On First Love

I will always remember my first love. Our first meeting was a bit awkward. The circumstances were not within the norms. My parents, especially my mom, raised an eyebrow. However, as I spent more time with you I became comfortable and slowly got attracted. Moments with you soon became pleasurable almost like an addiction.

We had a long journey filled with more downs than ups. Hearts were crushed. In the process I became stronger as I rose after each and every failure.

An experience of passionate love is truly indescribable. During the time we were apart, I have met others. But even so, it is undeniable that there is still SOMETHING that will linger between us. You will always be a part of me cause somehow you have influenced the person that I am today.

A first love is indeed unforgettable.

On Moving On

I realized that trying to move on is useless. It is difficult. As long as there is still something lingering there is a possibility that I would fail. Whenever I deny the pain I would just fool myself and risk my well-being.

Thank you that when I opened my eyes I felt calm and relaxed. The pain is still there but not that intense anymore. Then and there I knew that the turmoil is almost over.

Here we go again! Baby steps... :)

On Long Term

Am I ready for a long term commitment?
How would life be if my time with the things I enjoy are compromised?
Would I still be sane?

Do the pros weigh heavier than the cons?
Am I willing to sacrifice temporary pleasure for long term goals?
Am I ready to take that huge step to be that person?

Abangan...

On Lines

I lined up patiently for my turn. When my turn finally arrived, I made the most out of it. I desperately tried to wash out the dirt which accumulated after I rolled like a pig on the muddy field countless times. What can I do if I am resourceful enough and was able to start shampooing before it was my turn? Skillful enough to get soap and stay a little longer to help another teammate who was next in line?

To the dakdakeras, if you want to wash up, I suggest that you line up patiently and wait for your turn rather than blabbing your mouth.

Thank you.

On Crush

It feels good to smile for "no apparent reason". It definitely adds color to the monotone life. There may be no certainty, yet the thought is very much welcomed.

So I ask myself, why am I still single? Is it really by choice or rather lack of choices? Do I need to be more presentable aka kikay? Should I keep my thoughts inside the thought bubble?

But this is what I am sure of, it does not follow just because someone is single the person does not know a thing about love. In reality, going solo is wiser than being in a relationship at the wrong time.

Note to self. Patience. Ang TNC ay masaya kahit na single. :)