On The End?

Coming together 2 years ago was a huge challenge. A group of people from different backgrounds decided to join forces. It was a rough journey and it is still. But there was progress for people who stuck together. Eventually glimpses of success was experienced when the team took the initiative to work together. But where are we right now?

It saddens to know that something you put time and effort on is slowly disintegrating. It takes time, effort and discipline to be part of a team. But it takes more sacrifice to form one and work as one.

Is this the end of the road?

Huwag naman sana. Sana mayroon pa akong maabutan sa panahon na magaling na ako....

On PCL Day 13

Hello Rehab day 3! Same same. Ultrasound, stretch (90 degrees) and tense with hot packs. After was a 2 round walk with a 4-legged cane. Then the flexion machine. My quads are weak. :( Todo nginig even if 0 lang yung flexion. :( 


Improvement seems slow. My legs are soooo weak. I have been stuck downstairs for almost two weeks. I choose not to go out to avoid the hassle. Hirap na hirap na ako. :( What am I to do? I push myself naman. I take time to exercise on my own. But I guess kulang pa e. Should I push myself more? Should I not baby it anymore? Even if there is pain, sige parin?


Here I am again doubting if I did the right thing. Not everyone who tore the PCL don't have it reconstructed. I guess pro athletes are the only ones who do it. So why did I have it reconstructed? Sports is not my source of income and I managed to live four months despite the tear. Did I make the right decision? 


Oh well, tapos na. All I can do is push push push! At least I can walk with one support!. Need to gain back confidence. Need to work on my quads para when I go back on Friday big improvement on the machine. As they say, "No one said it would be easy; we just said it'd be worth it." I pray each night that I see improvements and maka-recover na ako the soonest.

On Kailan

Kailan kaya

Akong makakalad

makakatakbo

Kailan kaya

Akong makakapasok

Sa opisina

Kailan kaya

Akong magiging okay

Ha-hay tuhod ko.

On PCL Day 11

Day 2 of rehab. The pain killer did its job and minimized the pain. I believe my knee is slowly improving. Flexion is almost 90 degrees. However, strength is not yet there. Walking without the help of the sticks seems dim for now. My left leg is still floating. I'm baby-ing it. At the back of my mind I am taking care of it. Thus, I compromise the proper way of walking. Knowing me, I have inborn tactics to minimize the pain. Unknowingly I am still afraid to put 100% weight on it. Thus the precaution.

On a positive note, I can sit and stand on my own. No assistance needed other my bff sticks. Next goal is to reach at least 100 degrees flexion and gain confidence walking with one stick nalang. Lets do this!

On Soltitude

Solitude causes
Loneliness, yes but also
Fits of ecstasy