Hello Reggae

Working during the night deprived me from going out during week nights. I officially started working the regular hours this Monday. After almost 3 months of no night life, I invited some of my friends to go out. I tagged my sister along since I was not sure if the people I invited will show up since it was a Thursday. Good thing my sister came since only one person showed up. If my sister didn't come it would have looked like a date. We went to Mugen Bar in Metrowalk.This drink greeted us at the entrance. Isn't the test tube presenation look eye-catching? Imagine this violet/green liquid substance in it? Doesn't it look intriguing and astonishing? Haha. I got fooled by its presentation, plus the fact that it was free. Yuck! I promise myself that I would never ever drink this again. It tasted like some kind of medicine or like some herb that I cannot explain. Blech. Nothing embarrassing happened to me, the after taste lingered for a time which felt terrible, unlike my sister the past week.

Anyway, we went there since Brownman Revival was playing. Ayluvem! Their songs were nice to the ear. Dancable and soothing. Hello Reggae... for me. My longing to learn the saxophone came back. I should... better learn before my lifetime is over.

Good thing that the night turned out to be great despite the fact that only one of my friends showed up. I guess we did look like losers singing... drinking... dancing(?)... but the important thing was that we had fun.

'til the next night out. Haha.

Watch What You Say

Me: Kamusta ang pag-aaral?
Kid grins
Aunt: Hindi yan nag-aral kasi nakatulog sa takot.
Kid: Sabi ni mama na matulog ako... sabi 'ya na mag-aral daw ako kung hindi e 'di matulog ako.

Smart kid!

:)

Such a cutie

Me: Hi *insert name of niece*!
Niece runs up to me and gives me a hug.
Niece: I was looking for you.
Me: Really? Why were you looking for me?
Niece: Because I love you.

My niece is just the sweetest! <3

Lost

What do you want in your life? What do you want to accomplish and experience during your existence? What do you want to be remembered for?

These questions have been constantly running through my thoughts. Even if I try to escape and run away from them, they always end up cornering me. So what do I want in my life? I guess like what everyone desires, happiness. But what is happiness? How will I obtain this? Come to think of it, I have no reason to be depressed. I have a family who loves me, a job wherein I get some income and most of all, I am still breathing. But how come I feel so empty? Like there is something missing in my life. How come I feel like I just wanna curl up in one corner and let the world swallow me.

For whatever reason I am not happy when I wake up. I am plain lost. There is nothing to look forward to. Sadly, I feel sick of living. Maybe I am already dead and it is just that I didn’t notice that I was slowly dying.

This is just sad.

Baffled

When my co-worker and I arrived from our break another co-worker signaled us to hurry because there was an emergency meeting. We, being less powerful individuals, panicked since the guard did not notice us. Finally the guard woke up and opened the door.

We thought it was a whole project meeting but it turned out as a per team meeting. Then and there I sensed something unusual. Recently, I was sort of adopted by another team since they needed more resources. Those were the people in the room. I was kinda frightened since I didn’t feel that comfortable with the group yet. My stomach tightened when Project Manager announced that from 24 people only 13 will remain since 5 people from the on shore team retired from the project.

Whoa! Do I still deserve to be in this project? I didn’t expect my teammates to be released this soon. If ever March was the soonest. The expressions in everyone’s faces were priceless. Some lit up. On the other hand there were those who were shocked.

What will the future hold? Wouldn’t it be lonely without them? Will the night differential compensate outweigh the negativity?

Let’s find out then…