On 2008

So called highlights of mine for 2k8:
January
- Hello MS!
- Thanksgiving dinner of Pritzi at Culier
- Two old friends meet again
- Socializing at Emba and Warehouse
February
- “socials” at Autocamp
- Single awareness day not so aware
- Mezze with Sir
- First time to go s-u-r-f-i-n-g
- “Model”
- Mingling
March
- First time to spend Holy Week with friends at Zambales
- Surfing!
- Sofitel
April
- Wanders
- Team dinner
- MS “team lunch”
May
- Pahiyas
- yDWTL
- Muay Thai!
June
- I’m F-R-E-E!
- Spanish Lessons!
- Alchemy and roadtrip to Tags
July
- 4A mini reunion at Fiona’s resto – Cucina Gayuma
August
- Poveda 2001 reunion after 7 years!
- Miss Lim!
- Fitness chuva
- Bridal shower
- Earth Wind and Fire
- Basketball = sad
September
- Battle of the bands
- Europe trip :)
October
- Weddings – Bea + Marc & Yappie
- Socials at Alchemy, Laguna
November
- Persian
- Anniv Mass
- Haliween Party
- Beerbash
- Toto
- Teacher Mady’s wedding!
- Breaking news!
- Thanksgiving
December
- Wall climbing
- Glamrock
- Freedom
- Party everywhere

On Family Time

Family is time is taking time out from one’s busy schedule. It is setting aside a moment with one’s family. It is putting one’s family first over a night out with friends, work or any other commitment.

I am a family first type of person. As much as possible, I make myself available for a movie, for meal, for a stroll in the mall and such. There are occasions when I am the one who initiates quality time with family. There are instances wherein I decline invites from my various friends because there is a “family” thing.

Am I so family centered that I miss out opportunities of meeting new people? Should I plan better to avoid overlapping events? Should I at times put my family second when the “others” is more appealing?

Ayudame!

Timely Horoscope

My horoscope in Friendster:



It was very timely. My co-worker invited me to join them to Bangkok this March. I know if I really wanted to go I will find a way. It will be tough but I bet I can come up with an excuse to skip work. I definitely have the budget for the trip, but on the other hand, I will need to work double time to reach my financial goal. My parents may not agree, but I know in the end they will allow me.It was so tempting. Zero fare. Good company. Travel. But after considering many factors, I decided to decline.

Did I make the right decision?

On Christmas

Christmas is the Christian celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ. It is a time to rejoice because despite being all powerful and almighty, Jesus Christ became flesh in order to save us. This is just one of the many ways how God shows us human beings how He truly loves us. Imagine, He gives us His only us even if He knows how cruel the world can be. And how do we repay Him?

Shameful.

I hope I find my true purpose real real soon.

Merry Christmas!

On Simbang Gabi

Oh yeah! I got to accomplish all nine! Yehey! This was only the 2nd time I did it. The first time was not that legit (I guess) cause there were days when I had no idea what happened. I just went with the flow.

This year was different. It was not heavy for me to get up and head off to church/chapel. During homilies my mind did not wander liked it usually does. I guess that is how badly I want my wishes to be granted.

I'll be keeping my all my fingers crossed.

On Stress

Stress can cause illness
But it is all in the mind
One should overcome.

Another Monday

Tomorrow is another Monday. That only means one thing --- hello Monday blues!

Good luck to me!

Places Ive been as of 2008

visited 11 states (4.88%)
Create your own visited map of The World or try another Douwe Osinga project

On ....

imagine
meeting a "star"
and only having a small amount of time to spend with them
then they leave
then they dump you
then they move on.

they stop texting
they stop the contact
they've stopped everything to do with
you.

you wish you didn't miss them
you wish you had moved on too
but then you realize
you do miss them, you haven't moved on.

what do we do now?

On the Financial Crisis

Since the US of A is experiencing a financial crisis it is inevitable that where I reside would not be affected. So how does my company react to this situation? FREEZE ALL INCREMENTS PLANNED IN JANNUARY 2009!

Wtf!
But wait, there is hope:

We will remain vigilant and will continue to review the situation throughout the year, and will do the increments as soon as the situation permits. I have asked the People/HR teams to continue the years annual performance review and promotion process planned in December-January, as we will use these for increments as and when they happen in 2009.

What the hell?!? More responsibilities but same pay! Who are you kidding?!? Pa-asa!

The Security Blanket

I am not sure if it is just me or I do I really attract bad boys? Honestly, I seem like an angel amidst them. No offense meant, but how come the guys who approach me are “addicts”? When I say addict it does not exclusively mean the need for drugs but also other stuff such as computer games, money, fame, sex and the like.

Do I have this certain aura that they somehow find their way towards me? Do I give out a vibe that they feel secured under my wings? Do they idolize me?

It does not feel good that people only run after you whenever they are depressed or down. I have my own life “issues” which I need to handle as well. Even if I appear like an angel amidst those “devils”, I do not want to be a security blanket forever!

On Mixed Emotions

My US project manager set an urgent meeting unexpectedly. There was no agenda in his meeting invite. That was likely of him but it was unlikely of him not to wait for our confirmation or availability. Having no agenda caused speculations – we are expanding, thoughts of onshore or layoff.

Apparently, one of our assumptions hit the spot. Due to the current situation of the economics, our client decided to stop their engagement with us. When my superiors announced the news, I did not know how to react. Deep inside I was happy because honestly I think I have learned what I can learn from the project. In addition, I cannot see myself doing what I am doing any longer. However, I cannot show how overjoyed I am since we lost a client without our own doing. Therefore, I just kept my mouth shut and acted that I was lost for words

3rd Year Anniv

Yesterday marked my third year of being a corporate slave for this company. Who would have thought I would have lasted another 365 days after my 2 year bond? It is not as if I am not looking for greener pastures. So what am I still doing here?

Is it about time to give up my wishful thinking that I would eventually get a break? Do I have the courage to leave the safe premises of my office? Do I have the strength to get out of my daily routine? Can I handle the anxiety of building new set of friends?

Then again, maybe I am still happy with my current situation. Things can be worse. At least I have a job that is flexible and pays well compared to others. I still have a life outside work. I have built a good set of relationships which is hard to abandon.

So what am I supposed to do? I better make up my mind… sooner or later I might just find myself with a new pen if I do not take any action.

Assuming!

One of my daily routines when I wake up is to check my phone for messages, things to do and miscalls. For the past few days I noticed that there was always a missed call from one person. These calls usually came in at 4 in the morning. Since I am constantly rushing for work, I never had the opportunity to ask what the person needed.

The other night I cannot seem to fall asleep. I decided to tinker my phone so sleep would catch me and that was when I remembered the missed calls. So I rang the number to catch if I got the right one. It rang and he rang back. Then we exchanged messages:

Just noticed your call the other day now. Hahahaha! Sabog mehn. Whats up?
Let me go straight to the point ***. Do you miss me?
See, you can’t even answer. I still love you still ***. Like what you still feel.
Hah? Sorry… fell asleep. What are you talking about? May we talk about whatever this is some other time?
Whatever ***. Whatever!
Whats your problem?
Problem? You!
What did I do? Elaborate!
Fishin!
Ay ewan! Anlabo mo. Kausapin mo nalang ulit ako kung matino at handa ka na. Adios!
Yabang! Activate your sun.
Aba, at ako pa ang naging mayabang. Dont have my sun for months na
Do you still love me ***? Like I still do?
No.
Why?
There is no answer to that question cause I never did.
Whatever ***. Adios. ***, I’m in love with you. But if the feeling is not mutual, it’s non sense.
My gosh! Are you drugs? You just don’t reappear out of nowhere and act like how you are acting right now. How lame can you get? Just a waste of you time, k? Adios!
Would you love me and be my girl ***?

Seriously, how desperate can one get? I am not that naïve not to know that he had some sort of feelings towards me. But hello, that was ages ago! And I never did return whatever he showed towards me. Hindi ko siya hinali. Why are guys so assuming?!?

On "Accidents"

It sucks when people get into activities that are waiting to fuck up. An accident is usually associated to an unfortunate mishap. Who would expect for a motorcycle parked at the side of the street to be side swiped by an SUV? Who would foresee a commuter to be robbed of her personal belongings to the point of nearly stealing her life in the process? Who would ever imagine being involved in a crossfire on your way to work?

Events like these take place without one’s expectation. However there are instances wherein such misfortunes occur through carelessness or plain ignorance. Nothing against these people, but there are times when accidents may be hopefully be avoided. Why park on a dim street? Why not let go of your personal belongings? Why not hide? Why not take precaution?

Then again, there are accidents which may deem as fortunate. Who would not welcome winning the lottery? Who would not appreciate meeting an old friend by chance in the mall?

On the other hand, there is a certain incident may possibly be fortunate and unfortunate at the same time – like getting pregnant. But is getting pregnant considered a legit accident? Well, maybe due to the fortuitous circumstance that something broke. Nonetheless, would you have sex with someone you do not care and love? So why involve in such activity if you are not ready to standup for the consequences?

Malas

Last time I felt so unlucky. Each effort seemed to worsen every time. It would not have been that bad if I only missed 95% of my attempts but I totally missed a whole lot -- as in AIR BALL! How despicable can my shooting get?

Then again, there are days when the hole seems so small. This was not the first time. So I just tried and tried and hoped to succeed. However, in my case, I died trying to escape from my horrid night. Things were not that bad. In the end, we won despite my lack of contribution from the offensive side.

On Doing What You Love To Do

Everyday when I wake up, I look in the mirror and ask myself; if this were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do? If the answer has been no for too many days in a row. Something definitely has to change.

All external expectation, all pride, all fear of failure or embarrassment fall away in the face of death, leaving only what's truly important

One should never be caught into living life according to the dogma of other people's thinking, drowning out their own voice inside.

- Steve Jobs

Ang Pag-aaral

Tungkol sa Pag-aaral ayon ay Bob Ong:

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay, sarap!)."

"Nalaman kong marami palang libreng lecture sa mundo, ikaw ang gagawa ng syllabus. Maraming teacher sa labas ng eskuwelahan, desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo. Lahat tayo enrolled ngayon sa isang university, maraming subject na mahirap, pero dahil libre, ikaw ang talo kung nag-drop ka. Isa-isa tayong ga-graduate, iba't-ibang paraan. tanging diploma ay ang mga alaala ng kung ano mang tulong o pagmamahal ang iniwan natin sa mundong pinangarap nating baguhin minsan..."

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa."

"dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. kung 'di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. sobrang lugi. kung alam lang 'yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko ehh walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela."

Ang Buhay

Tungkol sa Buhay ayon kay Bob Ong:

"Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko."

"nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures."

"Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan."

"Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

"Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa'yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?"

"Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras."

Are you or are you not?

How come you have this thing of saying the right words at the right time?

If I were there, I'd give you some.

You look fine to me.

Who knows, maybe you are just being nice, but gosh, you still have that effect on me. You still make my heart skip a beat in spite all these years. You still have this special compartment in my system.

So you are you or are you not my....?

* Another wishful thinking entry.

On Love... by Bob Ong

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

On being a Snob

I am not a very friendly person. Some, rather most people perceive me as a snob. I cannot argue with them since everyone is entitled to their own opinion. But when I ponder more on that characteristic, I guess they are partly right ~ haha, I don’t want to admit it fully.

Why do they see me as a snob? Is it my physical attributes? Is it my eyebrows? Is my voice? Is it the way I speak? Is it because I am quiet?

Tell me! Then again, whatever! This is the way that I am. It is not my intention to snob anyone. It may be a defense mechanism of mine to keep stuff to myself thus making me appear like a snob.

Oh well, that’s life. Next time, do not judge people right away cause you do not know what you are missing. Charing!

Me and My Work Now

I ask myself… where am I right now? Am I happy with how my life is going to?

At present, I am still locked in the smaller prison. Sadly, I am not ecstatic with my current situation. On the upper side, things are a little better since I got back from my vacation. Before I left the country, I had a small talk with my Manager. It may appear that I ranted but who would not if you come in daily and not feel any sense of accomplishment?

In all fairness, when I got back the access and connections improved somewhat. At least I can now retrieve some documents which I was not able to do before. However, I still do ask myself, am I happy with what I am doing?

I still learn new things in my current project, but is this what I want to be? I have great patience, but is the work set-up slowly killing me? Is this burnt out?

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Zombie

I told myself that I would fix my sleeping habits for the upcoming workweek. It is already one in the morning… and guess what!?! I am still wide-awake!

My gosh, I am slowly getting back to my “zombie” lifestyle.

I better crawl to my bed and sleep!

On Why I Love To Sleep

There are occasions when I imagine committing suicide. At work, I have a “corner office”. The window is just at my back. There are numerous instances when I imagine just jumping from that 16th floor window. Whenever I am in a plane that is up in the sky, I depict myself opening one of the emergency exits and leap out into nothingness.

I do not only have thoughts like these whenever I am elevated. Each time I see rail tracks I have this tiny urge to hop into them. Whenever I cross the street there are instances when I feel like springing into the pathway of a high speeding vehicle.

Disturbing, isn’t? Do I need help?

Probably this is why I choose to sleep all day… So I could block off thoughts like these.

Basketball

The game was like a movie full of action and drama. Players dove for lose balls. They wrestled for position. They fought for every basket. They sacrificed their bodies to get the call. Blood was even shed. Cruel words were exchanged.

The score was tied after 10 minutes. But at the start of the 2nd half we found ourselves behind by a double digit margin. A little into the 3rd period, blood was shed. My teammate almost broke her nose in the attempt to get a charge. Unfortunately according to the official’s eagle eye, “nakatagilid daw siya”. Deadly words were uttered --- “papatayin kita!” Unpleasant words were exchanged with the official and the players. Technical fouls were called.

Tension was greatly relevant. This was a live-or-die situation for both teams. With a key player down, it was a tall order for us to undertake. But giving up was not an option. Like what coach mentioned, “She who blinks first loses” and “Never without faith, nothing without passion“. We never took our eyes of our goal and continued to fight despite our anxious faces.

Out of nowhere, we discovered our hearts and regained a bit of shooting touch. We got the opponent to penalty within just 2 minutes into the 4th. We rallied and found ourselves within striking distance. Then again, as if having one player down was not enough, to add insult to injury, another player got fouled out!

In spite of this, we still made do with what was available. Unbelievable with 5 minutes or so to go, we were only down by 2 points. We were so near and yet so far. I fought and fought real hard. Even if the buzzer sounded, I still continued to play. What hurt more was that we lost by 3 points. The pass reached me with no time left but I still continued and threw an attempt. A 3-pointer that went in! If and if only there was more time left!
For the first time in history, I honestly felt like crying in the course of playing. How come we cannot seem to pass them? Did we let all the opportunities slip away? Did the missed free-throws cost us? Did my turnovers really hurt?

Obviously, these questions will never be answered. This will add to my list of “lessons learned”. Evidently in every game there is a winner and a loser. But how come I always find myself on the losing side. Is this a sign for me to hang my shoes? Can I still take in the frustrations? Will it still be worth it for the possibility of finding myself in the other side?

I guess I might as well give it another run…until I reach my goal… or maybe until my body cannot take it anymore. At least in the end, I can tell myself, I am not a failure. I tried and never gave up.

Movies Movies

List of Movies I've Seen for August
1. City of Angels
2. Serendipity
3. My Sassy Girl
4. If Only
5. Tuesdays with Morrie
6. The Promotion
7. Deception
8. CJ7
9. Big Stan
10. You Dont Mess with the Zohan
11. Meet Dave
12. Just Add Water
13. Love at the Time of Cholera
14. The Bank Job
15. Wall $

Series:
Pick Up Artist

?

What am I still doing here?

haaay!

On Playing Games

A game is a competitive activity involving skill, chance, or endurance. A game is played by one or more persons usually to amuse oneself or entertain a group of spectators. A set of rules is followed to avoid chaos.

The corporate world is like a game. The work or lack of work is competitive. My ability to simulate I am busy even if there is not a single task on my plate is challenged. My luck to get shipped to another country is like winning the Lotto. My stamina to carry on in this environment is killing me. How much longer is acceptable to keep the show going?

God, help me survive this episode in my existence.

On the Worse Case Scenario

I like to think that I am a strong person. I expect the worse case scenario so when those instances become a reality it would not be as painful as it should be. No positive expectations so when good things come my way it will feel like heaven.

Is this a good attitude or a bad approach? Should I think of positive things instead of the negative stuff? Should I avoid all the negativity? Should I change my outlook?

What now? Is it the time to let go of all the negativity and concentrate on the positive things life has to bring? Would it hurt more if the opposite happens?

Oh well... Like what they say... thoughts become actions and actions will eventually become habits and realities.

Post Game Insights on Game 4

It was weird. They played zone but we could not seem to capitalize on it.We were there but somehow we lost it. We eventually got the lead but they got it back.
Another addition to the learning experience collection.

Lack of aggressiveness? I would not accept that. I know I did my all in defense. But still, another blank game. Indecisiveness. Attempts not going in. Think of passing. Interceptions. Bad decision making. Argh. Too much negativity.

I think I just have many things going on my mind. Or is it just that I am putting too much pressure on myself? I should just let the game come to me.

Or... should I stop this nonsense?

Are You Mocking Me?

I approached the MES (mystery email sender) and asked for a detailed information regarding the interesting matter that caught my attention. MES needed 4 people with my skills. It was for a long term project which means a year! As of now, MES had a lead and needs 4 engineers. Apparently my name showed up around 3 months ago. However, this person -- Cruella Devil -- whose only concern is to earn money blocked me off! Supposedly, my PRF was on the works. But lo and behold, my name showed up again!

Lets say I had a PRF, I should respect it daw. But how the hell could I respect something not really there? Where is this whatever PRF? Where is the evidence? And why did my name appeared? Apparently, Cruella skipped a step from the standard process. Great, right?

I had been billing to bench since I got rolled off from my previous project last May 30! I keyed as billable but the application did not want to accept. I told MES I will email her ASAP when I do not see my PRF.

And guess what? When I checked my email a couple of minutes ago, I saw my PRF! WTF!

Since I have a stupid PRF 'til August 2009, should I respect it? MES said in order to be rolled off I need to find a replacement. But hello, with the bulk of tasks coming in, I think 1 person can manage.

What is is? Joke time! Are you mocking me? I do not know anymore. Do you want me to stay or to take the leap of fate? Faith and trust nalang.

Work Related Trial

I had a conversation with my mom regarding my office related stuff during the ride to work. I mentioned that whatever Harry Potter offers me I think I should accept it since I greatly feel that they are willing to give me what I asked for. In addition, I heard that Harry Potter has good if not better benefits versus Horseshoe. Yes, feeling ako.

After our visit to embassy, the topic of our conversation continued over lunch. She advised me to approach CM and ask her if there is a possibility for me to travel in my current project. If none, I should request to be assigned to another project which has a huge chance for travel. I reacted that I might look aggressive. So she suggested that incase I bump into her that is when I bring up the topic.

Guess what? When I opened the door to her floor she passed by and made her way towards the bathroom! Was that a sign? Of course I did not follow her inside because that will be invading her personal time. After I did what I had to do on her floor I passed by her room. She was all alone but being me, I did not have the guts to approach her.

Anyway, I neglected those series of events. When I got back from the fitness chuva I checked my email incase they sent tasks while I was busy sweating it out. I had 3 new messages. There was this email with a subject “onshore opportunity”! The message caught my attention. First it was an opportunity to travel--- long term and secondly, it would be a step towards my career path preference.

Okay great, right on time when I was (sort of) decided already. Good job! Though it is not yet written, I am “tied” in another project. Then again, nothing is final yet until there is evidence and proof.

Oh yeah, trials… obstacles… complications! Positive thinking…trust…faith… come and help me! Please!

You Are Fat For A Thin Girl

Physically my built does not look that I am fat. But a comment from a trainer from my college confused me. He said that "you are fat for a thin girl" when he used this little caliper thing-a-ma-gig to pinch my skin. I was like "Huh? What is that supposed to mean?"

I am not sure if that was what got me into trying out new stuff or do some fitness whatever after I graduated. Whenever I had the time, I did random stuff on the exercise ball, with the dumbbells, my own body weight.. yeah, I guarantee that I looked like a fool. Even if I did self exercise or what not, I felt something was missing.

Eventually I got into a weekly badminton session. My gosh, my form was hideous! I tried the 3 day/1 week of Bikram Yoga. It was very relaxing but hard on the pocket. My folks got a treadmill so I was on it at least 2-3 times a week. My uncle got Wii, so I exercised my writs. Then eventually, basketball found its way back to me.

My life had greatly revolved around this sport. There was a time when life was basketball. For me, life was a game. Maybe up to now that is how I handle my life. Win some and lose some. Some things may go my way and some things may not go my way.

To win, I must physically and mentally prepare myself. To attain something I really want, I must work hard for it. However, it is unavoidable to encounter situations wherein everything is given and yet the desired goal is not achieved. Like it is not meant to be or the other team deserves it more.

What should I do when these situations are encountered? Should I accept the fact that I fell short and just stay there.. or give it another shot until I eventually reach my desired goal. Should I be like a soldier and surrender or still continue the fight? Should I still continue the possible beatings and heartaches for a possibility to attain victory?

Gosh. Life.

Therefore, exercise, exercise, exercise so that whenever I wave my marshmallow-like arms would not giggle.

Post Game Insights on Game 2

I do not know but whenever coach mentions we can beat a certain team with real conviction the opposite happens. Bad game for not only me but for two of my teammates as well. Man, why all at the same time?

Defense was haywire. Offense was worse.

Crap. And to think that we were up against a team they said they usually beat during practice games. However, they have a new member. And it seemed like she was the only one doing the most damage. What hurts more was that we were there for the half of the game. But on the 3rd quarter we only made 3 points!

But we did not go without a fight totally. At least in the 4th quarter we limited them for 4 points only! Nonetheless, the battle was over at that point for some.

Haaaaay. Oh well, on the positive side, no team will get knocked off. Its all about placing. But still, we need to redeem ourselves.

Goodluck talaga!

Mob Wars

Dammit! I am an addict... once again. Rawr! What is the culprit this time? Stupid Mob Wars! It is one of the many applications F@ceb00k offers. Honestly, I am not into F@ceb00k. I find it sooo overwhelming with all the application invites or what so that my puny brain does not understand the purpose or its function!

So how did I get into it? One day my colleagues were talking about this game. There were numerous invites from my F@ceb00k friends as well. One contact messaged me to joined her mob.

There... curiosity killed me... the cat.

Crap!

On Discipline 0.1

I better get proper rest and sleep.

10 Things That Make Me Happy

1. cheap thrills / good finds
2. road trips / travel / vacation
3. trying out new things
4. spending time with family, love ones, friends, ka-tropa
5. chocolates
6. waking up and finding out i still have an hour more to spare
7. sense of fulfillment = achieving my goals
8. basketball
9. babies
10. making people happy

Post Game Insights on Game 1

Late night clubbing with matching 2 cans of beer, an hour of shut eye curled in a chair before reacquainting with my bed for around 4 hours of "decent" sleep, give thanks and ask for blessings, grub, strong rainfall and wind, arriving the venue apparently early since game was delayed, desperately try to catch on sleep, game time.

Result: no stamina! *thinks* But when did I ever have the stamina?
I think I played fairly well despite the events I was part of the previous day. I think the ala-frap 3 did the trick for me. But then again, if I really want to be on top, I should straighten up!

Note to self: be discipline.

Me = Programmer ?

A: uwian na!
B: maya maya konte.. bibigyan ko pa ng time. kung baga 2nd chance
A: Naks. Patient.
B: xempre ganon talaga dapat. kelangan yan ng lalake lalo na.. kasi pagnanliligaw kelangan patient
A: Aha, so liniligawan mo yung kausap mo? kaso kaso.. hindi naman kayo nag bobonding.. ano ba naman yun?
B: waaaaa... amf programmer ka nga..hahaha.. ginawan ng ibang logic amf. ginawang patience = panliligaw.
A: wait a minute... kapeng mainit.. ikaw kaya nagsabi na kailangan ng patience ng mga lalake lalo na.. "kelangan yan ng lalake lalo na.. kasi pagnanliligaw kelangan patient". tska hindi ak programmer...
B: waaa.. sinasabi ko lang na one important trait yun kung manliligaw isang lalake..haha
A: test engineer/process quality inspector ek ek.
B: eh di dapat pala sayo programmer
A: anong dapat pala sayo programmer?
B: kasi logical person ka.. meaning bagay ka maging programmer

New Additions To The List

1. What Happens In Vegas
Of all the movies available in the network I picked this. Why? Becauses Asthon = <3 Super coincidence! My friend mentioned that we should just gamble in Vegas. That would be the life.
"I'd rather do nothing and be happy than do something i don't love."

2. Made of Honor
If its real love... go for it. Damn those rules! Rawr!

* Yeah, both are romantic comedies. Do I sense a hopeless romantic stage? Oh well. Law of attraction/positive thinking... do your magic... pretty pretty...please? :)

Hardly Working

Starting July 2008 I've finished watching the following:

P.S. I Love You
Big Bang Theory (whole season 1)
The Restraint
The Bank Job

Come to think of it I only installed codec two weeks ago.
Good job! My brain is slowly deteriorating! I do not wish to have a "full plate" but c'mon, at least something to do in the morning or something.

God-willing by end of July things will be better. If not... dun dun dun...

The Interview

Question: What is your strength?
Answer: I have a lot of strengths.
Reaction: That's great!
ang kaps ng muks ko! yep, is that my strength/

Question: What is your weakness?
Answer: I do not have a weakness because I can work it out...
but I eventually mentioned...
"I need to work on my self confidence."
Reaction: You have many strengths but at least you know you need to improve.
I should have said...
"My hard work and dedication... because even if my health is suffering I do not stop since I would like to get the work done."

Question: You've been in your current company for years already... so why are you here?
Answer: My house is nearer here. With the constant increase in gas, I want an office closer my place.
Reaction: laugher
good thing bumenta... :)

Question: Why do you think we should get you? What can you bring to the company?
Answer: Hmm, I can assure you that I will be able to improve quality of your deliverables. The output will not only satisfy your clients but I can promise you it will exceed their expectations.
Reaction: Can you sign that off?
Nakaman! Bola?

That was what transpired on my second interview. Good thing they gave me another chance even if I was a "no-show" last May. Would you consider it a "no-show" if the person who contacted you did not confirm your schedule?

So, how did I do in my interview? You tell me. ;)

Chronicles of an Emo Bear?

Which is better...

the person you like does not know that you exist

or

the person you like knows that you exist but acts as if he doesn't?

anak ng tinapa! emo!

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes lookin' deep into mine
Tellin' me more
Than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby to you all I am
Is the invisible woman

Na Wiiiiiiindang

Too much Wiiiiiii!

Hello wrist injury = carpal tunnel!

Just kidding. I just need to give my wrists a break from the Wiimote, keyboard and mouse.

Does this mean a leave from work?

Hmmmm...

I'll find out in the coming days.

Tired

My body is tired.

Training (rather lack of it).
Unhealthy food.
Late nights.
Movies.
Coffees.
Bar hopping.
Alcohol.
Bankrupt.
Lack of sleep.
Awwy shoulders and back.


Jap Resto, New Bombay, Tokyo Tokyo, Chunky's, Petra and Pilar, Starbuko, Mile-Hi, Alchemy, Ascend, Hooters, Cocina Gayuma, Earle's Deli,

I need time to recover and regain my strength.

Am I old?

Huwhy?

Why is that every single time I sit in front of the computer I suddenly feel the urge?

Is the computer chair my other "throne"?

Why, it never fails! Promise!!

Aha, Bobo!

Nag-punta kami sa *buko. Si Kuya yung nagmaneho. Mayroong malayong dyip na parating mula sa kaliwa kaya dahan-dahan siyang tumawid sa Shaw. Tapos mayroong pang isang pang dyip sa kaliwa na nagpumilit na mauna kaya nag-counter flow. Tumigil yung kuya ko dahil mayroong mabilis na Revo mula sa kanan.

Screeech.

Sakto yung gilid ng Revo dun sa kung ano mang tubo o bumper ng dyip.

Sabay baba ng bintana... "Ayan kasi.. bobo!"

Yan ang napapala ng mga mabilis mag maneho, nag-cocounter flow at walang ilaw...

OC-ness

Was in Pioneer Center...

I was near the butter area... I suddenly blurted out..

"Na-OC ako at nag-ayos ng butter..." while fixing the disorganized stack of half butters.

Anu-beh!

Learning From the Best

People should avoid the negativity. People should stay away from negative vibes. It is like a blade. At first you do not know how sharp the blade is. So curious little you goes up to it. Stretches out your hand.. and touches the blade with your finger. Since it is a blade, naturally, it is sharp and your finger starts to bleed.

Lesson: next time you see a blade, what will you do? Go up to it or avoid it?

There is no right or wrong choices. You make a choice and you make it RIGHT!

Shadadada...

It is said that in love… there is no right or wrong. However, when rationality comes in… when the mind plays its role and neglects what the heart beats for… it is a different story. Even if there is no right or wrong, one would really blurt out, but… it is so WRONG!

In my so-called situation, why o why whatever I do, despite his baggage, despite his bad habits, despite all his negativity… I honestly do not know why I still accept him as he is… the complete “insert name”.

Okay fine. I admit that I have feelings for HIM. If I did not then why am I “sort of affected”, right?

Kapag tumibok ang puso nga naman… minsan wala ka ng magagawa kungdi sundin ito…

But NO! Self-control will prevail! It has toooo!
I deserve someone much better… and if ever you are HIM… then I guess you should start improving… competing for you to attain your prize. ;p

One of those Conversations

This is long overdue. Finally! How I wish we can do this more often.

I wont make you sleep.

Did anyone tell you that you are beautiful and sexy?

Sexy! If I was making you bola I would have said you are the most beautiful girl in the world.

Eh, those are photoshop-ed . This is real.

You are hot!

That is why I did not marry my ex because I cannot see my future seeing her when I wake up.

Darn it!

Dapat hindi ako yung pinagpipilian. Dapat ako ang pumipili!

Weakness

Could my officemate be right? Do I have a "thing" for athletes -- or at least for people who are into sports?

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

Damnit! What should I do?
Talk about it?
Or just let things be and suffer this uneasiness?

The word Athlete comes from the latin athleta and the Greek athlEtEs, which means to contend for a prize, from athlon, prize, contest. So am I his prize?

Wala lang.

On Brats

How long can you tolerate someone...

who talks loudly... and in a baby voice tone?

who asks for suggestions where to eat.. but after you give a suggestion/s it seems like s/he did not hear your suggestion?

who asks nonsense questions that do not have a concrete answer... and when you answer for the sake of answering she will ask the same question all over again?

who is so O.A.... and out of place?

who acts like a "kid" despite being in a corporate environment?

who is KSP?

who is a brat?

Please lang, for crying out loud... kindly stop being a drama queen and brat...

** Meron ba ako? In fairness, she apologized afterwards. I am not that hard hearted naman. Guilt hit me at some point, but I know I did the right thing.

FO no more.

Not For the Weak Hearts

My ewwwwy rememberance from Dragon's Cup... May 31, 2008

Not-So Good Events Around the Office

Around the end of April last year, this was one of the scenes outside the window...



Today, June 17, 2008... around lunch time.. as in in broad daylight...





Flash report of the incident:



news article


Good thing I was not loitering. Yesterday more or less at around 12:30 I accompanied my officemate to KFC to buy her lunch. Oh my gosh, right?

One of my officemates was at the driveway area when the shootout occurred. According to him, it was no joke. It made him think of his life. On the other hand, other people like my other officemate who are floors above the incident wanted to get the scoop and stuff. Hello, are you serious? Maybe if I she was scene she would have reacted differently.

I had my own mini share of bloody experiences. Seriously, those events were very disturbing. Promise.

To those who have love ones "sacrificed" unintentionally in situations like these, may their souls rest in peace. And to those who have been left behind, pray for their souls, and like what I said in my previous posts, make every moment count. You will never know what will happen to you. You never know that today will be your last day to drive a jeepney like you always do to go to work.

Ang Baboy Ko!

Food trip galore!

Thursday: Yellow Cab - 1 slice #4 cheese pizza, Charlie (Jackie) Chan pasta, raspberry sola
Friday: "Supplies" birthday bash for Ms. 1 kilo taba - hotdog, pasta, pansit, embotido, cake and more more food!
Saturday: Omasake - numerous Jap food which I cannot remember, plus gellato at Amici!
Sunday: usual Sunday lunch at the other house, dinner at Chilli's!

Burp! :p

Was it?

But come on… who am I not to forgive? Christ was able to forgive fully so who am I not to? Moreover, as if it was officially “us”. There were conversations regarding our friendship but there was never an “us”.

So why this entry?

You tell me!

Work Status as of Present

I am still a corporate slave of the same company. However, I suddenly was rolled off from my previous project that was an US Investment Bank that does not want to be known. Despite all the sympathy I received, I was truly happy with my fate because that client had false dreams---false promises to fly me to NYC. Anyway, right now I am lined up for another financial company project. The offshore project manager/lead welcomed me to the team already, but technically, they have to finish all those paperwork in order to formalize my on boarding to the project. Based from my understanding, I am asked to audit their company. So hello to another week or so of bench time.

Should I now take the leap of fate?

Que sera sera!

Make Every Moment Count

After months without exchanging stories with someone, it is expected to catch up or begin from where you previously left. Whatever that events that transpired since your last contact may or may not be pretty conversation topic at present, but is there any choice on where to begin? The chronicles you have exchanged in the past may be your life’s interest before but may be otherwise currently.

Thus, this only proves that change is inevitable. You may still have feelings for a certain person in the past but the degree or type of feeling will never be the same in any instance. It may have blossomed…. or died.

I guess that is how life goes. Thus, you should not be like a horse that is blinded with your goal/destination and in return, you forget to enjoy the journey.

Lesson: Make every moment count!

QL plus a month

I would like to believe that nothing much has changed. Age is just a state of mind. It is just a number. But then again, there are thoughts running behind my mind. Am I making the most out of the life given to me? Is it enough to be good and stop there? Or should make some extra effort?

Well, too much thinking is bad. Too much thinking of what will happen in advance is not healthy. I guess I should just pause, take a deep breath and take everything in.

Motto: Make every moment count. :)

Too Much Drama

Ang babaw ng luha ko! Ewan ko kung bakit pero ambilis kong mapaluha. Tae!

Tagged

1. i am not mataray, i just look like one.
2. i am not batugan. i just have garfield like eyes.
3. i am not a pala-away. i am a peace-loving person who is protective of my love ones. if you hurt them, you are dead.
4. i am not maarte. i am a simple person who has a sensible outlook on life.
5. i am not madaldal. i am the quiet silent type..it was a coincidence when you caught me making hirit.
6. i do not pre-judge people. i accept people for what they are.. with no pretentions. wag ka lang magloko oras na makilala mo ako.
7. i am not kuripot. i am just practical.
8. i am not a clown. deep down i am a serious/emo.
9. i am not manhid. i just choose to be NR
10. i am not thin. i am actually fat for a thin girl.

* no one to tag... if you wanna answer.. then go go go

Another Day Full of Basketball

First Game
Downside: We lost to the youth team who has been training almost everyday for two months.
Upside: We were there for the first half of the game. If it was the finals, I guess we would have a chance.

Second Game
Downside: The luck of the game was poles apart.
Upside: It was an eye opener for us.

Third Game
Downside: I missed the potential game winning long 3 which was straight... just short.
Upside: We won in the extra period.

Conclusion: 2 days, 5 teams, 6 games, ended up with a tiny 3rd place trophy plus 1k.

Extra: I believe in every game, whatever the circumstances are, we have a chance to win. All we need to do is to put all our acts together, have some heart and determination.. and of course, luck is greatly appreciated.

Looking forward to another accomplishment? :)

Full of Basketball

First Game
Downside:
My knees got pipi. Ouch! It was my first stint on the court... it was the first sequence.. and then there. What should I have done? Prevent the fall? Or continue it? Damn wood burn! Ewwy!
Upside:
We won.

Second Game
Downside:
The team only scored 2 points -- split free throws, in the 3rd quarter. Fouls were nt called. Point blank baskets missed.
Upside:
I made 8 points in the 4th quarter. We won!

Third Game
Downside:
Sorry sorry... no more battery no more battery.
Upside:
We won.

For the first time in my 25 years of existence... I got full of basketball. Then again, it was 3 games in a day with only 1 game rest in between, who wouldn't? Take note, I had my first Muay Thai experience.

Another set of 3 games tom. Wish me luck!

The Science of 8 Limbs

I had another first experience awhile ago. Being the feeling health and fit addict that I am, I joined my officemate in a session of Muay Thai. The instructors/Krus were very accommodating and funny. First we did some stretching, then introduction to Muay Thai a.k.a. the science of 8 limbs. Afterwards, Kru taught us the basic weapons and blocks. Last part was sparing and cool down.

All in all it was a great experience. It was a good kind of pain. Sarap mag-pawis. At the same time, hopefully I picked up some stuff on how to protect myself in case of emergencies.

Lesson learned: protect my "jew". :)

Will be back on Friday! :)

Basketball and Love

Basketball is like love. There is risk involved in every game that you play. In each game there is a risk for you to not only get physically hurt but for you to get emotionally hurt as well. Likewise, in love you let yourself out in the open and allow the other party to hurt you.

Despite all the risks involved, I still love basketball. I guess all the challenges, struggles, pains and sadness will be nothing since there is hope to overcome all these. Winning compensates for everything.

I really owe a lot to the sport. Up to now, it still teaches me a whole lot about life. It is about hardwork, teamwork, respect, trust, hope, perseverance, humility and camaraderie.

I hope and pray that this weekend will be our weekend. Jess, if this is our time, may it be done. If not, then I will accept it... Like what they say.. "it is alright to fall a thousand times. As long as your remember the fight and not the falling".

Passing Straws

ok. great. i am part of the "cult".

there are no words to describe the experience over the weekend...i am just too overwhelmed.

to the staffers, music crew and everyone who made this event possible... maraming salamat!
to my sponsor... good job!
to the core... L0gH0use, L0gLit, ViceRect0r and Rect0r, welcome.
to my BatchR00m-ates --- mammy, last minute ilonggo comedian, single and ready to mingle, h-- gigolo, spandex, teach, 1k taba... it was great sharing this experience with you guys.
to my family.. i <3 you.

basta ikaw lord.
i will always "be in love".

ydwtl@32
passing straws

On Being Maalalahanin

I see myself as a caring person. Even if this person always tells me: “insert my name”, ang sama mo.” I guess she is just being sarcastic because another person says I look like someone who will not do any kalokohan or stupid stuff.

So which is which? Am I walang pakialam or may pakialam?

17.8%

that is the percentage of bmi... body fat that composes my body...
am i fat for a thin person?
:(

Why No Posts?

I do not know. Hehehe. You thought I had an intellectual response? Sorry to disappoint you, but I just have too much going on right now. End of story.

Now I am off to the gym... ta-ta!

On QLC

Happy "qlc" to me. Eeep. Am I old?
Nah, I would like to think that it's my 5th time to celebrate my 21st birthday! Beeeh.

Ate at this Thai noodle place called Som's somewhere near Rockwell. Food was good. It makes me want to go back to BKK! Waaaah! Wish I had the luxury to jump in a plane and go wherever whenever.

Sidenote: What better way to semi-greet me but a letter officially describing the fruits of my so-called hardwork. Yipeee for me!

Now how should I "celebrate" this day? One person greeted me already last week. Way advanced, don't you think? Apparently she made a wrong entry in her phone. At work, one colleague started greeting me since Monday. A couple of people also kept asking if I will come in later. "Pumasok ka bukas ahh!" I felt the pressure... Wahahaha.

Yes, I will go to work. But I had a disclaimer hindi ako magpapakain. Hahaha, Tigas ba? Or makapal lang ang mukha? Weeeh.

Well, I'm off to bed. Let's see what happens when the sun shines.

On Child Talk

My nephew who has this interest with guns asked his mom:

Mom, may I make patay the ceiling?

On Insomia?

It is almost 4 in the morning and I am still wide awake! I didn't notice the time. Wait! I did when it was around 1AM. How come time seems to swift by whenever I use Persephone? But whenever I use another PC, time seems to creep!

Err. I need to fix my sleeping habits!

Raymond Encounter

I forgot how the conversation transpired but basically my officemate made a side comment that hers were real unlike others. The person she directed her comment retaliated by defending hers were real. I, being the "clown" that I am, blurted out "Yeah right!".

Initial Shock:
As I minded my own business... *Blag*Blag*Blag* she made her way towards my area as she babbled that hers were real. *silence* Then when I looked at my left... There they were! *eyes widened* Ngaaaay!

Finale:
She made her way back to her place with a satisfied look on her face cause of my reaction. I thought that was it. For me, seeing was not enough to believe. Thus, there is no way she could prove hers were real. Despite my initial shock I confidently joked her that hers weren't real and extended my left hand. Waaaaaaaaaah! Guess what she did?

Alcohol!!!!

On the Happiness Survey

Have you heard of a happiness survey? It was stated that our answers would be 'confidential' but why ask for our personal information? Would answering if those items are not adequate at all, adequate, more than adequate, blah blah matter? What the hell! As if something will happen after they gather and analyze the data they collected.

Not only that, there is a 1-on-1 interview ek ek! What is this...joke time? Hahaha!

And You Are Out!

It's out... our team did not make it to the next level. Game over. Our fate depended on this unbeaten team who had to win over the team we defeated by a huge margin. Who would have thought that this unbeaten team would lose their last game by a single freaking point?!? Who would have thought that their best player who had skills of a national player would miss two breakaway lay-ups? Whoooooo?

You tell me.

Maybe it is not yet our time... even if I felt that we are starting to peak.. even if I felt that if we got in that we would make it all the way...

Sadly that's life... you win and lose some.

'Til next season.

Wish List

1. Basketball Shoes
I need new basketball shoes. The latest pair I have is almost 4 years old! It does not have any grooves anymore! Sad, I know. Adidas would be a great brand. Size: 8 :)

2. Swiss Army Knife
Since I dream about traveling more often than not, I think it would be very useful if I had a swiss army knife in occasions when I need to open a soda bottle or a beer bottle or canned goods, to cut this, to un/screw this and that, to cut/file nails, usb, blah blah. You know the drill. It does not need to be a Victorinox Swiss. Err.. McGyver influence!

3. Nintendo DS Lite
Even if I am not a techie person, this would entertain me during "dull" moments other than my weird imagination. hehehe.

4. Watch
I have a fascination for timepieces. However, I haven't had the opportunity to expand my so-called collection. Ain't watches from Tokyo flash Japan amazing? Check out their website here: http://www.tokyoflash.com/en/ Lego link watches are cute too, check out this site: You can get them here: No Curfew Nation, 2nd floor of SM Mall of Asia

5. Cellphone
I am not looking for a top of the line type of phone. The basics would do. Something that is capable of sending messages, making and receiving calls. Weird? Not really. In my current work set-up, cellphones with cameras are not allowed inside. The only way to reach me is through landline. Thus, the "need" for a cellphone without a camera. It would be a plus if it was colored and had a fm radio (considering I do not have a music player *thinks: ipod?* --- then again, I have my thoughts!)

6. 4 Rechargeable AA Batteries
This would be handy for my digital cam (which up to now I haven't named yet). Any suggestions?

7. Good Health
Imagine a life without back pains, headaches, colds, etc?

8. Ka-Ching
To win the lotto! :)

* will add to the list when I think of more stuff.

sana may magbigay! libre naman mangarap eh.

Early Monday Blues

Errr.... another Monday = another work week :(

Ang Aking Pakiramdam...

Excuse me! Hindi ako lasenga... sobrang masama lamang ang aking pakiramdam ngayon.

Tae... gusto kong uminom!!!

PAK-SH!-Y3T!

On the Backseat Driver

Motorists in Manila do not have discipline. Listed below are proofs so that this statement may not sound like a generalization:

• suddenly vehicles just "swerve" from left to right with out any warning
  
• motorcycles appear out of nowhere
  
• buses do not stay on their yellow lanes
  
• PUJs stop anywhere and everywhere to get passengers
  

My gosh, am I a backseat driver?

Child Talk

What would enter your mind when you hear this question?

Mom, may I tongue the cake?

To to the Next Level!

We won... not only win-win... but convincingly!

Coach explained our situation... if Team A won, we would be in 4th. If Team B won, we would be in 3rd. Blah blah blah. My futile mind tried desperately to breakdown where we stood... to no avail I blurted out...

"So coach, we are already in whatever happens?"

She said: "Yes."

Uproar!
------
Side note: I am on a slump! I've been scoreless for the past two games! Damn it! Then again, it is not all about the baskets one makes. One may contribute in other aspects of the game... but still :(.

IN or OUT

This is it!
Win by more than a point.
Pray that the quotient thingie goes our way.

Help us!

Ploooop

Uneasy feeling. Insides turning around. Butterflies?
Earning to escape. Searching for a decent venue. Waiting for the right time.

But when you have to go... you have to GO despite whatever circumstances.

*plooooop*

Everyone takes a dump. It just so happened it was like PLOOOOOOOP and someone was around to witness it.

April Fools!

priceless reactions!

On Missed Chances

First a three pointer from the top of circle
Second a running shot down the middle
Third a driving lay up from a fumbled play with the time winding down to end the third quarter

BUT none went IN... :(

To add pain to injury... the third quarter ended with a buzzer beater three from the other team.

Despite all the missed chances-- may it be from an attempt or a choice to give others a chance, I would like to think that I played so-so.. since, we W-O-N! :)

On the Transformation

First the color... then the style... and now a pictorial?!?

Is this me? Am I becoming a lady?

Bwahahaha!

So HighSchool

Being with people whom you haven't seen for a long period of time is such a fresh new feeling. Hanging out and exchanging stories is so entertaining --- even if the topic is mostly bitter stuff. Even "partying" that felt so highschool seems alright at that moment. Haha!

Let's do it again.

Fresh Feeling - Eels

You don't have a clue
What it is like to be next to you
I'm here to tell you
That it is good
That it is true

Birds singing a song
Old paint is peeling
This is that fresh
That fresh feeling

Words can't be that strong
My heart is reeling
This is that fresh
That fresh feeling

Try
Try to forget what's in the past
Tomorrow is here
Love,
Orange sky above lighting your way
There's nothing to fear

Some people are good
Babe in the 'hood
So pure and so free
I'd make a safe bet
You're gonna get whatever you need

****
Cannot wait for my "fresh feeling"!

Bundat!

Pancake House
Ice Craze
Brazil Brazil!

*burp*

Make Everything Count

Why do people always leave? Why stay even if no one asked to? Why hold on? Why wait for a farewell? Why not leave?

Eventually everyone will go on their own separate paths. Nothing in this world is permanent. Everyone would disappear. Memories are the only things we have... We are merely having a once in a lifetime journey thus we should maximize every moment!

Random Questions

Is it possible to see your future with someone you just met?
Is it humane to be so hopeful?
Is it bad to be good?
Is it bad to pick the lesser evil?

On Pressure

The bigger the margin the better. If we fail, it will be over! Me sneaking out from work will be put to the drain. All those tiring nights will be put to waste!

Is this pressure I am starting to feel? Am I subconsciously feeling the burden of some kind of mental distress?

Eeep.

I better clear my mind and focus on a certain goal. Sleep early. Practice on my 3's. Run. Visualize. Pray.

This is it! 3 more days!

On a Car Accident that Involve an Irresponsible Person

Read this.

and this:


Super hassle! In fairness the "pareho naman tayong Kristyano" lawyer handled the situation better even if he acted like a jerk at first. He paid what was due in an instant.

This is all I can say... Niko Peralta, be responsible for what you did. You just don't know what may happen to you...

Not So Holy Week

For my whole existence I've spent the Lenten season with my family. Usually we'd head towards the mountains. However, due to the numerous creatures that trek up North we'd hit the waters or cherish the silence in the City.

This year, I had a different experience. For Holy Thursday and Good Friday, I headed to Zambales with some of my officemates. Black Saturday and Easter Sunday was spent with my family at Sofitel Hotel. La Union on Monday and Tuesday.

Hello to island hopping, swimming, eating, relaxing, drinking, cam whoring, jumping pictures, blah blah. This is the life! Good times! Too bad, back to reality tomorrow.

Oh well. Have to work my ass to get some moolah for more trips. :)

Okay, try to make myself better. :D

Makahiya

There is something I secretly watch from afar. I long to see the beauty it possesses. Patiently, I wait for it to be ready. As time pass by, my hope slowly diminishes. But like a flower, it suddenly blooms when least expected.

So what am I to do? Admire its beauty from afar or come closer to appreciate it more?

However, what if it turns out to be a makahiya? Should I wait again for it to blossom?

Labo mo woman!

Still Looking

Why search for things that you know would hurt you?

Weather Whether Lang

Darn! The weather is such a pain in the *tooot*! It is soooo hoooot and humid! Is summer really here? But suddenly it rains! Damn you!

Why do you have to be so unpredictable?

Paintball

Maximize March Agenda the other day: PAINTBALL

Tick Tock

What would you do if you find out that the clock is about to stop ticking?

Maximize March.

Thus the impromtu dinner at Lie Ching. This time we made it on time. Finally, I was de-virginized by their Chinese food! Spareribs, hakaw, chicken feet, ravioli soup, soy milk! You name it, delicious! Bundat gallore! We were the ones who closed the restaurant. :) Afterwards, like what happened previously when we our stomaches are full... never ending laughter.

Did I mention that we had tons of kamote cue for merienda?

Next stop...

Thursday Night

We were supposed to eat in this Chinese resto in GH but when we arrived it was already closed. To bad I wasn't de-virginized. So we headed to Q Ave for Kabab. It took us around an hour and a half and like only 30mins to eat. I guess we were that hungry.

Afterwards, we were supposed to go to this comedy bar since my officemate had this stub. We were excited to see Booba, but too bad it wasn't a free stub, it was a discount stub. So, headed to my place nalang for WIInuman.

Quotable Quotes:
Pe-ti-TE!
Pi-pe La-ying!
Patay na si Pope John Paul?!?

I guess that is the effect of the food.

The night ended early because nagbrownout while watching AI! Ayos lang, it was a Thursday!

Masarap ang Libre!

Beautiful

Me a candidate for some beauty contest?!?
Me a muse of some sort?!?

Huwhat!?! Come on, no games please.

Get Up and Stand Up

May it be 30 or a single point... what matters is the outcome.
Bottom line is.. we LOST!

It was not only the game, but also the season for one of us.
Sad, I know. But what can be done?

Pick up the remaining pieces. Get up and stand up!

Not My Type

yosi... drunkard...

but if you can carry a good conversation, why not?

Bakit kasi mahilig magpaka-FPJ?

Why do we always put ourselves in helpless situations? Why do we want to take the long and strenuous road? Why do we love to get in a deep hole?

Why waste time and wait when it is almost over before we show some sort of desire? Why do we have a tendency of falling behind and at the last few moments that is when we get up and fight?

Instead, why not fight and give it our all right at the start?

Bakit kasi mahilig magpaka-FPJ? Pwede rin ERAP? Yung tipong magpapadehado muna at magpapalampos bago babawi at lalaban.

Then again, the reality is even if how hard we give it our 110% there is no guarantee of ending on top when everything is over.

Masakit man tanggapin pero ayun ang katotohanan.

What Happens After Office

First stop was a birthday dinner. Initially, the plan was to have it in an American restaurant. But due to the political situation of the country we ate in the land of seafoods. It was definitely a good decision! We arrived on time. Food came in non-stop. There was this soup with small calms, calamares, huge sweet and sour fish, sinigang na pla-pla, baked tahong, oysters, tempura and CRABS! Boy, I was so confused to which one to attack first. Knowing me, I am not the type of person who would mix and match various food all at the same time. I am this one at a time kind of person. I am not a playful person na pinagsasabay. There was period that I felt that I was being punished or they were preparing to "grill" me due to all the food available. Ang sarap!

Everything was perfect. Good food plus great company. I was with people whom I haven't spent time outside the office. Laugh trip. It made me wonder if the food was spiked! The best part was no so-called guilt afterwards since it was a Friday.

Side note:
After dinner, we walked around the area to make the food go down. This guy bought gum which he offered. He extended his hand and 3 boys got who was followed by 3 ladies. However, there were only 2 left. I guess hiya prevailed and the 3 ladies took 2 steps back. The this woman came out of nowhere and said.. akin nalang and got the gum who was followed by another lady subsequently. Lesson learned, hiya would bring you no where.

Next stop was this wine tasting event. Headed to Malate. The place was different. It was hidden in the midst of all the bars which gave it an exclusive and safe atmosphere. There were like 9 bottles. I got "schooled" on how to drink wine, how to slurp, how wines are processed and how to identify which is which. Yeah, I was feeling classy at that instant. Then again, it needs many many years to be a master of this craft.

There were many happy people around. Never ending singing and at times with matching dance number on the side. Probably the wine kicked in.

I did not want to leave yet but I had to since someone will make tampo. The last stop... Makati for this birthday bash / despidida. When I arrived, only one celebrant was left. Whoops. But it was all good. More drinks, more songs and more conversations. They are really a group who I can call family. Nakanaman.

So this is what happens after office on a Friday night.

Surfing USA

Went to La Union with (some) fellow Naghi people. We availed the Sufvivor thingie of this "not an agency but a lifestyle". It was alright. I know better now since I am not a newbie anymore. Anyway, Kuya Jojo was the best! It felt like our van flew!

First stopover was for a restroom break but I was soooo sleepy that I didnt care to find out where we were. Next was somewhere in Sison, Pangasinan at around 4am to eat and of course, restroom break. And guess who we saw? The sister of my officemate who had this field trip to Baguio for the Flower Festival. There is such thing pala? How come I never had that? Oh well.

Arrived way ahead of the bus... like wala pang araw sa La Union. So we slept in the van while we waited. Then there, the organizers arrived. Waited for the key so that we can deposit our stuff. Guess who we saw? The sister of my officemate again. Whatta! Who is following who?

Anyway, once we settled down, we ate, watched meet the spartans, frisbee, swam, surf, ate, surf, frisbee, chill sa beach, surf competiton, picturessss, sunset, kain, adventure sa paghanap ng ice, inom, maki-tipar, inom, picturessss.... fun fun fun!

It is always fun to travel with a kid around. There would not be any boring momment...
hindi ka na love ni tita...
hindi nagsasalita si tiger eh
nakalock yung room eh
hindi umiiyak ang boys eh

Saw one of my college teamamtes. She is living the life. Surfing every other week or soooo. That is what you call the beach life!

How come ice was nowhere to be found? Walked like a thousand miles but the refilling station was closed... passed by this house with a "Ice 4 Sale" plastered on its gate.. but it was still ice water. Great! We got some which was good for 3 litters. Thanks to the paawa look.

Drank alot.... one glass of bailey's, one glass of gin/sprite/four seasons, one bottle of SanMig Light, 2 bottles of Red Horse. Oh my, what happened to my one bottle limit for beer? Beach life kicked in eh. Haha.

Day 2... enjoy the beach, surf competition, solo surfing, midway grill, isdaan, nlex

All in all it was a fantastic trip! Chill, walang iniisip. Enjoy the company, experience something new, laugh, drink and be marry!

Why No Posts?

Is it because...
I do not have anything interesting to write about?
I do not have the luxury to blog inside the prison?
I do not have the time?

Or maybe...
I just do not want to "reflect" on the stuff that I am undergoing right now thus I distract myself with not so fulfilling matters such as sports-related stuff?


Crap. I need to put my so called life back together.
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.
.
Whatever!

Freaking Bedspacer

She does not own the place but acts like she does.
Tae!

Amo

Have you ever been silently in love with someone you can never have?
So near and yet so far... So close you can touch his hand yet, yet so far to feel his heart..

Have you ever lived in pretense quietly loving without any condition?
A feeling of love that is unknown hiding it, not knowing for how long.

Have you ever been hurt unintentionally but put on a smile, pretended to be happy?
Deep inside you are in pain and suffering but outside you are jolly and laughing.

10 Things I Hate About you

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

WWW

Waiting...
Would you even remember?
Would you even care?
Waiting impatiently...
Would time give the answer?
Would it make any sense?
Waiting endlessly..
Would it be time to give up?
Would it be better to let go?

TIIS

Oh my, Feb is fast approaching...

TIIS! rawr!

Closing Cycles

By Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Hay.

I know that I should walk away but I feel a tiny hope inside of me.

Should I give it a shot knowing that I have no chance? Would I still try knowing that it would not work out?

Since my life is greatly influenced by basketball....

"It is like a championship game. Two seconds left on the clock. My team is down by one. I have the ball and I am open for a jump shot. Should I take the shot or not? If I make it, we win and celebrate. If I do not make it, we lose and go home crying. So I might as well take that shot and in case I miss it, I will still cry but it would be less painful knowing that at least I tried."

One of those conversations...

If only it could be us. Sana we ended up together nalang. If only we met earlier. It is just so complicated.

Huh? What are you talking about?

You sound disappointed. Don’t you wish na it was just us nalang?

Why, what are we right now?

MU… Mag-un.

Wahahaha, no seriously, what do you want?

I want you.

Having said that, what are you going to do to achieve that goal?

Reach out and grab my prize.

No, seriously, what do you plan to do to attain your goal?

Everyone makes mistakes. Then again, these mistakes may be corrected and that is what I am doing. Life is complicated. But if it wasn’t complicated then it wouldn’t be life.

Impossible is nothing, diba? Adidas ka naman, right?

Well, yeah… now, I throw the question back at you, do you think it is possible to be us?

It depends.

Wow. How assuring...

Fine… yes, why not?

So what will you do?

Just wait.

Just wait?!? You cannot just wait.

Well, what can I do? It is not as if my side is the one that is complicated. Of course, I need to fix some stuff but it is not that complex compared to yours… but the thing is how long can I wait?

You make me want to cry. You’ve been so good to me.

Well, I knew before hand that you are a bad boy.

Really? Bad boy in what sense? Basagulero? Yosi? Inum? Mayabang? In what sense?

Yes in all counts that you mentioned. That is what I heard from people. But then again, I do not know you yet personally, so why not give you a chance. Let me find out. So when I found out this and that based from my experience, yes, I was disappointed, cause who wouldn’t be? But not that much because someway, I was ready or expected it.

Promise, I will fix things. Give me xxx time.

Asar Dahil sa Gutom

Nakakaasar na mayroon kang tinawag tapos hindi lumapit.
Nakakaasar na yung tinawag mo ay katulong yo tapos hindi man lang ikaw pinansin.
Nakakaasar na kaya mo siya tinawag dahil ikaw ay gutom at gusto mo ng merienda.
Nakakaasar na dineadma ka.
Nakakaasar na oras na ng pagkain ng hapunan pero hindi pa nakahanda ang mesa at ang pagkain.
Nakakaasar na hindi tinigil ang kanyang ginagawa para maghanda ng makakain.
Nakakaasar na nagpapalusot pa kasi nagplaplantsa daw.

Lintek!

On Pregnancies

Okay great. At first, it was the youngest. Then after a year, kuya followed. I guess unica hija got envious so now she is 3-4 months already.

I assume it really runs in the family.

My Life

1. KWENTO NG NAME MO?
- Katrina cause my mom likes that name. Mae, cause my mom likes the name to have KM as initials. Made any sense?


2. anung kwento ng last birthday mo?
- went to the beach with my family and the siwas

3. anung kwento ng 1st lovelife mo?
- it wasn't the right time


4. anung kwento ng lovelife mo ngayon?
- zip! or rather its not mutual

5. anung kwento ng buhok mo ngayon.
- hey blondie.. or is it brownie? ehh.

6. anung kwento ng computer mo?
- persephone

7. anung kwento ng kwarto mo?
- its a jungle!

8. anung kwento mo last christmas?
- less happenings, wasakan

9. anung kwento mo last valentine's day?
- check last year's entry!

10 . anung kwento ng chinelas na suot mo?
- every faithful tribu!

11. anung kwento nung una mong nakita yung crush mo?
- omg, im going to die na! hahaha. just kidding.

12. anung kwento sayo ng parents mo tungkol kay santa claus?
- i do not remember

13. anung kwento nung best movie na pinanood mo?
- best movie? 300!!!! abs abs abs! :p

14. anung kwento nung last time na umiyak ka?
- last wednesday. my eyes hurt due to the smoke! wahahaha!

1. GIVE 3 NAMES IN YOUR CELLPHONE'S INBOX .
- none. i accidentally deleted the messages in my sun inbox. wahaha.

2. WHAT IS YOUR MAIN RINGTONE?
- PAPAYA!

3 . WHAT DID YOU DO AT 12 LAST NIGHT?
- touring manila

4. WHO WAS/WERE THE LAST PERSON/S YOU WENT OUT WITH? WHERE?
- mi familia. serendra

5. WHAT IS THE COLOR OF THE T-SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING NOW?
- white

6. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID?
- ate cereals

7. NAME 3 OF YOUR EVERYDAY FAVORITE ITEMS
- oakleys, phone, my marvel

8. WHAT IS THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM?
- dirty yellow


9. HOW MUCH MONEY IS IN YOUR WALLET NOW?
- 140

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Happy Happy

Happy 2k8 everyone!
Updates next time.
...
hopefully! :)