Saturday, May 21, 2011

On Missing You

Almost a year already yet I dearly miss you. Things are not the same without you -- it feels incomplete. Toiletries and meals are not prepared upon arrival. Days are quiet -- void of your novena.

Am I greatly affected because I am your palangga? I doubt it since you equally love your apos just the same. You make it a point that everything is well taken care. You make it a point that we have all that we need so that we will enjoy our stay. You make it a point that we know what a family is. Ultimately, you make it a point that we feel loved.

I love you Lola. It was the first time I saw you at your resting place after our "goodbye". Though you are in a better place, you will always be in my thoughts and heart. The values and love that you have showed me will keep me going. Please do help us in good times and especially in hard times. I miss you Lola, but life goes on. Until we meet again up there.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

On Feeling - -

I just didn't think someone like you could ever like someone like me.

Then again, ang feeling ko naman na isipin ito. LOL.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

On Begnite

Meralco Begnite
The place to be on Mondays
Where it all started

First time raindrops fell
White top – obviously not smart
Hello rain or shine

Stood at the corner
Ignored the circumstances
The show must go on

Backhand and forehand
Suddenly called for scrimmage
Noob slipped and failed pass

Just picked myself up
Caught the disc at the end zone
Addiction began

Sunday, May 15, 2011

On Real vs. Make Believe

What is real and what is make believe? Which is more powerful -- logic or imagination? To be in a state wherein the complication of logic and intellect vs. imagination and madness meet is mind boggling. Which should be given more value -- the mind or the heart?

Logic is based on facts -- stuff that are researched. However, there are instances when the intellect cannot come up with any decent explanation. This is when madness enters as we begin to think with our imagination.

It all starts in belief. Without it, we could not have attained what we thought was impossible. Thus, it takes a great imagination to dream. A dream to have a goal. A goal to motivate and the motivation to succeed!

So was THAT only an imagination or was THAT real?

Saturday, May 14, 2011

On Being Foolish

Whenever I ask my teammates if they want to win the obvious answer I get is "yes". But how come I cannot see this "yes" in actions? Then again, who am I to judge. My passion and determination to win might be in a different level and it might be getting the best of me once again.

What am I to do? I am SO tired of losing. In my countless years involved in team sports I was never part of a team with a winning tradition. Most often, I belong to a team lacking in talent, experience and fundamentals. That is okay with me as long as there is heart and determination displayed in every practice and game.

This makes me think if I should continue to play competitively cause I am not sure if every single teammate of mine is in the same page as I am. Maybe I should just play for leisure to prevent further heartaches cause honestly it sucks big time. The difference between impossible and the possible lies in a man's determination and truth be told I do not see that in each of my teammates.

But, I am stupid. I am foolish. I cannot stop. Whenever I do not get the outcome I want it pushes me to try again. Try and try even if it hurts hoping that the next result will be the one I am yearning for. Is there something wrong with me?

As they say: Winners are not people who never fail, but people who never quit.

Kahit isang panalo (for now) lang please?
Tas isa pa ulit.. at...times infinity.