On Monthsary

Dear Ultimate,

Today marks a month when I used both of my knees as feet. A month has passed and yet I am not yet 100%. It is killing me especially I am someone who uses sports as refuge from all the “kaguluhan” in this world.

Sports is the only thing that moves me. Despite panic Mondays, Wednesday midweek humps and Friday weekend modes I find the motivation to get up and go to the office because at the back of my mind there is Ultimate waiting for me. Thirsty Tuesday is a treat as well because of the sweat that comes with Basketball. During weekends instead of sleeping in and letting the day pass by I get up earlier than workdays at my own will.

I have learned my lesson. I should not overwork my body because I am not as young as I used to be. I should take care of my body --- eat well and sleep early. More importantly, I should choose my battles carefully and slow down from sports. I should show how much I appreciate my family and the simple things in life.

I know that I am a fairly patient person. But, when will the day come when I won't feel any pain? I think I am losing it. Please give me the strength to continue living with purpose and enthusiasm.

On Post Game

"The ultimate victory in competition is derived from the inner satisfaction of knowing that you have done your best and that you have gotten the most of what you had to give." - Howard Cosell

I feel miserable knowing that if I was 100% I would have performed better --- I would have scored 2 more goals, I would have prevented an in cut and eventually cause a TO, I would have rattled the handler, etc. But on the lighter side, I know deep down I did all that I can considering my physical condition. So in a way I am happy.

Bawi nalang sa Saturday!

On Conditionally Cleared

After two weeks, my ortho and rehab doctors conditionally cleared me with great hesitation. Obviously napilitan lang sila because I did not pass the duck walk challenge. Also they would not know if I play or not and as if they can stop me from playing. They just told me to expect that I will feel pain afterwards. If the pain is different I need to go back instantly.

I know that pushing myself would put myself in greater danger. But this is a risk I am willing to take. Risks need to be taken to discover how far I can go. It is better to take the risk because whatever the outcome maybe I can accept (eventually) rather than failing to try and thinking what could have been.

As they say... Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.

Fight!

On Things to Do When Bored

1. Go to the pantry and grab something to drink and eat.
2. Go to the CR and splash face with water.
3. Do desk exercises/stretching.

If these 3 fail, get out and walk to the nearby establishments. :)

On Puzzles

Since I could not engage in physical activities for x number of weeks I turned to brain activity. I got this 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle. Positive thinking, at least my motor skills and hand-eye coordination are put to the test. In addition, it helps keep my mind active and alert.

I believed it is serving its purpose because instead of sulking that I cannot do two things that I love I am preoccupied at putting the right pieces at the right places. Hopefully this jigsaw puzzle is not the only thing that I could complete. I wish in the future I could fix my life and put things in the right perspective so that I could honestly say I am really complete.