion…our ally. One should accept the existence of death because at the end of the road, nobody can escape loss of life. Thus, there should be a constant awareness that one’s time is only borrowed.

With this knowledge, one should make the best use of their time and live life to the fullest. One could only live life to the fullest when one has accepted the reality of death. When one shy away from death, one deprives one’s self the passion to enjoy life and love with clarity.

Love anything that lives then eventually it dies. Trust anyone and there is a chance of pain and hurt. Depend on someone and that person may let you down. A full life is full of ache. Then again, the only alternative is not to live fully or not to live at all.

Therefore, one must accept death as one’s companion. Take risks. Live life to the fullest before it runs out.

Sneaky

I dressed for bed with the whole matching pj’s get up. When I was relatively positive that my folks were asleep, I changed my attire – black pants, stripped shirt and jacket since it has been chilly lately. My sister, who I share a room, was still awake. I told her… quiet please as I arranged my pillows that pretended to be me beneath the comforter. Good thing we were kaconchaba this time. Then I slowly tiptoed my way downstairs, unlocked the door and closed the gate as gently as possible.

We did not have any concise destination where to hangout. Being me, anywhere and anything would be acceptable. First choice was Jack’$ L0ft in Wilson. However, I was not certain if the restaurant was still open at 1 in the morning. He suggested Ea@tw00d. On our way, we passed by El Puebl0 and wondered if S!de Bar was still open so that we would not have to go farther from my house. It was, however the venue was too deafening for conversations.

In the end, we found ourselves in J@ck’s L0ft 3astwood yet again. Too bad our ideal seats were already occupied. We eyed an alternate spot but it was already reserved! Damn! Anyway, we just exchanged stories over Super Dry and some fries in one corner. In the middle of our conversation, the group who was in our ideal seats left. We told the waitress that we are going to transfer there after we ordered. But guess what she said? The area closes at 2AM. Um, hello, if it was already closed, then how come we are still here and you haven’t asked for our last orders yet? Oh well. Next time we would get a reservation! We decided to leave when the music died, the lights turned on and the crew started to clean up. Yes, we got the hint, alright. He almost slipped as they begun to mop the floor. Good thing he did not lose his balance or else… hello more battle scars!

Hand in hand, we made our way to $elene. What can I say; he is really someone who thinks he is famous. Every time, with no fail, someone goes up to him and engage in a small chat. I doubt if I’d recognize any of them if ever we cross each other’s paths because I honestly cannot remember any of his friends he has introduced me. My bad.

In view of the fact that our discussion was interrupted, we took a road trip to his usual hangout place. Surprisingly there were a handful of his friends there. This time around I think I’ll remember them after all their boyish side comments and car talk. Oh, and who could forget about the trade car that was almost backed up on. How about the never ending gags of this chinicks of his friend?

At around 5 we decided to leave. It was getting “late” and I think he couldn’t take the scene anymore. Before he dropped me off, we passed by our common friend’s office and had a little chitchat.

So there, typical goodbyes but this time I did not have to do my usual doorbell. I opened the gate gently…crept in the house in darkness… climbed up the stairs… changed back to my pj’s… jumped in my bed… and pretended nothing happened.

Movie 3

The Pursuit for Happyness

How was 2006?

A very long overdue post...

January
Boracay Night

February
Stripes Valentines
Cebu
Work Rant

March
Goodbye 711, Hello Sunshine
First Office Summer Outing
Food trip galore

April
Rex Smith Concert --- “And I don’t knw how I knew it… But I knew it somehow…
Baguio
Batangas with Myemp

May
La Iya
Alimundin
Regularization!
Hello Mara!

June
Jaime’s 1st

July
Kreed
Chill

August
Dad’s “Debut”
EK and Laguna with officemates
Badminton
New Toy --- still have to think of a name

September
Cebu-Bantayan
St3p by St3p
Milenyo
Sister’s 18th

October
:-h B!
SAP Training
Despididas = more responsibilities
Halloween!
Embassy V!rg!n no more!
10.27
Cebu-Bohol

November
Cebu-Bohol

December
Krispy Kreme
Halo Halo Night
White Christmas
Cebu
Vroom

Wisdom 001

In the meantime someone has to come up with new words to say at wakes and funerals. condolences -- waht exactly are those? "I'm sorry for your loss" -- why, you didn't kill her. "I know how you must feel" -- of course you don't, you're not me. "Words fail to express"-- then why are you saying them? It's not words that fail, it's the people who wield them. We have no power over life and death, we are subject to pain and disease and misery, but we command words. When you think about it, words are all we really have.

-- Jessica Zafra

Boo Boo

1st Case:
My friend called me up and asked if I was still in the office. I said I was on my way to G4. Then he said he made a boo boo. He said that he was on his way to training... which was way South, but guess where he found himself? In Bu3ndia --- where my office is. Umm, yeah. Alright. No comment.

2nd Case:
After we bought tickets, we were divided the change. Officemate A has 60 bucks change, officemate B has 10 bucks change and so on. But we had 140 bucks extra! We had 7 tickets which was correct. But 7 multiplied by 140 was 980, however the lady billed us 840 only. Woooh, money for ice cream! Then we realized the lady gave us tickets for the 7:30 show and not the 8PM show! No wonder we had extra money. Luckily we were able to change our tickets.

Pwede bang batukan yo ako?

Movie 2

Night At the Museum

Where history comes to life!

New Toy

I got myself a new toy.
It has a squarish silver black face.
Same goes for the body but it has a rectangular shape.
It has a Pentium dual mind.
80 gig, 224 MB, blah blah..

Yes, she is a pc.
Any name suggestions?
How does Persephone sound?

Help!

In Between

Being somewhere in between is complicated. It has its pros and cons. Being almost there but not really there is like being so near and yet so far. Not knowing where to stand. Not knowing if something is real or something you just want to believe in.

Being in an indeterminate state…

It is grueling to place yourself. It is grueling to figure out where to place yourself. It is grueling to figure out what you can and cannot do especially when you are expected to do this. It gets tiring to try to read minds… to reckon things out. The how’s and the if’s.

It is strenuous to be in a situation wherein you yearn for something you know you cannot have. It is wicked to make someone hope in something that they cannot attain. It is evil to keep someone’s hope alive when someone does not have a chance at all. It is unreasonable to give a foretaste of something you will take away so soon, so fast.

However, what if you never find something as beautiful? What if that was the best of the best? Then you will be comparing everything that comes your way...

To be in an indeterminate state is to feel your way. Are you in or out? Where are you – are you there yet? Should you or shouldn’t you? Can you or you cannot? And since you are in limbo, you cannot even say if you can.

It is grueling if you are somewhere in between. Since this time you are the one hanging. It is your fate that is uncertain. It is you who is guessing. And you are not guessing between what is real or artificial. You are guessing between all infinite possibilities like a multiple choice type of exam.

Bottom line, it is difficult to be caught somewhere in between… especially when the people involved are your friends.

On Connections

Connection is a relationship in social affairs. It is a link or bond between parties. Possessing the appropriate connections may go a long way. On the other hand, having none sucks.

Waiting in line for you turn after arriving really early is annoying. Having someone who just came in then be accommodated instantly is infuriating! Well, that is the power of connections.

Then again, it is not fault that the doctor is the sister of the girlfriend of one of my dad’s closest friend.

Movie 1

Eragon

You are stronger than you realize. Wiser than you know. What was once your life is now your legend.

Weekend Update

FRIDAY
Originally I planned to leave the office by 6PM.. around 630PM would be the latest supposedly in order for me to catch my 7PM dinner. Then again, I left the office at almost 7PM! Why do they have to plan meetings on a Friday?

Luckily I was able to catch up despite the circumstances. I followed them to this Japanesse coffee shop named UCC (Ueshima Coffee Company) Coffee in Podium. When I arrived they already ordered. Habol nalang ako. I got myself this Chicken Terriyaki Big Plate. The serving was huge and there was a cold salad included. It was very filling! Afterwards, we got this thick toast with chocolate syrup and whipped cream for dessert. I forgot what it was called. Pasensya naman, pagod ako galing opisina.

Too bad my aunt had to go back to the hotel abruptly cause her acidity acted up. Then again, maybe butterflies were circling in her stomach cause the Bishop who was scheduled to marry her the next day informed my other aunt that he could not make it. There was a mix up. Bishop thought that the wedding was in the morning so he blocked the whole morning instead of the whole afternoon. Ayay! As an alternate, a priest who recently finished his "priesthood" schooling would be the one to "unite" them in their church wedding.

We followed my aunt in hotel, danced a little ballroom and exchanged stories before sleeping.

** end of story... to tired.. i mean tamad to continue...

What Is It?

After 5 consecutive days of non-stop continuous messages suddenly I hear nothing. Silence. No follow through. Are you disappointed that I did not budge to your moves?

I do not know if I heard that conversation correctly but their exchange appeared differently. Sorry to dishearten anyone, but I am not an equestrian who would desire to ride on your style.

Dude, what is your style?
“I'll just figure everything is cool. Until I hear it from you.”

Touch Me Not

I am not a touchy person. A simple body contact of any sort is already something even if theoretically it is just nothing. A hand on my back that guides me while crossing makes me uneasy. A hand on my waist while sitting on the trunk of a car while drinking beer is alarming. A lax hug and a beso before I get in my house is mind boggling!