On Pagod

Every single freaking day is a struggle. Sleep is prolonged due to the agony of another work day. Feet are dragged daily towards the office. Deep breaths are taken upon entering the prison.

Maybe I need a break. Maybe I am just burned out. But what use will a vacation do if when I get back I will face the same shit?

I do not want to throw the white flag. But I cannot seem to see the light at the end of the long and winding tunnel.

Nakakapagod
Ano nga ba ang tama?
Ano ang dapat?

Day 1 of 21 in Exile

I ran out of excuses and options and now I am in exile. That is the fact. So instead of being negative, might as well embrace the situation for time does not and shall never equal experience.

So how was Day 1?

First day was a day of firsts. It was my first time to take a dump on air. My first time to live on my own. My first time to eat in a restaurant wherein everything serve was bathed in chilli.

Through these experiences I've learned that despite the circumstances when one has to go one has to go. No questions asked. Moreover, given the situation, one will make do with what is given in order to survive.

Cheers to more firsts!

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Ito nanaman
Ang aking pakiramdam
Muling nahulog

'Di na natuto
Tibok ng puso ikaw
Ang tinatawag

On Heartbeat

My heart skipped a beat
'Pon reading the simple words
***, kamusta ka?

You know that feeling when you finally found someone you want to kiss and not be able to do so?  That is exactly how I felt with matching heart racing sensations. Undeniable, the hopeless romantic in me has struck again.

Maybe things could have been different if I am where you are right now. I would not be writing this anymore. Instead I would be by your side in a heartbeat...

On 2.5

Mondays are for weigh-ins. This is meant to obviously monitor my weight and to see the effects of the weekend to my body. In the number of Mondays I have been checking my weight have been a steady 104. However, three weeks ago I gained 0.5. It did not bother me because it was only 0.5. It could be my clothes, shoes, girl thing, etc. But when I checked the week after I gained another pound! This alarmed me a bit because this might be the start of an upward trend. And I was correct, when I checked yesterday I gained another pound. That makes it 2.5 pounds in a span of 3 freaking weeks! Oh Eem Gee!

Then again this is expected. I have been a lazy ass. Due to the long hours at work I am lazy to take the extra effort to exercise or whatever to make myself feel a bit fit. This is also a fruit of having visiting relatives over. Hello weekend getaways and dining out galore.

Last time I suddenly put on weight was when I got back from my Euro trip. I guess vacation and relatives are some of the components for gaining a few pounds. Throw in long hours at work that make me lazy to workout which is bad.

Hello self. Please get yourself together. Putting on some pounds actually looks good on you. You actually look blooming. But it would be better if you are strong and fit as well --- not to go over 110 pounds!