Thursday, January 31, 2008

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Closing Cycles

By Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Hay.

I know that I should walk away but I feel a tiny hope inside of me.

Should I give it a shot knowing that I have no chance? Would I still try knowing that it would not work out?

Since my life is greatly influenced by basketball....

"It is like a championship game. Two seconds left on the clock. My team is down by one. I have the ball and I am open for a jump shot. Should I take the shot or not? If I make it, we win and celebrate. If I do not make it, we lose and go home crying. So I might as well take that shot and in case I miss it, I will still cry but it would be less painful knowing that at least I tried."

One of those conversations...

If only it could be us. Sana we ended up together nalang. If only we met earlier. It is just so complicated.

Huh? What are you talking about?

You sound disappointed. Don’t you wish na it was just us nalang?

Why, what are we right now?

MU… Mag-un.

Wahahaha, no seriously, what do you want?

I want you.

Having said that, what are you going to do to achieve that goal?

Reach out and grab my prize.

No, seriously, what do you plan to do to attain your goal?

Everyone makes mistakes. Then again, these mistakes may be corrected and that is what I am doing. Life is complicated. But if it wasn’t complicated then it wouldn’t be life.

Impossible is nothing, diba? Adidas ka naman, right?

Well, yeah… now, I throw the question back at you, do you think it is possible to be us?

It depends.

Wow. How assuring...

Fine… yes, why not?

So what will you do?

Just wait.

Just wait?!? You cannot just wait.

Well, what can I do? It is not as if my side is the one that is complicated. Of course, I need to fix some stuff but it is not that complex compared to yours… but the thing is how long can I wait?

You make me want to cry. You’ve been so good to me.

Well, I knew before hand that you are a bad boy.

Really? Bad boy in what sense? Basagulero? Yosi? Inum? Mayabang? In what sense?

Yes in all counts that you mentioned. That is what I heard from people. But then again, I do not know you yet personally, so why not give you a chance. Let me find out. So when I found out this and that based from my experience, yes, I was disappointed, cause who wouldn’t be? But not that much because someway, I was ready or expected it.

Promise, I will fix things. Give me xxx time.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Asar Dahil sa Gutom

Nakakaasar na mayroon kang tinawag tapos hindi lumapit.
Nakakaasar na yung tinawag mo ay katulong yo tapos hindi man lang ikaw pinansin.
Nakakaasar na kaya mo siya tinawag dahil ikaw ay gutom at gusto mo ng merienda.
Nakakaasar na dineadma ka.
Nakakaasar na oras na ng pagkain ng hapunan pero hindi pa nakahanda ang mesa at ang pagkain.
Nakakaasar na hindi tinigil ang kanyang ginagawa para maghanda ng makakain.
Nakakaasar na nagpapalusot pa kasi nagplaplantsa daw.

Lintek!