On Wondering

How I wish the weekend was longer. As usual, the weekend is bitin again :( Today could have been a long weekend if PNoy wasn't the president. Hmm, what has PNoy contributed the PI anyways?

Obviously this rant is due to Monday blues. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful that I have a decent job that pays fairly well. But at times I wonder when the day would come when I would need work because I want to, rather than want work because I need to.

Is it time to abandon ship and risk a career change?

On Knee Strain and Enfussion

I am thankful that the initial reading was only a knee strain and t/c enfussion. I just need to rest for 3 days. If the pain does not go away in a week then I need to visit the ortho and have it checked. Is this the Ultimate's way of telling me to have a break?

I felt bad that I wasn't able to play. I felt that I left my team hanging. But when I saw them in their 2nd game, the heavy feeling subsided. I saw the improvement in the team from an "outsider's" perpective. In a way, each member knew their role and took the initiave to perform the best that they can do. There were lapses or what so, but the other members were there to try help out. Hopefully the delivery of those messages would be done in a better manner and not appear as "mga tao na galing sa kalye".

On the lighter side, my current situation really opened my eyes to see how much my parents care for me. Most often than not I feel that they favor my younger siblings and kuya over me. I feel neglected (pero baka kulang lang ako sa pansin). I guess they do that because my other siblings need the care and attention more than I do. But whenever my time comes I am assured that there will be there for me as well.

So for now, quality time with family and friends muna. Sana di ako lumobo at hindi mawala ang endurance/stamina/etc.

On Tanga Lang

It hurts. The sad part is it is my fault. I pushed my self to my limit. It was only a practice game but the competitor in me didnt take it easy. Instead, I gave my all. Legs were tired yet I ran after a fastbreak. I jumped but there was no lift and i crashed on my knees. I felt the pain instantly but I still picked myself up and played on the rest of the 2nd quarter.

Id like to think it's not that bad cause I was still able to swipe the ball but I couldnt run full speed anymore. I'd get the ball but I couldnt go and start a fastbreak. I couldnt change directions. I couldn't change speed. However, played on and finished the game with old school 3 points ahead.

I don't know what this is. :& the pain I can manage but the thought that I can't play indefinitely brings tears. Ang tanga tanga ko!

On Reality

Time to face the truth
This is the reality
Wake up and move on

"Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes, the person you want the most; is the person that you're better off without."

On Another Lost

Another lost equates to a new set of learning experiences. It is furstrating cause I really really to the nth level tried and gave my very best. Apparently, my best was not good enough. It hurts.

I guess in order to succeed I must fail so I may know what to do and what not to do the next time. Numerous questions are constantly running through my mind wherever I am. Things I should have done. Things I should work on. Things I should do to help elevate the game of my teammates. Things I should have said to at least inspire and keep the morale high. The list goes own. Am I an adik?

Oh well, what am I to do? Wala na. Tapos na yung game... yun na yun. Now is not the time to stop. I need to continue to fight and be strong despite the countless setbacks. These hurdles should not stop me. Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm. Hopefully I find the strength to always keep my head up.

Fighting spirit I need you!