On Shunga Shunga

In my whole existence, I can proudly say that I never been intoxicated. Maybe a little bit tipsy and that was it. That statement continued to be a 100% fact until last night.

I was sane but my perspective was tainted. I wholesomely entertained people and I bet they had a grand time. Thank goodness that I was still classy and cute despite my alcohol intake.

Jägermeister is certainly a “hunt-master”. It is my kryptonite. It stood by its name with honor and searched for me. It made me do things most liquor did not. The stag protected and preserved his game. Maybe mixed with a Bull the result will be different.

I drink therefore I am.

On Uncertainties

Here we go again. The other day, I got a phone call from Engagement. Currently they are seeking to close a deal. Proposals, budgets, resources – all those paper works and negotiations are in the works to win this project. Apparently, I am one of the candidates for this 3-month on-site assignment, which explained the phone call.

This afternoon, the RM head went up to me at my cube. He asked for my permission if it would be okay to line me up for the mentioned on-site project. Definitely, out of practice, before agreeing to something I asked for details. As usual, RM head does not have the specifics on hand as of the moment. All I got was nine months will be added to the initial three months.

With the so-called economic situation, the logical response that I had to give was my positive word. Did I make the right decision of saying “yes”, despite the minimal information?

Oh well. Nothing is certain for now. For this project to materialize is still uncertain. In addition, knowing how HS handled these circumstances, this will take decades to transpire – that is if ever it will happen. There is nothing I can do but pray what is best for my professed career and me.

On No Comment

I find it annoying when I get a “no comment” or “secret” response after I have asked a sincere and serious question. I asked because I do not know. I asked because I want to understand. I asked because I care.

Is it wrong for me to know, to understand and to care? Is it none of my business thus the “no comment/secret” response?

Well, I apologize for my intrusions. If you do not want me to make pakialam, then why did you text me that you want to talk to me in private in the first place then take it back after.

Is it offensive for me to expect a decent answer after leading me?

Answer: No Comment!

On Mondays

I dread Mondays. Monday is usually associated to Panic Monday since Mondays mean the start of another grueling work week. In my current project, our PM thought of this Pan de Monday activity wherein a group is in-charge to bring Pan de Sal or whatever breakfast food to entice people to come in work early during Mondays.

This activity is most often than not futile for a person who chooses sleep over food anytime. In the number of Mondays that gone by, I’ve only bonded with the group once. Honestly, I’ve tried to get up countless times so I could take part in this Pan de Monday activity but I often fail. All I can say is.. "At least I tried".

Tomorrow is another Panic Monday. Tomorrow is another day to overcome my laziness. Tomorrow is another chance to bond with my group mates. Tomorrow is another test of my will power.

I guess all I can do is try and try until I succeed. :) Aja!

On Moving On

I have been a corporate slave in the same company for almost 4 years. I did not notice that it has been that long until now. I thought that I would be the first ones to move out. Lo and behold, I might get a pen.

On the other hand, my salary is still the same from a year ago. In fairness, that amount is already 100% more when I started. I wonder how I survived earning four digits bi-monthly when I first started.

Am I happy with what I am doing? Am I contented with what I am doing? Am I well compensated? Is this time for me to move on?