On Being Foolish

Whenever I ask my teammates if they want to win the obvious answer I get is "yes". But how come I cannot see this "yes" in actions? Then again, who am I to judge. My passion and determination to win might be in a different level and it might be getting the best of me once again.

What am I to do? I am SO tired of losing. In my countless years involved in team sports I was never part of a team with a winning tradition. Most often, I belong to a team lacking in talent, experience and fundamentals. That is okay with me as long as there is heart and determination displayed in every practice and game.

This makes me think if I should continue to play competitively cause I am not sure if every single teammate of mine is in the same page as I am. Maybe I should just play for leisure to prevent further heartaches cause honestly it sucks big time. The difference between impossible and the possible lies in a man's determination and truth be told I do not see that in each of my teammates.

But, I am stupid. I am foolish. I cannot stop. Whenever I do not get the outcome I want it pushes me to try again. Try and try even if it hurts hoping that the next result will be the one I am yearning for. Is there something wrong with me?

As they say: Winners are not people who never fail, but people who never quit.

Kahit isang panalo (for now) lang please?
Tas isa pa ulit.. at...times infinity.

Itutuloy Mo Pa Ba?

Kung magmamahal ka, at alam mong iiwan ka lang niya, itutuloy mo pa ba?

Here is my take. The Ultimate created human beings in such a way wherein the brain is higher than the heart. I see it as a guide that I should use my mind rather my emotions in decision making.

Yes, I am rigid and stiff. At times I ask myself if I should live a little? But why risk getting my heart completely shattered if I am not certain that he is the One. Then again, I would not really know unless I take the plunge.

And I will never really know cause I did not take the risk. I did not go for it. So now I am still single for how many years and counting. It is unavoidable to have those "what ifs" thoughts yet I am happy to be single. Stress Is Now Gone Life is Easier! :)

On My 27th

On My 27th

Oh, how fast time flies
Today marks another year
In this planet

As I contemplate
How was my 27th
I have no answer

I went with the flow
No specific agenda
As long I'm happy

Fell in-love with life again
Journey to a better place
When one I'm at peace

On Semi Cool Off

I love you both equally. You guys are my motivation to get up each day. I always look forward to spending my time with you guys after work. It disappoints when something comes up and my time is consumed elsewhere rather having quality time you guys. So disappointed that I get guilty and feel that I need to make it up to you guys.

But I have to face reality. There are days when I have to call a rain check. Days wherein family, work and health interferes. I thought I had enough passion and energy to do the things that I enjoy and love. Yet, it is unfair for you if pagsabay ko kayo like what I am currently doing. One way or another schedules would overlap. My body cannot take it. Ultimately, I would not be able to perform as I expect from myself.

I need to make a decision. It is a tough one but I guess it is for the best. So... would it be okay if semi cool off muna tayo for two months? Semi cool off meaning that I will prioritize my first love for now. Sana okay lang at hindi ka magtampo. :/ I hope you would still accept me with arms wide open when I come back.

Kthnxbye.

On Monday Blues

Boo-hoo. Tomorrow is another Monday, which only means one thing -- back to regular programming. :|

Then again, how things will turn out pretty much depends on my actions. Monday is just another day. Another period in time which will eventually be over. Time passing does not have to be stressful, mysterious or whatsoever.

As Monday approaches it calls on me to make a decision, then goes on. It is the indecision that allows me to wake up one morning wondering what, when, where, who, why and how will Monday turn out.

Let's get it on!