On Being Better

Don't be angry with the people who are smarter than you--it isn't their fault. Don’t be angry with people who are slow in catching up, they need your help. Don’t be angry with the bashing in social media, they are just mere opinions. Don’t be angry with those who are angry at you, you cannot control them. Just preserve your energy and concentrate on doing better and being better.

On Teenage Years

We were just friends that spoke like lovers and that seemed enough for two teenagers who were scared to love one another. 

On Processes

No matter how efficient your processes are, if people running these are not trained and lack integrity, something is wrong.

On I'm Not That Girl

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
He could be that boy
but I'm not that girl

On Shy

I'm too shy

To tell you

How I feel

Instead I'll hide behind

Timid smiles and

Wacky antics

I'm afraid

If I ask you

"what do you think of me?"

Your answer will be

"I don't. .."

:(

On Matalino vs. Marunong

Iba ang matalino sa marunong.

Ang matailno alam kung ano ang tama at kung ano ang mali.

Ang marunong gagawin kung ano ang tama.

Ang tanong e...

Matalino ka ba or marunong?

On Three Questions

1. How much have you loved?
2. How faithful are you in your vocation?
3. How gracefully can you let go of the things not meant for you?

On Insignificant

I do not want to be your entire world, no. I would be happy just to be your morning coffee, your hanging car keys, your wallet. Something seemingly insignificant, but if lost throws off your entire day.

-.-

On Fighting

Hohohoho! The day is near and I am freaking out. I am really thankful that I have friends who have my back. I have family who will help me out with the financials (just in case I need help). Most importantly, the Ultimate is by my side.


As Lance Armstrong said... "We have two options in life both medically and emotionally, give up or fight like hell."  I choose to fight like hell. Giving up is not in my vocabulary. 


Good vibes. Good vibes!

Words of Wisdom from Lola

How can one remain enthustiastic with a 10 hour Monday to Friday and 8 hour Saturday work schedule? It would be bearable if there is no naggy micro manager who cares more on the numbers than the quality. Things should be lighter with additional resources but workload has not changed at all. Obviously there is an issue. 

Having said that, what do I gain if I extend for another month? Yes, it will look good at my resume. I will be able to save more. There will be a sense of fulfillment at the end of the day. But is it worth it?

In as much as I would like to stay at the back if mind it is telling me otherwise. i remember what lola said before... Take care of yourself first so that you can do all the things that you need to do. 

With that I rest my case. Bring me home as stated in the ticket. It is time to take care of my knee. 

On How Many

How many a man has thrown up his hands at a time when a little more effort, a little more patience would have achieved success?

On Complicated

Friends but not lovers.
Lovers but not committed.
Committed but not official.

That's.. what you call, Complicated!

Itutuloy Mo Pa Ba?

Kung magmamahal ka, at alam mong iiwan ka lang niya, itutuloy mo pa ba?

Here is my take. The Ultimate created human beings in such a way wherein the brain is higher than the heart. I see it as a guide that I should use my mind rather my emotions in decision making.

Yes, I am rigid and stiff. At times I ask myself if I should live a little? But why risk getting my heart completely shattered if I am not certain that he is the One. Then again, I would not really know unless I take the plunge.

And I will never really know cause I did not take the risk. I did not go for it. So now I am still single for how many years and counting. It is unavoidable to have those "what ifs" thoughts yet I am happy to be single. Stress Is Now Gone Life is Easier! :)

Movie 4: Vicky Cristina Barcelona

Vicky and Cristina are two young American women who come holiday. Vicky is sensible and holiday. Vicky is sensible and engaged to be married; Cristina is emotionally and sexually adventurous. They meet a flamboyant artist, Juan Antonio, and his beautiful but insane ex-wife, Maria Elena that results in a hilarious and harrowing experience as they all become amorously entangled.

I found the movie attention grabbing because it gave a glimpse of the Spanish culture, particularly picturesque sights of Barcelona and Oviedo. In addition, the characters were fascinating as they interacted in a complex twist of interesting relationships. There were many punch lines or so-called quotable quotes in halting English that struck me. Yes, call me a hopeless romantic.

Only unfulfilled love is romantic. You need to find the missing ingredient to make your love complete. What makes it romantic is that you have something to look forward in the course of finally fulfilling your unfulfilled feelings. Nevertheless, once you have found the missing piece, would emotion still be the same?

Love is complicated. Two people may be meant for each other and may not be meant for each other. Love is a contradiction.

On Doing What You Love To Do

Everyday when I wake up, I look in the mirror and ask myself; if this were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do? If the answer has been no for too many days in a row. Something definitely has to change.

All external expectation, all pride, all fear of failure or embarrassment fall away in the face of death, leaving only what's truly important

One should never be caught into living life according to the dogma of other people's thinking, drowning out their own voice inside.

- Steve Jobs

Ang Pag-aaral

Tungkol sa Pag-aaral ayon ay Bob Ong:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa."

"dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung 'di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang 'yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela."

Ang Buhay

Tungkol sa Buhay ayon kay Bob Ong:

"Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko."

"nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures."

"Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan."

"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

"Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa'yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?"

"Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras."

On Love... by Bob Ong

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

Chronicles of an Emo Bear?

Which is better...

the person you like does not know that you exist

or

the person you like knows that you exist but acts as if he doesn't?

anak ng tinapa! emo!

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine
Tellin' me more
Than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby to you all I am
Is the invisible woman

OC-ness

Was in Pioneer Center...

I was near the butter area... I suddenly blurted out..

"Na-OC ako at nag-ayos ng butter..." while fixing the disorganized stack of half butters.

Anu-beh!