Darn it! I do think about you everyday. I do remember every look and every smile. My head rested upon your broad shoulders our arms linked, our fingers intertwined, no words spoken, just two hearts beating as one.
Grabe, it hurts so much. It makes me want to cry cause I cannot ever speak of the sensations I feel in my heart no matter how enormous the feeling is since in the first place I do not have the right to feel whatever emotion that is.
Then again, who am I to complain when I walked into this situation with my huge eyes wide open? It was my choice to lose myself in this insane emotion with you. No regrets. Just missing you.
I guess I should be happy now. Less complexity is what I wanted. Fate just made it easier. Nevertheless, why oh why does it feel so damn difficult?
"A moment of pleasure, a lifetime of pain"
Friday, September 04, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
On What Love Is
Everyone is capable of loving. It does not mean if one is not capable of loving that one is not capable to be loved.
I have done preventive measures in order not to communicate with you. I have erased you from my address book. I am not good with numbers thus I do not memorize it. I have immersed myself with various activities to keep myself busy.
However, it never fails. When I thought I have moved on you do something stimulating that prevents me from fully letting go. Somehow I find myself back to square one, sort off. Why is this so, I do not know.
How can I completely let go and not be affected? Should I completely erase everything that concerns you? Will doing so erase you from my mind and heart?
God, when will the time come when I awake I will not think of you? Is this what love is --- accepting the person despite one’s imperfections?
I have done preventive measures in order not to communicate with you. I have erased you from my address book. I am not good with numbers thus I do not memorize it. I have immersed myself with various activities to keep myself busy.
However, it never fails. When I thought I have moved on you do something stimulating that prevents me from fully letting go. Somehow I find myself back to square one, sort off. Why is this so, I do not know.
How can I completely let go and not be affected? Should I completely erase everything that concerns you? Will doing so erase you from my mind and heart?
God, when will the time come when I awake I will not think of you? Is this what love is --- accepting the person despite one’s imperfections?
Monday, August 10, 2009
Ultimate Frustration
It truly hurts so much when one is looking forward for something then when the time finally arrives, it is cancelled.
Saturday, August 08, 2009
On Seriousity
The Hali Family is composed of individuals brought together by their occupation. Hali Family is a group with different personalities from various backgrounds who enjoys having fun and fooling around. A day is not complete without jokes, side comments and remarks.
After one movie night, the Halis decided to go to a coffee shop for more bolahan session. However, 6750 was full so off they went to GB3. As mentioned, coffee time = bolahan. Various topics with sense or without arise. -- From movie jokes from the latest movie seen, letter game and the next trip. The subject matter was endless.
Then came, Tagaytay… game?!? Who would have thought that papatulan ang Tagaytay game? Then again, I think it was partly my fault. I felt na the night rather the morning was seriously bolahan nalang… so I blurted out… “For once, may we be serious?”
Thus, the coffee session moved to Starbucks Tagaytay! When we arrived there, more bolohans transpired while waiting for the Bulalohan place to open. When we arrived at on the dot, the place was close! Then we found out that there was a 24 hour Bulalohan place!
Seriousity killed the Kat.
After one movie night, the Halis decided to go to a coffee shop for more bolahan session. However, 6750 was full so off they went to GB3. As mentioned, coffee time = bolahan. Various topics with sense or without arise. -- From movie jokes from the latest movie seen, letter game and the next trip. The subject matter was endless.
Then came, Tagaytay… game?!? Who would have thought that papatulan ang Tagaytay game? Then again, I think it was partly my fault. I felt na the night rather the morning was seriously bolahan nalang… so I blurted out… “For once, may we be serious?”
Thus, the coffee session moved to Starbucks Tagaytay! When we arrived there, more bolohans transpired while waiting for the Bulalohan place to open. When we arrived at on the dot, the place was close! Then we found out that there was a 24 hour Bulalohan place!
Seriousity killed the Kat.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
On Looking For Answers
Why can you not say NO to the other person --- but it is all right to call a rain check when it is I who is involved?
Why do things suddenly occur whenever we have a so-called plan?
Why do you treat me as an option and not as a priority?
Why do I make an effort to preserve whatever we have?
Why do I even bother?
You cannot say no to others because they are your clients and I am merely no one.
Unexpected things come up because they are really planned.
You treat me as an option because that is what I am to you.
I make an effort for I thought what we have is something worth to be valued.
Now, I do not even know why I bother.
Why do things suddenly occur whenever we have a so-called plan?
Why do you treat me as an option and not as a priority?
Why do I make an effort to preserve whatever we have?
Why do I even bother?
You cannot say no to others because they are your clients and I am merely no one.
Unexpected things come up because they are really planned.
You treat me as an option because that is what I am to you.
I make an effort for I thought what we have is something worth to be valued.
Now, I do not even know why I bother.
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