On My Childhood Crush

Guess what my mom unraveled from the numerous clutters in our room? Yellowish newspaper cut outs of this particular local actor who was my crush! There were articles of movies and shows where he belonged and pictures of his endorsements among other stuff. The clippings dated way back 1996!

I remember the days when I would sit in front of the television just to catch a glimpse of him. My friends would even call me up whenever they saw his hotdog and milk commercials. I was not the stalker-ish type but there was a point when I made prank calls to his residence.

In fairness, his name is still known in showbiz at present. So I guess he was a worthy actor.

Oh my gosh! I was such a fan girl.

On Bad Days

Days when I just want to stay in bed
Days when I do not like to be disturbed from my deep slumber
Days when I just want to curl up
And slowly be eat up bit by bit

Days when I do not feel like getting up
Days when I do not want to do all my obligations
Days when I just want to pause for a single second
To breath, to think and t relax

But no
The world will keep on turning
The days will continue to pass me by

There is nothing I can do
But to hopelessly hope
When I finally find the courage
To face all the bad days
Those days will eventually be better.

On What Will You Do?

What will you do if…

…the person you want to talk to does not want to talk to you?
… you want to resolve things with someone but that someone does not want to resolve things with you?
… you want to help certain person but that certain person does not want to accept your help?

What will you do?

Will you keep trying?
Will you continue being a martyr?

Or

Will you let things be?

And

Will you move on and start living the life you desire to live?

This is all I can say:

Patience is a virtue.
However, life is short.
So what will you do?
What is your Game Plan?

On Words

“I do not like her. It is hopeless to live with her. She is just plain evil. She is like a child who is impossible to talk too.”

“But I need to be civil with her for my son. I am doing all of this for my son. According to the law, the kid needs to be at least 7 years old before he can choose where he wants to stay.”

“Even if how much I want to get on with my life, I cannot. I might lose my son. Who would accept me with my complex situation? My friends keep on telling me to go on with my life. Every time I mention you to them, they always urge me to live my life. However, if we decide to be official, it would be unfair for you. I would look bad."

"I do not like to have flings. I am done with that stage. I am looking for something serious. Let us face it; we are not getting any younger. I do not like you to think that there is no future. That is why I am immersing all my energy in my work so that I do not need to think about these things."

"Even if how much I would like to go out with you frequently, I cannot. Even if how much I would love to hangout with you and spend time with you, I simply cannot."

After all that has been said, I ask myself… were his declarations sincere? Did he really mean what he expressed? Is he hoping for a possibility of something many perceive as immoral?

Whatever. Words remain just words without action.

On My New Assignment

Everything transpired unexpectedly. I extended my holidays for a single day. Before the holidays, one of those unorganized people asked me to come in work for an interview that never took place. Since I was on bench, I assumed life would be petiks until further notice. Then boom! I now find myself in another building for supposedly an urgent matter.

An urgent matter because my assignment is in a critical stage. We will go-live on the end of the month… finished or not yet finished. What a challenging task indeed. Hello to long working hours.

Good luck to me on my step closer to my first ever kudos.