It’s painful, it hurts
Though I discount the feeling
The ache’s evident.
The physical hurt
I try to ignore each day
But to no avail.
When I resist it
Comes emotional distress
It’s unstoppable.
They say time heals wounds
But is time tried and tested?
What’s the assurance?
Give it a rest, self
Time to face reality
To genuinely heal.
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Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
On Mind Games
There are instances when you don’t seem to notice me. Instances when you don’t make your presence felt. On the other hand, there are times when you contact me out of the bloom and say sweet nothings.
Why do you give me just enough attention? Is this to keep me interested but never seriously commit? Is this a strategy or tactic of some sort of yours to manipulate my so-called feelings?
Mind games are boggling. Are you sure you want to play this game? Cause if you do, it is already game over.
Why do you give me just enough attention? Is this to keep me interested but never seriously commit? Is this a strategy or tactic of some sort of yours to manipulate my so-called feelings?
Mind games are boggling. Are you sure you want to play this game? Cause if you do, it is already game over.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
On Onshore
I met two foreigners in the tour I joined. One was from the US and the other was from Germany. The guy from US has been teaching English in Japan for 3.5 years and counting while the girl from Germany has taught German in Australia and at present she is touring around Asia. She stayed in Bali, Indonesia prior to going to SK. Sarap ng buhay nila!
Two thoughts entered my mind:
1. My brother has a future as a teacher contrary to what my mom believes.
2. I want to experience the "on-shore" life.
I guess I asked to soon and when I checked my office e-mail I got a "Congratulations" message from my QA manager:
She has been accepted in ********* and may fly soon to *insert country*.
It has been a long journey for ME (to be onshore) and it sure is satisfying to know she finally will fly!
*Who checks her office e-mail while on vacation?*
*gulp!*
Two thoughts entered my mind:
1. My brother has a future as a teacher contrary to what my mom believes.
2. I want to experience the "on-shore" life.
I guess I asked to soon and when I checked my office e-mail I got a "Congratulations" message from my QA manager:
She has been accepted in ********* and may fly soon to *insert country*.
It has been a long journey for ME (to be onshore) and it sure is satisfying to know she finally will fly!
*Who checks her office e-mail while on vacation?*
*gulp!*
Happy Happy Yippee Yey Yey
Shallow as it may sound but I am genuinely happy. :) It may be a material thing, but I really believe that I deserve it even if it is delayed. Patience is the key.
:)
:)
Friday, March 11, 2011
On Losing
I do not take losing very lightly. Yes, it is a fact that the outcome may not go as planned. I can accept failure, but I can’t accept not trying. I dislike the feeling of dissatisfaction or lack of fulfillment afterwards. It haunts me.
Clearly I am serious when it comes to Ultimate and Basketball. Too serious that I guess my passion gets in the way and my intensity gets the best of me. But then I again, it would be unfair to the sport if I do not go all out every single time may it be in practice or in an actual game. How would I except the sport to love me back if I held back? What is the sense of playing competitively?
Ultimate and Basketball are team sports. I am not taking it against anyone except myself, but I guess I just need to accept the fact not everyone shares the same seriousity that I possess to prevent future frustrations. Hopefully this will not stop me from pushing myself to achieve my full potential.
As they say: one should not stop trying to operate in excellence. I should keep in mind that no matter how discouraged I get I should still have DIGNITY. Therefore, I hope that even if it upsets me when things are not going as planned I can continue to push myself and not lose hope. Once I give up and lose hope, then it is already game over.
Clearly I am serious when it comes to Ultimate and Basketball. Too serious that I guess my passion gets in the way and my intensity gets the best of me. But then I again, it would be unfair to the sport if I do not go all out every single time may it be in practice or in an actual game. How would I except the sport to love me back if I held back? What is the sense of playing competitively?
Ultimate and Basketball are team sports. I am not taking it against anyone except myself, but I guess I just need to accept the fact not everyone shares the same seriousity that I possess to prevent future frustrations. Hopefully this will not stop me from pushing myself to achieve my full potential.
As they say: one should not stop trying to operate in excellence. I should keep in mind that no matter how discouraged I get I should still have DIGNITY. Therefore, I hope that even if it upsets me when things are not going as planned I can continue to push myself and not lose hope. Once I give up and lose hope, then it is already game over.
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