On Kalokohan

Alam mo yung nakakainis kasi gumawa nanaman siya ng kalokohan pero mahal mo parin siya?

Anlungkot.

On MOMOL

Ang oras ay isang bagay na hindi naibabalik kaya dapat sulitin ang bawat sandali. Iisipin ko na lamang na kapag kaming dalawa ay tunay na nararapat para sa isa't isa ay darating din ang tamang panahon. Kapag hindi dumating ang araw na iyon ibig sabihin lamang mayroong ibang taong nararapat para sa kanya at ibang taong nakatadhana para sa akin. 

Mahirap gawin pero kailangan sapagkat ito ang nararapat. Ito na talaga...Time for MOMOL aka Move On Move On Lang. Ang pag move on ay hindi lang pagsuko. Minsan ito ay pagtanggap sa mga bagay na hindi na talaga pwede.

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Alam mo yung feeling na hindi ka pwedeng magselos sapagkat hindi naman kayo? 

Alam mo yung feeling na after x number of years finally nasabi mo yung nararamdaman mo sa isang tao?

Alam mo yung feeling na after mo magtapat wala pang 12 hours makikita mo na lang na "In a relationship" siya...

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Ito nanaman
Ang aking pakiramdam
Muling nahulog

'Di na natuto
Tibok ng puso ikaw
Ang tinatawag

On Heartbeat

My heart skipped a beat
'Pon reading the simple words
***, kamusta ka?

You know that feeling when you finally found someone you want to kiss and not be able to do so?  That is exactly how I felt with matching heart racing sensations. Undeniable, the hopeless romantic in me has struck again.

Maybe things could have been different if I am where you are right now. I would not be writing this anymore. Instead I would be by your side in a heartbeat...

On ...

"hopefully start dating this girl as well haha... hope so, it's sorta headed that way but i'm not entirely sure

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The knowledge that we belong to the same group did not prevent my heart from skipping a beat when I saw you at the "farewell dinner". The smile that playfully appeared on your face as you extended your right hand as you said, "Hi, I'm *insert name* ... made me giggle. The soft brush of your lips to my cheek made me tingle. And as I walked away I felt electricity transmit into my whole body.
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This happens each time I see you. Shallow as it may sound, you do something to me that I can't explain. Open your eyes, mind and heart because I need you to look into mine.

:|

Mahal kita, alam mo ba iyon?
:/

Are you or are you not?

How come you have this thing of saying the right words at the right time?

If I were there, I'd give you some.

You look fine to me.

Who knows, maybe you are just being nice, but gosh, you still have that effect on me. You still make my heart skip a beat in spite all these years. You still have this special compartment in my system.

So you are you or are you not my....?

* Another wishful thinking entry.

Ang Aking Pakiramdam...

Excuse me! Hindi ako lasenga... sobrang masama lamang ang aking pakiramdam ngayon.

Tae... gusto kong uminom!!!

PAK-SH!-Y3T!

Still Looking

Why search for things that you know would hurt you?

:(

Spending time with people you love is one of the best feelings in the whole wide world. Spending time with people you haven't seen for the longest time is surreal.

People come and go. The one thing that you can do is make every moment count whenever you can. Time is something you cannot have back. Time passed by is gone forever.

Now, I am miss lonely without my two cute little cousins and their mom. :(

To my lil man... I wuv you...
To my "look a like"... Hello again!
To my aunt... *hug*

*tear*

Who Let The Dogs Out?

Me: Yes?
X: Maybe you are worrying why we are not yet at home...
Me: Yeah... where are you?
X: *calmly* We are in the hospital... *insert name* got bitten by a dog.
Me: Hah? How? Where was he bitten?!?!
X: At the eye area...
*Me pictures a huge dog attacking him*
it was a house dog... he thought it was a pillow.

On Writing So-Called Letters

Why do I write those in the first place?
Maybe because I...
do not really have anyone to address those notes to...
wanna make others happy...
wanna express my so called "affection" even in a weird way...
am secretly hoping that I'd get one of those from someone who really cares.

Errr....
Hopeless romantic strikes again!

On Life

Life is really ironic. It is like a paradox.

The person you like, does not like you or s/he seems so far and distant.
On the other hand, you do not like the person who likes you.

How many people would actually wait?
And how many would actually just take the easier way and be loved instead of to love?

Is it fair to be loved more and not to love as much in return?

Life is never as straight forward as it should be.

Then again, we have to move forward and not just move straight ahead.

On Waiting

Waiting is such a tedious task. There is an uneasy feeling. It is like hoping for something without assurance you will get whatever you are wishing and hoping for in the end. It even gets tiring to wait. Then again, why the hell wait? Why not leave?

Piece of advise, if you make someone wait, please come back. If you want to wait for someone, then wait, it is in fact your choice, However, do not expect anything. If you want to wait, then wait. Do not complain. Do not wait just because someone made you. Wait because you want to.

Then again, maybe I am waiting for nothing after all.

:(

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I miss you. I cannot begin to put into words what I experience to not be able to tell you. I fancy you for the jeopardy of using the L word and I cannot even imagine how to explain how it feels to know that I will never tell you.

I am too trying hard to be tough and pretend I feel nothing. I could care less. I am too much of all of these whatever to ever be exposed. So here I am frightened to remove my mask. Much that I have and will always let you do as you please, with a brave face.

All I can do is hope...

Though my cartoon-like exterior, my serious side will reveal when necessary, though my eyes are eternally Garfield-like I will never let you out of my sight.

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How I felt when I was in Tagaytay? I missed you. Where did that feeling come from? It came from the heart since all emotion come from the heart. Well it could be trip lang… Fine… Then mixed… From the heart and trip lang. When did I start feeling annoyed with you? Well, when was the last time I did something for you? Or better yet, when was the last time I gave you *? You know even that small thing I cannot do for you anymore. I am not inspired to do it in other words. Due to that I cannot find time. You know lagging tamad. Okay. I am insensitive and not you. It is my fault and not yours. Why I am acting this way? Because of what happened in the past that I cannot forget even how hard I tried it always popped out. Why is this so? Maybe because it has caused me so much pain. But wait, like I have not caused you pain, right? Mas malala pa nga actually. However the difference is we are totally different persons. You can still take it and you do not want / cannot give up. I on the other hand do not know what to do but let go and give up. Why is that so? For I am not certain of myself. I do not know what the hell came into me and answered you! What could I do? It is already there. Just go with the flow.

Do not worry. I will go away slowly. You will definitely find another girl. If I know, marami ng nakapila. As for me, I will go on with my life. Not getting to close to someone, living by myself, I do not know how to take care of myself. So there, I will concentrate on that and my family. I will repay them for all they did for me. After doing that, I will move on to the 10 people I treated like sh!t!
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My feeling for you remain the same despite all the hardships you are putting me thru. I have remained strong thru all the challenges but its somehow hard to please you. I gave you my world, you are my everythin. I do not know what I will do without you. I gived my best in making you stay but it seems to be getting harder becuase you cannot seem to forgive me. I want to be one with you and I guess I was but some things got in the way. I mourn for the love that we had because it is slowly dying in your eyes. I still want to continue and have to conquer this challange becuase it is harder to win back what little or a lot lost from you. Winning you back is what matters now as I ponder on what I have done to lose such a splendor like you.

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I have not written any worthwhile entries recently. Maybe it is because I am not feeling too introspective these days. Or maybe I am trying to run away from my inner thoughts.

Sometimes, I miss being in a relationship. Keep in mind that is different from missing the real person. What I miss is the special treatment…the feeling of being exclusive…the ultimate high you get from all those kilig moments. However, I realized that I would rather be somebody's best friends than somebody's one and only princess. Or baby. Or sang. Or whatever.

Of course, being a ‘best friend’ of someone you actually like more that a friend is an entirely a different matter. It irritates me when a girl and a guy who are obviously infatuated with each other and describes their relationship as ‘just friends’ or we are just best friends. A best friend is not someone you flirt shamelessly with. A best friend is someone who's seen you at your ugliest moments. Someone you have built an entire library of inside jokes with…Someone who will genuinely want to console you when you are down…Someone who will take care of you when you are wasted…Someone who will not worry the moment you fail to reply or call… Someone you enjoy doing things with. It is easy to find these qualities in one's girl friends, but in just one romantic prospect? Tricky.

It is easier to find unconditional love with the people we do not even plan to do so with. The strange thing is, it is a lot more difficult with the ones we spend so much effort on trying just to be compatible.

Chronicles of an Emobear for October

I realized that I dwelt at my comfort zone for a lengthy time. Thus after much thought, I decided to journey life in another approach. I had to let go of something dear to me in exchange of direction and excitement or rather uncertainty. I guess it paid off.

October was an action-packed month. Various events occurred. I met knew people, strengthened bonds and said farewell to a couple. It all started with the send-off of two of my colleagues.

For my superior:
I was not really that close to her since I was only under her for about a month. In addition, I did not converse with her prior to that. If you do not mind me, I would not mind you as well. Therefore, the only occasion I think I would talk to someone is that if I need some assistance or something like that. Yeah, I am a snob. Rather… I was a snob.

During her send off, which we were forced to attend too, was when I kinda let loose. I interacted with my teammates --- gave high-fives, cheers, etc. Everyone had a blast. Thanks to the influence of training up to 10pm and a dash of alcohol for some. :)

For my fellow bootcamper:
Read the entries of my fellow bootcampers nalang…
Faye
Ekai

We also had a Pre Halloween party / continuation of the send off. This time more people attended and since the theme was Halloween, most of us were in costumes. Cute! Fun!

Then there was the thing a Diamond Hotel. I did not know what to expect but I could say I had a good time… especially after the whole event when everyone started to dance. Haha. I know…such kids.

Guess October was really meant to be for Octoberfeast! Despite all the so-called stress work brings, at least I have people to make work-life --- life in general bearable.

Hah, was this the goal of 10.27?