Lost?

It is 1 am, and I cannot sleep. I keep thinking about my life so far... thoughts about the future, thoughts about what I have done with my life. Thoughts about what I should be doing are floating in my head right now... I try, but I cannot get a solid grasp of what they are. I cannot even put them to words, but I know, I am at a point in my life where I am reassessing my direction, my priorities... deciding what road to take... deciding whether to throw caution to the wind and follow my heart or stay rational and logical and follow my brain...
It is tough when you do not know where you are. When you are fearful that you have missed a corner and now traveling down a very different road. It is hard when you cannot read the signs and there is no way for you to know which direction you ought to take. It is scary when you know that you have no one other than your self to blame for whatever mistakes you made...
Run and hide or face it... seems so simple, but in truth is very hard to answer... I wish I had the courage to face everything head on... but sometimes, there are things that are better left in the dark... better left unopened... better left alone... and this thing... whatever it is, seems like one of those things... I will try to leave it alone for now... and then reassess maybe in a few weeks time, if I have enough courage or will to face it...