Hmm, am I ready?
Can I handle the challenge?
And manage my time?
Argh! It's killing me!
Work, Ultimate, Basketball
Family et all.
Have no idea
Do not know our opponents
Don't know the details.
I just want to play
Cause ball is my first true love
And I can't leave it.
April 2's the day
The start of another league
Can I handle it?
----
Self, from this point on...
Focus and Prioritize
***, eyes on the prize.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Si Bunso Na
ME: Ma, look, may sugat ako.
*shows small scratch on left elbow*
MOM: Haaaay naku, kung ano-ano kasi ang pinaggagawa mo e?!?
ME: Palagay ng gamot.
*deadma si Mommy*
ME: Grabe, pag si *bunso* yan, halika dito, lagyan natin ng gamot, blah blah blah.
DAD: May kasama pang himas.
ME: Oo nga.
DAD: Ako matagal na masakit yung braso ko pero wala lang ni himas wala.
ME: Oo nga, si *bunso* meron pang, do you want milk? Tas bababa para gumawa ng milk tas ihatid pa.
MOM: Antok na ako. Sabay nga kami natulog nung 630pm ni *bunso*.
Tas sabay tayo sa kusina at umakyat.
:(
*shows small scratch on left elbow*
MOM: Haaaay naku, kung ano-ano kasi ang pinaggagawa mo e?!?
ME: Palagay ng gamot.
*deadma si Mommy*
ME: Grabe, pag si *bunso* yan, halika dito, lagyan natin ng gamot, blah blah blah.
DAD: May kasama pang himas.
ME: Oo nga.
DAD: Ako matagal na masakit yung braso ko pero wala lang ni himas wala.
ME: Oo nga, si *bunso* meron pang, do you want milk? Tas bababa para gumawa ng milk tas ihatid pa.
MOM: Antok na ako. Sabay nga kami natulog nung 630pm ni *bunso*.
Tas sabay tayo sa kusina at umakyat.
:(
On March 28 Begnite
I guess I exerted to much effort. You know the feeling when your legs are SO tired and it just gives up? Well, that happened to me right in front of the bench of the opposite team. Wala lang, napatid lang ako sa sarili kong mga paa. :|
It was a frustrating night. I know it was just beginners night, but I don't like the feeling when the opponent ate my team alive. Even if the other team was composed of regular and league players, that should not stop us from playing with spirit. It is okay not to win, but at least show some heart. Nakakagigil, promise.
On a high note, I had a mala-airness point. Also, my defense was there. Deflected a yummy end zone attempt and a huck of the instructor to a huge guy. But karma acted fast and the instructor foiled my attempt for another Jordan-catch. Defense is truly the best offense.
It was a frustrating night. I know it was just beginners night, but I don't like the feeling when the opponent ate my team alive. Even if the other team was composed of regular and league players, that should not stop us from playing with spirit. It is okay not to win, but at least show some heart. Nakakagigil, promise.
On a high note, I had a mala-airness point. Also, my defense was there. Deflected a yummy end zone attempt and a huck of the instructor to a huge guy. But karma acted fast and the instructor foiled my attempt for another Jordan-catch. Defense is truly the best offense.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
On - - - -
Do you believe you can completely love me as I am?
Faith is not enough, you have to know it. Do you know it?
Sadly, knowing is not enough.
I have to see.
But they say love is blind. People tend to see what they only want to see. There are occasions when they lower their standards and accept people how they are. Right and wrong no longer exist because they think they are the only people in the world.
From the start I believed that there was no future. My head knows that it was not "moral". However, deep down there was still this tiny faith that there was a chance. Self-control and family values were constantly challenged. Then again, when everything was laid out, I couldn't see an US --- I saw YOU and HER even how much you tried to mask your feelings.
And so my instincts were right on target.
Congrats on your engagement! :|
Faith is not enough, you have to know it. Do you know it?
Sadly, knowing is not enough.
I have to see.
But they say love is blind. People tend to see what they only want to see. There are occasions when they lower their standards and accept people how they are. Right and wrong no longer exist because they think they are the only people in the world.
From the start I believed that there was no future. My head knows that it was not "moral". However, deep down there was still this tiny faith that there was a chance. Self-control and family values were constantly challenged. Then again, when everything was laid out, I couldn't see an US --- I saw YOU and HER even how much you tried to mask your feelings.
And so my instincts were right on target.
Congrats on your engagement! :|
On Left Heel
It’s painful, it hurts
Though I discount the feeling
The ache’s evident.
The physical hurt
I try to ignore each day
But to no avail.
When I resist it
Comes emotional distress
It’s unstoppable.
They say time heals wounds
But is time tried and tested?
What’s the assurance?
Give it a rest, self
Time to face reality
To genuinely heal.
-----
Though I discount the feeling
The ache’s evident.
The physical hurt
I try to ignore each day
But to no avail.
When I resist it
Comes emotional distress
It’s unstoppable.
They say time heals wounds
But is time tried and tested?
What’s the assurance?
Give it a rest, self
Time to face reality
To genuinely heal.
-----
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
On Mind Games
There are instances when you don’t seem to notice me. Instances when you don’t make your presence felt. On the other hand, there are times when you contact me out of the bloom and say sweet nothings.
Why do you give me just enough attention? Is this to keep me interested but never seriously commit? Is this a strategy or tactic of some sort of yours to manipulate my so-called feelings?
Mind games are boggling. Are you sure you want to play this game? Cause if you do, it is already game over.
Why do you give me just enough attention? Is this to keep me interested but never seriously commit? Is this a strategy or tactic of some sort of yours to manipulate my so-called feelings?
Mind games are boggling. Are you sure you want to play this game? Cause if you do, it is already game over.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
On Onshore
I met two foreigners in the tour I joined. One was from the US and the other was from Germany. The guy from US has been teaching English in Japan for 3.5 years and counting while the girl from Germany has taught German in Australia and at present she is touring around Asia. She stayed in Bali, Indonesia prior to going to SK. Sarap ng buhay nila!
Two thoughts entered my mind:
1. My brother has a future as a teacher contrary to what my mom believes.
2. I want to experience the "on-shore" life.
I guess I asked to soon and when I checked my office e-mail I got a "Congratulations" message from my QA manager:
She has been accepted in ********* and may fly soon to *insert country*.
It has been a long journey for ME (to be onshore) and it sure is satisfying to know she finally will fly!
*Who checks her office e-mail while on vacation?*
*gulp!*
Two thoughts entered my mind:
1. My brother has a future as a teacher contrary to what my mom believes.
2. I want to experience the "on-shore" life.
I guess I asked to soon and when I checked my office e-mail I got a "Congratulations" message from my QA manager:
She has been accepted in ********* and may fly soon to *insert country*.
It has been a long journey for ME (to be onshore) and it sure is satisfying to know she finally will fly!
*Who checks her office e-mail while on vacation?*
*gulp!*
Happy Happy Yippee Yey Yey
Shallow as it may sound but I am genuinely happy. :) It may be a material thing, but I really believe that I deserve it even if it is delayed. Patience is the key.
:)
:)
Friday, March 11, 2011
On Losing
I do not take losing very lightly. Yes, it is a fact that the outcome may not go as planned. I can accept failure, but I can’t accept not trying. I dislike the feeling of dissatisfaction or lack of fulfillment afterwards. It haunts me.
Clearly I am serious when it comes to Ultimate and Basketball. Too serious that I guess my passion gets in the way and my intensity gets the best of me. But then I again, it would be unfair to the sport if I do not go all out every single time may it be in practice or in an actual game. How would I except the sport to love me back if I held back? What is the sense of playing competitively?
Ultimate and Basketball are team sports. I am not taking it against anyone except myself, but I guess I just need to accept the fact not everyone shares the same seriousity that I possess to prevent future frustrations. Hopefully this will not stop me from pushing myself to achieve my full potential.
As they say: one should not stop trying to operate in excellence. I should keep in mind that no matter how discouraged I get I should still have DIGNITY. Therefore, I hope that even if it upsets me when things are not going as planned I can continue to push myself and not lose hope. Once I give up and lose hope, then it is already game over.
Clearly I am serious when it comes to Ultimate and Basketball. Too serious that I guess my passion gets in the way and my intensity gets the best of me. But then I again, it would be unfair to the sport if I do not go all out every single time may it be in practice or in an actual game. How would I except the sport to love me back if I held back? What is the sense of playing competitively?
Ultimate and Basketball are team sports. I am not taking it against anyone except myself, but I guess I just need to accept the fact not everyone shares the same seriousity that I possess to prevent future frustrations. Hopefully this will not stop me from pushing myself to achieve my full potential.
As they say: one should not stop trying to operate in excellence. I should keep in mind that no matter how discouraged I get I should still have DIGNITY. Therefore, I hope that even if it upsets me when things are not going as planned I can continue to push myself and not lose hope. Once I give up and lose hope, then it is already game over.
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
On Injury
Another conversation which transpired over lunch:
One of my officemates was not feeling well so we talked about our worst medical/health related experience.
OFFICEMATE 1: What was your worse sickness?
OFFICEMATE 2: I never got admitted to the hospital despite my migraine attacks and this amebiasis.
OFFICEMATE 1: Ako din, first time ko ma-hospital when I gave birth.
OFFICEMATE 1 looks at ME and asks
OFFICEMATE 1: Ikaw Kat, what was your worse sickness?
ME: HEARTACHE!
*laughter*
:))
One of my officemates was not feeling well so we talked about our worst medical/health related experience.
OFFICEMATE 1: What was your worse sickness?
OFFICEMATE 2: I never got admitted to the hospital despite my migraine attacks and this amebiasis.
OFFICEMATE 1: Ako din, first time ko ma-hospital when I gave birth.
OFFICEMATE 1 looks at ME and asks
OFFICEMATE 1: Ikaw Kat, what was your worse sickness?
ME: HEARTACHE!
*laughter*
:))
Monday, March 07, 2011
On Marathon
Over lunch this conversation transpired:
ME: So, how was your weekend?
OFFICEMATE: Ayun, nag-marathon kami.
ME: Ahh talaga? Sumali kayo sa Unilab?
OFFICEMATE: Hindi, movie marathon.
*Toinks!* I think nasobrahan na ako sa physical activities.
ME: So, how was your weekend?
OFFICEMATE: Ayun, nag-marathon kami.
ME: Ahh talaga? Sumali kayo sa Unilab?
OFFICEMATE: Hindi, movie marathon.
*Toinks!* I think nasobrahan na ako sa physical activities.
Untitled
I hate this feeling
Would be good to verbalize
Don’t know where to start
Family matters
Basketball and Ultimate
Spiritual stuff
Throw in career
Relationships and what-nots
I am puzzled
Too many nonsense
Running in my common sense
It hurts my “headache”
Maybe a breather
An alone time with myself
Is all that I need
A break from the noise
To make sense of this nonsense
Flooding my so-called brain
Time to press escape
And get out of this jungle
In hope to find peace
So help me God.
Would be good to verbalize
Don’t know where to start
Family matters
Basketball and Ultimate
Spiritual stuff
Throw in career
Relationships and what-nots
I am puzzled
Too many nonsense
Running in my common sense
It hurts my “headache”
Maybe a breather
An alone time with myself
Is all that I need
A break from the noise
To make sense of this nonsense
Flooding my so-called brain
Time to press escape
And get out of this jungle
In hope to find peace
So help me God.
Friday, March 04, 2011
$#@!~
On Schedule
Hindi sa may sarili akong schedule, wrong timing lang. Mali ba na unahin ang pamilya? For crying out loud, kasal yun ng kapatid ko! Ano gusto yo, unahin ko ang career bago ang pamilya? ASA!
On Flexi Time
Hindi sa maarte ako na hindi maka-adjust sa biglaan na OT o 24 hour shift, ang hinihingi ko lang e i-inform ako nang maayos. Lahat aware sa palit ng shift at ito ako nag-iisa sa dilim. Ano gusto yo, o-OO lang ako pagkakuha ng email ng Friday late afternoon para pumasok ng weekend?
On Own Time
Hindi sa may sarili akong oras, pero mag aantay lang ba ako habang panahon? Kung open lang sa mga plano-plano e di sana ako gumawa ng sariling mga plano. Ano papalampasin ko lang ba ang mga araw sa kakaantay?
On Choosy
Hindi sa choosy ako, pero kung magagawan ng paraan bakit naman hindi. Tatahimik lang ba ako kahit na hindi ako masaya sa kalagayan ko? Mali ba na i-voice out ang aking mga pangarap?
On Palakasan
Hindi ako friendly, pero kailangan ko bang sumipsip para mapansin? Ms. Career Climber, takot ka ba at baka matalbog ka? Isa pa, pasensya nalang ako at hindi ako ang gf ng linalandi mo, bakla!
Hindi sa may sarili akong schedule, wrong timing lang. Mali ba na unahin ang pamilya? For crying out loud, kasal yun ng kapatid ko! Ano gusto yo, unahin ko ang career bago ang pamilya? ASA!
On Flexi Time
Hindi sa maarte ako na hindi maka-adjust sa biglaan na OT o 24 hour shift, ang hinihingi ko lang e i-inform ako nang maayos. Lahat aware sa palit ng shift at ito ako nag-iisa sa dilim. Ano gusto yo, o-OO lang ako pagkakuha ng email ng Friday late afternoon para pumasok ng weekend?
On Own Time
Hindi sa may sarili akong oras, pero mag aantay lang ba ako habang panahon? Kung open lang sa mga plano-plano e di sana ako gumawa ng sariling mga plano. Ano papalampasin ko lang ba ang mga araw sa kakaantay?
On Choosy
Hindi sa choosy ako, pero kung magagawan ng paraan bakit naman hindi. Tatahimik lang ba ako kahit na hindi ako masaya sa kalagayan ko? Mali ba na i-voice out ang aking mga pangarap?
On Palakasan
Hindi ako friendly, pero kailangan ko bang sumipsip para mapansin? Ms. Career Climber, takot ka ba at baka matalbog ka? Isa pa, pasensya nalang ako at hindi ako ang gf ng linalandi mo, bakla!
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