On Midway of 2020

Numerous mishaps has transpired namely the closure of a business, the explosion of a volcano, the accident of mother hen, KB's death and of course the corana global pandemic, to name a few. The world is in a disarray and it is only the midway of 2020! People have no choice but to adjust to the current phenomenon.

Despite all this I am grateful that:

1. I STILL have a job

2. My family and love ones are healthy

3. Chance to attend online meetup/conferences

Yes, too many nasty events has transpired and no one can go back and make a brand new start. However, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending for the new normal.

Let's do this!

On Six Months

Six months since I relocated to an area where the weather is one of the main small talk topics. Who would have thought that I would find my tropical bum in this side of the globe? Certainly not me who prefers the heat anytime over the cold. Luckily there is a human heater to keep me warm. Other than desperately trying to adjust to the weather numerous things have transpired. 

I moved here and my initial goal was to maximise being a homemaker and quickly settle in for the remainder of the year. I had a good start; the house was starting to look and feel like a home and found things I enjoy - basketball and ultimate. These sports were good entertainment/distractions as it was a venue to socialise and exercise. But like most cases, things do not always go as planned. Less than a month and we are already expecting! Two months in I started a part-time job as a result of boredom. 

Oh life! You are truly one great adventure. Bring it on.

On Relationships

I haven't been in a serious relationship for the longest time. Also I wouldn't consider my past one as real one even if we lasted more than a year because when I look back at that event in my life it was not serious. I was a kid and so was he thus it was merely puppy love.

There were instances when people thought I was in a relationship but to be honest it never reached that point. A couple of guys showed their interest and intention but there was no commitment involved in my end. Timing was not right for Mr. Miles Away. Agent Orange lacked the characteristics to sweep me of my feet. Refinite was too trying hard. Futbolero was a player. There was no The One. Then again maybe I am just choosy.

Should the drought of the male species be a cause of an alarm? My mom gave the go signal to pair me with a brave Singaporean. My younger brother spilled his bottle of beer when he found out that I had a boylet. My aunt interrogated me at our recent family reunion. And the list continues.

I know it has been a decade or so. Is it time to panic? No. In God's time when God's best is ready and when I am ready to be his God's best. But I pray and hope that it would be soon cause... I am ready for you... My One and Only. <3

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Our eyes locked.
I looked away.
Is this infatuation?

On Motivation

Oh Motivation, where are you? You will get workouts and plot what you aim to do but it ends there...as a thought. Too many excuses. No follow up nor action after to make a healthy habit. What a lazy ass you have there. It would be alright sana, but your tush ain't tight!

Then the visitors arrived. Hello eating and dining out galore! Healthy and unhealthy food are always present. You are munching every hour or so like there is no tomorrow. No wonder you gained 2.5 pounds in the span of 2 weeks! The lines in your hidden abs and your current profile picture in FB says it all. Wake up self, you are gaining weight without even noticing it.

No more excuses. You should get back to your so-called healthy lifestyle once the visitors leave. Note to yourself... you should not think about quitting, instead think why you started training.

Then again, why wait 'til the visitors leave.. you should start today. Aja!

On Timing

I have been waiting for you for 2 weeks and you arrived now when I am about to leave for another adventure. What a wonderful timing! Maybe the theory is right that when you are always with someone then your cycles tend to be near each other. What a time to be a girl!

On Writing

Huwow! I started writing at a young age. Reading what I wrote made me laugh. Nakakatuwa the things I was occupied with. Mostly I wrote stuff I did during the day and what I was looking forward to the next day or week. In fairness, I was a dedicated writer. I rarely skipped a day and whenever I did mayroon pa akong sorry nalalaman.

My style of writing was not spectacular but after 10 years those simple sentences made me smile. Those 3 diaries showed my progress over the decade may it be in writing or in the occurrences I experienced during my childhood. Those 3-5 sentences I scribbled each day inspired me to write again, thus this entry. I realized that writing need not be intellectual or witty. The important thing was I got to express and share whatever I wanted.

Cheer to writing!

On Brownies

Today was the baby shower for Kuya and his wife. There was a pastry corner care of the mom of kuya's wife. It featured red velvet cupcakes with a pregnant topper, soft yema balls and  chocolate brownies. My aunt asked to get dessert for her so I got 2 yema balls and 2 brownies. She ate the yema balls and liked its taste and soft texture. I did not know that she was not allowed to eat the brownies due to health reasons. So I ate them. It was too sweet for my taste buds.

No wonder why my taste buds reacted that way. Brownies = chocolates! And I haven't eaten nor drank any form of chocolate for 32 days! Crap. It totally slipped my mind. Only a week left before Easter and then this. :( It was unintentional, but still.... :(

Oh well towel. Whats done is done. I will still continue to abstain from chocolates til lent and pray the rosary (without sleeping) as an alternate for eating chocolate.

Seven more days and I can try out this Magnum that everyone is raving about.

On Missing

CHOCOLATES and FB!

Chocolates are starting to call me. Andes here. Magnum and Cornetto in the freezer.

WAAAAAH!

On Star Studded

First is neighbor, the injured captain of the Azkals. Boy, ain't he towering! Nursery bff has really grown. I feel for him. While his team is competing in the challenge cup he is stuck recovering from his knee injury. In due time Capt. Just a couple more months you will be back on the pitch.

Second person is truly a hunk. When I saw his back I was undeniably certain it was him. With that height and machismo, palibhasa lalake talaga. Mom who does not like him instantly changed her view towards him when she saw the moreno hunk.

Last was the vain athlete. Such a pretty boy in a clean white polo shirt. But his confidence is too huge for me to handle. As if I will go after him. I will be a cradle snatcher if I do. Lol.

So what was the homily all about?  FML

On Facebook

How come when you try not to think of something you notice it more?

As part of my Lenten sacrifice 2012 I decided not to access Facebook. This is actually long overdue. Lessening time over this social media is part of my NYR 2012. This remained a goal until the start of this Lenten season when I finally did something about it.

Years ago, Facebook was not around. Now it seems like I am missing many things. Details of meet-ups, birthdays and other events are now sent through this site. What is going on in my family, relatives and friends minds are also shown there. I feel out of the loop not being “informed”.

Then again, I know people who does not have an account. There are are also people who has an account but only open it from time to time. These people do not feel that they are missing out on anything.

I guess it is a matter of perspective. Are the latest happenings that important to know? If they want me involved there are other methods to get in touch with me. On the good side, I have time to be so-called productive. I hope that when Lent is over things will not go back to the way it used to be.

On Chocolate Challenge

I decided to give up chocolates for 40 days. I am in the middle of day 1 and temptation is already knocking at my door. For the longest time I have been planning to go to COMFOODS to get snacks for my family. Of all days to materialize that plan it had to be today when my officemate asked me if I wanted to accompany him.

COMFOODS is the home of choco polvoron, choco mallows, curly tops, flat tops and the like. Enough said. Just by the mere thought of those sweets make my mouth water.

Oh temptation! No sacrifice is easy. Giving up chocolates would not be considered as a sacrifice if I do not enjoy them. Hopefully as the days progress it would be easier to control my desire. I need to keep in mind the reason why I am doing this. Now is not the time to give up. Chocolates are just tangible materials. Focus. I can do this with Your guidance.

                                                                                                                                       

On Lent 2012

Today marks the Lenten season. For the next 40 days I will give up:  

1.  FB - "Facebook is a social utility that connects you with the people around you”. Now, it is faster to stalk people. Kidding aside. FB makes it easier to communicate and keep in touch with people from all over the globe. It also keeps me updated with the latest trends and what-nots. With all the information it contains, “nonsense” stuff consumes a huge amount of time. So starting today, instead of immersing my time with senseless things, I will allot more time communicating with Kuya Jess and sleep earlier.
2. Soda - To start off, I am not a huge soda fan. But there are food that goes real well with it. Value/Combo meals go with soda and additional charges apply to have the drink upgrade to juice. Now I have to make a constant effort to take water instead.
3. Chocolates - Chocolates are one of my guilty pleasures. Once I start, it is difficult to stop. When I feel down, eating chocolates make me a tad bit better. Now I need to find an alternative to overcome low moments.

These things are just material. Years ago FB did not exist. Soda and Chocolates are things of pleasure.  I just need to discipline myself and make a conscious effort to give up these three things. Ah, I know, it is easier said than done. Good luck to me!

On Morning Person

I am not a morning person. This is a source of tantrums and fights. I blame my parents and helpers for not waking me. I am always the last one to finish preparing. I am the cause of change of schedules due to my tardiness.

To avoid conflicts I promise myself that I will fix my sleeping habits. I should be in bed by 11pm. I should mediate before rising by 645am the latest. I should at least do some stretching instead of rushing to get ready for work. 

Sadly, this is one of the cases wherein a promise is broken. Sleeping before 12mn is considered early in my standards which in reality is already late for most. Getting up by 730am is a miracle. My sleeping hours is certainly one bad habit that I need to break.

Today I found an answer on how to be a morning person. Despite sleeping at almost 2am, I was up by 615am. My folks were surprised that I was ready to go by 7am. So what got into me? Someone picked me up for breakfast and dropped me off at work.

Yun lang pala ang sagot other than weekend early morning game days.

On Love Bug

I am never good with gift giving. For birthday and Christmas gifts, I usually give gift certificates or ask them what they want. Or if it isn't their birthday yet and they want something but have doubts of getting it, I get it for them and tell them it is an advance present. At least I know my money did not go to waste and that they appreciate what I got.

It is the time of the year once again. The time wherein couples flaunt their affections towards their partners. It is like Korea everywhere wherein whichever side you look there are peoples in-twos with googly eyes.

In my whole existence I have only been in a relationship once during the 14^th of February. It was hell. I felt pressured that I had to get something due to peer pressure and media. Thank God for friendly friends for their ideas and I survived.

I am glad that I do not have the trouble to go through that pressure this year. I just have to wear blinders to block out the ants all around. Then again, it would be a welcome surprise to hear your voice. A card with rose would be too much to experience heaven here on earth.

Great, the annual love bug has bitten me once again.

On 2012 Goals

New Year = New Goals.

1. Improve relationship with Kuya Jess - be more attentive. converse more. be real. be true
2. Better Me - spiritually, mentally and physically
3. Be happy - find what I want to do in life. be free.

On 2012 Priorities

“Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some 5 balls in the air. They are WORK, FAMILY, HEALTH, FRIENDS and SPIRIT and you are keeping all these in the air.You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other 4 balls – FAMILY, HEALTH, FRIENDS and SPIRIT – are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, niched, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for it. “

Note to self: Value has a value only if its value is valued. – Bryan Dyson, former CEO of Coca Cola

So 2012 and the years to come is for working efficiently during office hours and leaving on time. It is time to prioritize the required time for my family, friends and have proper rest.

Let's do this!

On Suspicion

The x-ray reading is out. No jaw fracture. Thank God! But I decided that I will still undergo CT scan when I get back Manila. Before the x-ray did not capture the PCL tear so this time I want to make sure that it is really nothing. 

Do I have it in me to face the results? Seems like malapitin ako disgrasya lately. I hope and pray nothing comes up. Nanghihina na ako....

On Montsary

Today marked the first month from my post PCL reconstruction. I feel my condition has improved and my recovery is on the right track. I can walk without support but the limp is there. I get tired easily though. Guess I lack practice. I also need to work on my flexibility.

Okay na right? But guess what? I gained additional 6 stitches! I don't know what transpired. My stomach was aching so I rushed to the bathroom. Dsymen. Next thing I saw was the ceiling and me breathing deeply on the floor. So I sat up in panic and called mom. Then I saw blood dripping right under my cheek. Bad trip.

Alan mo yun, hindi ko na masyado kelangan tulong tapos ito naman nangyari. Nakuha ko pang maligo bago tinakbo sa ER. Hello 6 stitches! Tapos suspicious jaw fracture pa. :( Pero hindi muna ako nagpag CT scan kasi may flight ako.

Despite the freak accident  I am still lucky that I made it to my flight after missing it last October. Pinag mukha nanaman sa akin na dapat ako maging thankful na mayroon akong pamilya na nagmamahal sa akin. Kahit ano mangyari, kahit na maging hassle o pabigat ako andiyan parin sila para sa akin.

So kamusta ang pasko ninyo?

On Wish List 2011

Just because it is December...

1. Wrist watch na dress watch
I got myself a chunky sports watch from katas ng SG already. Now I like a dress watch. Something for formal functions like weddings, office meetings, interviews and dinners. I have no particular brand in mind basta yung sakto Lang sa wrist ko na payat. 

2.  Turfs 7.5
I know I am currently "injured". *Sheeet! Injured ako! As in major injury! :( * I don't know when I can engage in sports. And if I do get the green light will I still play? So why turfs? Maybe to push myself to get better faster and motivate myself to make a comeback. 

3. Underwear
Wala Lang. I just watched Victoria secret's fashion show and oh wow! I want those bling-bling under garments! Buy seriously, kahit ba bench Lang ok na. 

4. Full and fast recovery
I am having questions if i made the right decision. Maybe I am having these doubts because of my current physical state. So yeah, I wish that I get better the soonest. My savings are depleting and my fighting spirit is losing its energy. Ayaw ko na maging pabigat. 

5. Good Health
I pray that my lolo will be okay. No more clots and daily injections. Same goes for mom's eye, dad's neck, sister's head, bunso's heart and kuya's soon to be baby. 

6. The One
Kailan ka ba dadating? Andiyan ka ba? :( Hinog na ako. Handa na ako mahulog at ibigay ang matamis kong OO. Uwi na you.