It is really difficult to be in between. I do not know where to place myself and to look forward too. This anticipation or lack of it is killing me. Should I start packing and getting stuff that I need or should I continue living within a budget to have “pocket money”?
HERE
1. Ultimate: Beg Nites Mondays at Meralco, Ultra Wednesdays, UP Saturdays, Apollo 10, PULL, Spirits... and the list goes on and on like the Energizer Bunny
2. Trips: Palawan, Macau, Laguna and a possible Surf Trip
3. QT with Family: Kuya’s wedding = relatives coming over from all places
THERE
1. Money: Per Diem = $$$
2. Trips: it is a trip itself with a possibility of numerous side trips
3. Dream: Onshore = long time vision for 5 years and counting
4. Growth: first time to be away from family for a long period of time
5. Miles away
Err. Whatever. In any case, it is I who will make here or there a win-win situation. Yes, buma-brightside! Guide me Kuya Jess and give me strength to face what future head on. May Your will be done. :)
Friday, August 06, 2010
On Making Do
I may not possess every characteristic a talented competitor should have but I make do with what I have to achieve something -- a goal. A goal not to waste what Kuya Jess gave me. Thus, I need to work hard and improve my so-called skills.
I do not have the physical qualities of a great athlete. I cannot run as fast as a cheetah, jump as high as a puma and certainly not as flexible as worm. All I have are my feet and legs that can bring me from point A to point B. Limbs that allow me to engage in different activities such as ultimate.
Self improvement, I need you! So I can be the best that I can be individually to develop my game and eventually help my team. Positivism do not leave me so that whatever experience I encounter in the future I will continue to fight.
Ability is what I am capable to do. Motivation determines what I will do. Attitude determines how well I do it. So help me God!
I do not have the physical qualities of a great athlete. I cannot run as fast as a cheetah, jump as high as a puma and certainly not as flexible as worm. All I have are my feet and legs that can bring me from point A to point B. Limbs that allow me to engage in different activities such as ultimate.
Self improvement, I need you! So I can be the best that I can be individually to develop my game and eventually help my team. Positivism do not leave me so that whatever experience I encounter in the future I will continue to fight.
Ability is what I am capable to do. Motivation determines what I will do. Attitude determines how well I do it. So help me God!
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
On Mixed Emotions
A trip to Cebu is always something to look forward too. It is a time for beaches, daily fiesta like meals, balut-ice cream midnight snacks, “discos”, late night kwentuhans. It is an opportunity to spend time with family and simply bond.
I will be flying to Cebu this Friday. I am happy that I will see my relatives again whom I have not seen months or years ago. However, it is a not trip that I am looking forward too mainly due to the purpose of the trip itself. All flights lead to Cebu to celebrate the life of my grandmother.
Things are different now. There will be an empty chair on the corner of the living room. There will be no voice heard praying the novena. There will be no one to prepare Milo/Ovaltine in the mornings even if I find it weird. There will be no one to call me up and greet me on my birthday with matching pansit or spaghetti to celebrate my special day.
Things may be different. I may have physically lost my grandmother but instead, I gained another angel who will continue to pray for me and watch over me from above. I believe that those twinkling things in the sky at night are not stars. Those are openings from heaven from Lola still pouring her love and shining down on me letting me know that she is in a better place and happy.
Trips to Cebu may not be the same but still is something to look forward too. Beaches, daily fiesta like meals, balut-ice cream midnight snacks, “discos”, late night kwentuhans will still be there. More importantly, my family will always be there waiting for me with a huge smile and warm hug.
Thank you Lola for instilling in me the concept of family. You will truly be missed but never forgotten. I love you. Until we meet again.
I will be flying to Cebu this Friday. I am happy that I will see my relatives again whom I have not seen months or years ago. However, it is a not trip that I am looking forward too mainly due to the purpose of the trip itself. All flights lead to Cebu to celebrate the life of my grandmother.
Things are different now. There will be an empty chair on the corner of the living room. There will be no voice heard praying the novena. There will be no one to prepare Milo/Ovaltine in the mornings even if I find it weird. There will be no one to call me up and greet me on my birthday with matching pansit or spaghetti to celebrate my special day.
Things may be different. I may have physically lost my grandmother but instead, I gained another angel who will continue to pray for me and watch over me from above. I believe that those twinkling things in the sky at night are not stars. Those are openings from heaven from Lola still pouring her love and shining down on me letting me know that she is in a better place and happy.
Trips to Cebu may not be the same but still is something to look forward too. Beaches, daily fiesta like meals, balut-ice cream midnight snacks, “discos”, late night kwentuhans will still be there. More importantly, my family will always be there waiting for me with a huge smile and warm hug.
Thank you Lola for instilling in me the concept of family. You will truly be missed but never forgotten. I love you. Until we meet again.
Monday, June 07, 2010
On Life and Death
The concept of life and death is a fact. It is final which no one can escape. When one starts to live one starts to die. And when one has fully accepted the reality of death, then one starts to fully live.
Despite this knowledge, the transition of physically losing a loved one and gaining an angel is a struggle. It is doubly difficult for those who are left behind. It is with great effort to live each day knowing that one cannot feel the warmth and hear the voice of the other who has moved on to a better place. But there is only one right thing to do – be strong! Savor the happy moments shared and be thankful that the physical suffering is over. This is what Lola wants and this is how it will be.
Life goes on – my journey here and your eternal journey. Bon voyage! Until we meet again. Thank you and love you.
Despite this knowledge, the transition of physically losing a loved one and gaining an angel is a struggle. It is doubly difficult for those who are left behind. It is with great effort to live each day knowing that one cannot feel the warmth and hear the voice of the other who has moved on to a better place. But there is only one right thing to do – be strong! Savor the happy moments shared and be thankful that the physical suffering is over. This is what Lola wants and this is how it will be.
Life goes on – my journey here and your eternal journey. Bon voyage! Until we meet again. Thank you and love you.
Thursday, April 08, 2010
On Deaths and Wakes
Death is usually not a good topic to discuss. Death is when the heart stops beating, sensory capabilities shuts down and mind blacks out. Death is the termination of the connection between mind and body.
The lost of someone is never a happy incident. It is sad that there are people who we only see in wakes and memorials. Thus a wake or memorial is held in order to preserve the memory of the person whose vacation ended and whose journey to another life is about to begin.
Wakes/Memorials are gatherings for the living and the dead. There are no good byes only see you laters. Enjoy the reunion!
The lost of someone is never a happy incident. It is sad that there are people who we only see in wakes and memorials. Thus a wake or memorial is held in order to preserve the memory of the person whose vacation ended and whose journey to another life is about to begin.
Wakes/Memorials are gatherings for the living and the dead. There are no good byes only see you laters. Enjoy the reunion!
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