Torn

Will I still play or let my pride conquer?

Special Needs

I just realized that I don't want love. I don't want commitment. I don't want devotion. I just need a little affection every now and then. You know? Somebody to hold hands with, somebody who'll casually drape an arm around my waist or over my shoulders as we walk from point A to point B, just somebody to make me feel like I'm still even remotely attractive. Somebody to make me feel special. But not somebody to be serious about.

I'm sick of seriousness. I just want the gratification. I want somebody I can be malandi with.

I feel like a teenage boy. I think I just need to make out with somebody without having to worry about the repercussions. Don't ever fall in love with me; I'm just in it for the good times.

Don't you just feel like this at times?

On Jokes

Cracking a joke is always a risky move. There are many things you should consider before cracking a joke.... especially if it is corny one. In addition, you should work on your delivery skills. If you do not pay attention to these details, chances are you would not get a few laughs. If you are lucky then maybe you will get some heckling. Then again, if you are really unlucky, you will be facing silence.

Either way it is at this point that you figure out that it is time to stop cracking jokes. It is a sad feeling to be left hanging... so take off your clown make up and live normally.

Work Rant

How come I find it difficult to get up during the morning? I steal every hour, minute and second I can get in bed. During bootcamp, I managed to come in at work at around 830-9 for a month or so. But now, I arrive past 9:10! It seems like a big hassle to get my lazy ass out of bed.

What is the reason behind this? Is it because I am not happy with what I am doing? Is it because I have no motivation? Unlike before, I am at school by 5:30-ish in the morning to train. I did that for 4 straight years! How the hell did I do that? Now, all I need to do is to come in around 3 hours later and I still cannot comply! Where is my drive?

Maybe I need to find another reason other than work to earn so that I can be right on track.

Mall of Asia Experience

My parents and two of my siblings picked me up from work and we headed off to Mall of Asia. From the outside the mall looked astounding! They have this ala Universal Studios globe outside the mall. It was that huge. A first timer would definitely get lost inside. We looked like touristas.

Good thing that there weren’t that many people there since it was a Thursday night. I heard that during Friday-Sunday there are people coming from different classes. The inside was spacious. I guess the effect of the floors and light added to this. Hopefully they will continue to maintain its cleanliness like how Shangri-la is taken care.

I wasn’t able to tour the whole mall though. We went to the strip facing Manila Bay where different restaurants such as Gerry’s Grill, Good Earth, Café Breton, Bo’s Coffee, Seattle’s Best were located. I liked how they situated these restaurants along the side of the mall so that even if the mall is closed, these restos can continue its business until the wee hours.

The I-Max part was gorgeous! They had this chill area outside the theater. There were couches, tables, music area all in red since it had a Coke and San Miguel theme. How I would love to have a spot similar to that at my own home. Too bad we weren’t able to catch a movie since we were late for the last full show.

The skating rink was bigger than the one at Megamall. People say that it is as big as the ones they use in the Olympics. I wouldn’t really know though. It has this Mt. Everest background which makes the rink appear cooler. I would really love to skate there just for fun.

The shops are great. They have a variety of stores there. From clothing, flip flops, toys, hobbies, bookstores, etc. One would easily past time just walking around the mall.

All in all, I enjoyed my short trip. I had a great time bonding with my family in another environment. It was also a good exercise for all of us with all the walking we did. Then again, I realized that it wasn’t that enormous after all. Imagine the floors of Megamall spread out in just two floors. Nonetheless, I would still gladly go back there and get my i-max experience.