On How Many

How many a man has thrown up his hands at a time when a little more effort, a little more patience would have achieved success?

On Extension

My extension will end on the 30th of this month. A small part of me wants to stay and see my project go-live but a huge part of me desires to leave and take on another challenge. What is the right thing to do?

I only see two positive things if I extend until mid-October. First is that I will make my home company happy for they will still earn from me cause I gave in to their "suggestion" to finish the project wherein I am the only tester. Second, it will somewhat solve the resource issue.

Then again, based on how things are going there is no assurance that my project will go-live by mid-October. This may lead my home company to sweet talk me again on extending. Being assigned to a company which does not have a strong IT foundation hampers my career growth.

Personally, I would love to be a bench model. Time to relax and re-tool. More time to attend on my personal matters.

Is this the right path to take?

On Bastos

Kumain kami sa TBoy kaninang lunch. Dumating ang waitress sa mesa namin dala ang isa sa mga order namin. Habang binababa na ya yung order naming "One crunchy..." bigla nalang siya nabangga ng isang lalake sa likod. Naitulak ya ang mesa at naibagsak yung order namin. Lumingon lang yung lalakeng nakabangga at umalis. Hindi man lang nag-sorry. What's up world? Hindi ko napigilan ang aking sarili at napa-bigkas ako ng, "kay lalake mong tao, hindi ka man lang gentleman!" Wala lang. Deadma lang yung bastos na lalaki at tuloy tuloy na lumabas sa restaurant. Apparently, the guy was K0r3@n. No wonder. Case close.

On Hobby

If you do something regularly it would be difficult to get out of it especially if it is something you have invested on and is already a huge part of your life. I started to engage in sports at an early age. I first picked up a basketball when I was at Kinder. During summer vacations, I would play patintero, cops and robbers, monkey-monkey and the like with my cousins and neighbors. My parents also enrolled me at swimming classes when I was seven. During grade school, I ate lunch under a tree at the driveway. After 20 minutes, I was up and about and played patintero, land-water-air, 10-20 or relay. Dismissal was time for badminton and shooting some baskets.

At grade 6 I became a member of the basketball varsity until I graduated highschool. When I entered college, I had every intention to stop and concentrate on my studies but someone approached me and asked me to play and I did. I had a short break when I got employed and picked up a badminton racket once a week to keep fit. But I eventually got back to basketball with my fellow addicts. Iba na talaga pag first love.

Come 2009 I was introduced to my second love – Ultimate. Mondays weren't that blue and Wednesdays weren't camel-like anymore because I had something to look forward after work on non-basketball days. Clearly, my life evolved around sports.

Over the past two weeks I stopped my urge to engage in sports. I choose to distance myself with my teammates so I won't get jealous. Then again, who am I kidding? My mind is in tuned with what's happening to my teams.

My officemate asked me, other than sports, what do I do? I cannot seem to find an answer and reflected if I can a life without sports. I think would go insane. But I am still alive after two weeks. I guess one of these days I will learn to accept a routine without sports. I just need to pick up another hobby.

Any suggestions?

Para Sa Iba

The moment I landed I knew there was something wrong. But the competitor in me kept going and finished the game. Despite the pain in my knee (I forbid to call it an injury), I finished the remaining games of summer league and continued to play in another tournament in which I never missed a practice and game.

If logic should take into play, I should have an "injury timeout". Everyone is telling me to have a break and that I am punishing my body. But I promised myself once a upon a time that I will continue to engage in sports as long as my body can.

I got in night league. Many were not fortunate enough to make the cut. Is this a sign for a last hurrah before having a break? But I am having second thoughts. I know that if I do, I would be pushing my body to the limit once again. This would be a great opportunity to test how far I can go.

I know that I am not 100%. I cannot sprint nor leap. But as they say, "laging mayroong paraan kapag gugustuhin". I can still run and jump. Despite my current physical condition, I was able to give end zone assists and catch the disc. The question is, will I be contented with this mediocre performance?

Nakaka-frustrate! Kaso gaanon talaga. Weak ako! Ang maganda sa ngayon, tanggap ko nang mahina na ako. Pero nagpapalakas na ako para sa iba.

On ...

"hopefully start dating this girl as well haha... hope so, it's sorta headed that way but i'm not entirely sure

On Keeping It In

In as much as I would love to let it all out... I can not. I must remain calm at keep my emotions at checked. I have bursted out a number of times and it was not a pretty sight. I do not want a repeat of those instances so I must keep it in.

Then again, how could I keep it in? It seems like a tug of war between what is supposedly good and what I love. Indeed it is a tough situation. However, I must really control my urge and keep whatever this is to myself for hopefully a brighter tomorrow.

On Flexi

I miss the times when I had the luxury to do other things other than work. The times when I don't have to be at the office by 9 on the dot. Instances when I could meet up with friends over lunch. Times when I could sneak out and have a massage or go to rehab.

Today I kinda experienced that feeling all over again. I got in work a shade past 9 and then left at around 4. Afterwards I passed by my ortho to hear the obvious. Then I went to the coffee shop to use the CC receipt and pampered myself in a spa. Then I capped my day with dinner with my folks.

Kung pwede Lang flexi araw araw.

Good luck nalang mamaya sa trabaho!

On How

How do I start again, if just by one step away from you, you already pulled me two steps back into your world?

Tell me.
How?

On Size

I know I am not gifted. But, of course, being the "hey notice me" person that you are you had to tell it right at my face with a loud voice for the whole world to hear. Yeah... yeah... ikaw na ang mayroong malaking hinaharap. At ako si I must I must increase my bust!

No worries, I am happy with what I have. I have accepted it a long time ago. It is convenient, I can get away without wearing a bra. Kidding aside, I would not look cheap wearing those revealing low neckline clothes which you love to wear, cause there is nothing to reveal in the first place. Despite my torn ligament, I believe I will have the same pace as you cause I do not have have additional weight to worry about. Also, when I get old it will stay in place.

So please stop flaunting, cause seriously, there is nothing to flaunt about. You do not have it.

On Complicated

Friends but not lovers.
Lovers but not committed.
Committed but not official.

That's.. what you call, Complicated!