On Facebook

How come when you try not to think of something you notice it more?

As part of my Lenten sacrifice 2012 I decided not to access Facebook. This is actually long overdue. Lessening time over this social media is part of my NYR 2012. This remained a goal until the start of this Lenten season when I finally did something about it.

Years ago, Facebook was not around. Now it seems like I am missing many things. Details of meet-ups, birthdays and other events are now sent through this site. What is going on in my family, relatives and friends minds are also shown there. I feel out of the loop not being “informed”.

Then again, I know people who does not have an account. There are are also people who has an account but only open it from time to time. These people do not feel that they are missing out on anything.

I guess it is a matter of perspective. Are the latest happenings that important to know? If they want me involved there are other methods to get in touch with me. On the good side, I have time to be so-called productive. I hope that when Lent is over things will not go back to the way it used to be.

On Third Monthsary

I just got back from my rehab doctor. Knee is better. Flexion is 130-145 which is normal to the general public. Muscles are gradually loosening and strength is slowly getting there. The thing that bothers me is there is some lag and I cannot seem to 100% lock my knee. This affects the manner I walk. But it is bearable. I can walk around without any help. I just get tired after an hour or two due to lack of endurance.

The important thing is there is improvement each day. The question is how fast my progress will be. I wanna gain back my confidence. I wanna stutter step, hop and jog properly. I cannot wait go back to my sporty lifestyle! Well, not really. I cannot wait for the day when I can move freely without taking my knee into consideration.

When will that day come? Patience. Like what I said before, don't count the days, Katitay. Instead make each day count.

On Chocolate Challenge

I decided to give up chocolates for 40 days. I am in the middle of day 1 and temptation is already knocking at my door. For the longest time I have been planning to go to COMFOODS to get snacks for my family. Of all days to materialize that plan it had to be today when my officemate asked me if I wanted to accompany him.

COMFOODS is the home of choco polvoron, choco mallows, curly tops, flat tops and the like. Enough said. Just by the mere thought of those sweets make my mouth water.

Oh temptation! No sacrifice is easy. Giving up chocolates would not be considered as a sacrifice if I do not enjoy them. Hopefully as the days progress it would be easier to control my desire. I need to keep in mind the reason why I am doing this. Now is not the time to give up. Chocolates are just tangible materials. Focus. I can do this with Your guidance.

                                                                                                                                       

On Lent 2012

Today marks the Lenten season. For the next 40 days I will give up:  

1.  FB - "Facebook is a social utility that connects you with the people around you”. Now, it is faster to stalk people. Kidding aside. FB makes it easier to communicate and keep in touch with people from all over the globe. It also keeps me updated with the latest trends and what-nots. With all the information it contains, “nonsense” stuff consumes a huge amount of time. So starting today, instead of immersing my time with senseless things, I will allot more time communicating with Kuya Jess and sleep earlier.
2. Soda - To start off, I am not a huge soda fan. But there are food that goes real well with it. Value/Combo meals go with soda and additional charges apply to have the drink upgrade to juice. Now I have to make a constant effort to take water instead.
3. Chocolates - Chocolates are one of my guilty pleasures. Once I start, it is difficult to stop. When I feel down, eating chocolates make me a tad bit better. Now I need to find an alternative to overcome low moments.

These things are just material. Years ago FB did not exist. Soda and Chocolates are things of pleasure.  I just need to discipline myself and make a conscious effort to give up these three things. Ah, I know, it is easier said than done. Good luck to me!

On Life Without IT

My June 11 incident was a huge turning point in my life. In my almost 3 decades of existence, IT had been a huge part in my way of life. Patintero, piko, 10-20, land-water-air and agawan base were my recess during my elementary years. Eventually, basketball, badminton and table tennis became my lunch and my snacks. Basically, I sleep and breathe IT.

Despite other worldly obligations I made ways to attend to this yearning. There was something about IT that made my body long for more. Even if my body is ached I shrugged it off and continue. Then on one dreadful Saturday it appeared that my body took so much punishment and my knee told me to have a break.

Yet, being me, I tested my knee for another tournament. Success rate was obviously not met that led to frustration. I was able to perform but in the level I know I could have if my body was ready. Opponents got the best of me. Due to my incapability to perform how I know I can, I made the decision to take a rest to attend to my body.

Dark ages arrived. While my teammates and friends sweated it out, I was stuck at home resting or at rehab. The feeling sucked big time. But eventually I got used to living without IT. At least I did not have to experience the agony of defeat.

But is it worth living a life without undergoing the whole process of preparation, anxiety and the highs and lows IT brings?

On Morning Person

I am not a morning person. This is a source of tantrums and fights. I blame my parents and helpers for not waking me. I am always the last one to finish preparing. I am the cause of change of schedules due to my tardiness.

To avoid conflicts I promise myself that I will fix my sleeping habits. I should be in bed by 11pm. I should mediate before rising by 645am the latest. I should at least do some stretching instead of rushing to get ready for work. 

Sadly, this is one of the cases wherein a promise is broken. Sleeping before 12mn is considered early in my standards which in reality is already late for most. Getting up by 730am is a miracle. My sleeping hours is certainly one bad habit that I need to break.

Today I found an answer on how to be a morning person. Despite sleeping at almost 2am, I was up by 615am. My folks were surprised that I was ready to go by 7am. So what got into me? Someone picked me up for breakfast and dropped me off at work.

Yun lang pala ang sagot other than weekend early morning game days.

On Love Bug

I am never good with gift giving. For birthday and Christmas gifts, I usually give gift certificates or ask them what they want. Or if it isn't their birthday yet and they want something but have doubts of getting it, I get it for them and tell them it is an advance present. At least I know my money did not go to waste and that they appreciate what I got.

It is the time of the year once again. The time wherein couples flaunt their affections towards their partners. It is like Korea everywhere wherein whichever side you look there are peoples in-twos with googly eyes.

In my whole existence I have only been in a relationship once during the 14^th of February. It was hell. I felt pressured that I had to get something due to peer pressure and media. Thank God for friendly friends for their ideas and I survived.

I am glad that I do not have the trouble to go through that pressure this year. I just have to wear blinders to block out the ants all around. Then again, it would be a welcome surprise to hear your voice. A card with rose would be too much to experience heaven here on earth.

Great, the annual love bug has bitten me once again.

On Go Signal

You make me do things which I never thought I could accomplish. Even if I am tired, I find the energy within me to continue. Despite all the adversities I encounter I continue to fight. Some say I am crazy for wasting my time since you are a dead end. But what can I do, I fell in love.

I may be stupid for falling. Falling in love is so hard on the knees (literally and figuratively). I am currently under rehabilitation strengthening myself after the fall. I am excited for our reunion. On the other hand I am afraid. Sacred that things will not be the same.

I have the go signal to run. Now if only my knee would cooperate and let me run like a cheetah. For now I must train movement, not muscles. No pressure. When I am ready, I will be back. When I say go I hope and pray that you will welcome me with open arms.