On Long Weekend

Quality time with
myself, family and friends
through land travel for great food!

Long weekend please extend.

On Long Term

Am I ready for a long term commitment?
How would life be if my time with the things I enjoy are compromised?
Would I still be sane?

Do the pros weigh heavier than the cons?
Am I willing to sacrifice temporary pleasure for long term goals?
Am I ready to take that huge step to be that person?

Abangan...

On Monday

Tomorrow is another Monday - the start of another work week. Not only that, tomorrow also marks the beginning of another month. And yes, a new month equates to a new set of leaves gained.

After the 3 wet and wild games it is very tempting not to go to work. The Lazy Song keeps playing in my head. Argh. This is not right. Discipline will conquer.

Monday please be kind.

On Late

Monday I came in at 9:10. I think I still had a hang-over from the weekend road trip. Tuesday I got in at 9:45 due to Juaning. I still did not learn my lesson. I got caught in traffic at bed and I got in at 9:15 today.

Daddy is not around for a month. But that should not give me the luxury to come in work late. If my colleague can come in at 7am daily, why can't I?

Kuya Jess, please give me the character to get me out of bed. Commitment to move me to action. Discipline to enable me to follow through.

On Things to Do When Bored

1. Go to the pantry and grab something to drink and eat.
2. Go to the CR and splash face with water.
3. Do desk exercises/stretching.

If these 3 fail, get out and walk to the nearby establishments. :)

On Rain

It has been continuously raining the whole day. I do love the rain. When I was a kid I used to make those paper boats and place them on the flowing water and watch them drift away. Baha na pala! Lol.

The the waterfall (para magka-grass man lang ang fields) and the cool breeze that the rain brings is appreciated. As long as it is not too much to cause floods. Since floods cause traffic which then results to a 1.5 hour travel time from work. :|

Life is just like the weather. One minute it's so sunny and cheery, then it will be rainy and gloomy.

On Titles

I just got off from the phone with an co-worker/friend who has been assigned onsite for the longest time. After our "how are you's?" this conversation happened:

Her: Uy, parang masaya ka ahh. May boyfriend ka na noh?
Me: *silence*
Her: Di nga, sino?
Me: You do not need to be in a relationship to be happy.
Her: Oo nga, actually naisip ko din yan na pwede naman maging masaya... pero di nga, may boyfriend ka na noh!!!
Me: Single and in a relationship are just titles. Your heart determines your true relationship status.
Her: Hahahaha, so ano na?
Me: Alam mo... good relationships dont just happen, they take time, patience and two people who truly want to be together.
Her: So sino?
Me: Ano ba 'tong mga friends ko, bat puro tungkol sa relationships ang pinopost nila sa wall nila.
Her: Sira! Akala ko naman sinasagot mo yung mga tanong ko!!!

On Malnourished

Miss, do you feel superior when you speak ill of others? Just because you have a bulge at your stomach does not give you the right to say that I'm malnourished. During my last year in college the sports director said that I was fat for a thin girl when he pinched my back using this caliper thing. Yes that may be half a decade ago but I'm still kinda active in sports. My frame may appear as such but based on the recent ape I am normal. I just don't know in your case. Then again you may have developed some abs from your continuous coughing. 

On Wondering

How I wish the weekend was longer. As usual, the weekend is bitin again :( Today could have been a long weekend if PNoy wasn't the president. Hmm, what has PNoy contributed the PI anyways?

Obviously this rant is due to Monday blues. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful that I have a decent job that pays fairly well. But at times I wonder when the day would come when I would need work because I want to, rather than want work because I need to.

Is it time to abandon ship and risk a career change?

On Monday Blues

Boo-hoo. Tomorrow is another Monday, which only means one thing -- back to regular programming. :|

Then again, how things will turn out pretty much depends on my actions. Monday is just another day. Another period in time which will eventually be over. Time passing does not have to be stressful, mysterious or whatsoever.

As Monday approaches it calls on me to make a decision, then goes on. It is the indecision that allows me to wake up one morning wondering what, when, where, who, why and how will Monday turn out.

Let's get it on!

On Sleepy

Eyes slowly closing
Siesta you are so tempting
How i wish I can

My body clock is whacked!

On Trying to Overcome $+|2355

Vision is blurry
Things seem to move on it's own
What is the cause?

Is this due to stress?
But, what is stress anyway?
Is this real or fake?

Fatigue over work
I miss my A.I.D.S. petiks ways
Vacation calls me

Afraid to get hurt
Survival instincts kicks in
Either fight or flight.

Things I can't control
Worrying for no reason
Am I an addict?

No-no to breakdown
Why stress when I can enjoy?
Mind over matter

Oh, stress relievers
Ultimate plus basketball
Yey, work-life balance!

Please do your magic
Cause so-called stress is winning
Go fight fight! Aja!

On Onshore

I met two foreigners in the tour I joined. One was from the US and the other was from Germany. The guy from US has been teaching English in Japan for 3.5 years and counting while the girl from Germany has taught German in Australia and at present she is touring around Asia. She stayed in Bali, Indonesia prior to going to SK. Sarap ng buhay nila!

Two thoughts entered my mind:
1. My brother has a future as a teacher contrary to what my mom believes.
2. I want to experience the "on-shore" life.

I guess I asked to soon and when I checked my office e-mail I got a "Congratulations" message from my QA manager:

She has been accepted in ********* and may fly soon to *insert country*.

It has been a long journey for ME (to be onshore) and it sure is satisfying to know she finally will fly!

*Who checks her office e-mail while on vacation?*

*gulp!*

Happy Happy Yippee Yey Yey

Shallow as it may sound but I am genuinely happy. :) It may be a material thing, but I really believe that I deserve it even if it is delayed. Patience is the key.

:)

$#@!~

On Schedule
Hindi sa may sarili akong schedule, wrong timing lang. Mali ba na unahin ang pamilya? For crying out loud, kasal yun ng kapatid ko! Ano gusto yo, unahin ko ang career bago ang pamilya? ASA!

On Flexi Time
Hindi sa maarte ako na hindi maka-adjust sa biglaan na OT o 24 hour shift, ang hinihingi ko lang e i-inform ako nang maayos. Lahat aware sa palit ng shift at ito ako nag-iisa sa dilim. Ano gusto yo, o-OO lang ako pagkakuha ng email ng Friday late afternoon para pumasok ng weekend?

On Own Time
Hindi sa may sarili akong oras, pero mag aantay lang ba ako habang panahon? Kung open lang sa mga plano-plano e di sana ako gumawa ng sariling mga plano. Ano papalampasin ko lang ba ang mga araw sa kakaantay?

On Choosy
Hindi sa choosy ako, pero kung magagawan ng paraan bakit naman hindi. Tatahimik lang ba ako kahit na hindi ako masaya sa kalagayan ko? Mali ba na i-voice out ang aking mga pangarap?

On Palakasan
Hindi ako friendly, pero kailangan ko bang sumipsip para mapansin? Ms. Career Climber, takot ka ba at baka matalbog ka? Isa pa, pasensya nalang ako at hindi ako ang gf ng linalandi mo, bakla!

Haiku 1

I dread going to work.
Each day is a huge struggle.
I am tired. Period.

Help! Go or no go?
Motivation, where are you?
Show up… pretty please!
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Look at the bright side, so-called poetry came out. Lol.

On Logins

When I got back from a 2-week vacation I forgot my login. So I called TSD to have it reset. Apparently, there is a new process now. I had to ask a notification from anyone from HR to get a new password. Luckily, one person was already in at 9AM. I explained my case and she said she would get to it.

To pass time, I got water and read the verses for today. Fifteen minutes elapsed and I still did not get any feedback. So I played Collapse to pass time. After another 15 minutes, still no call. So I contacted TSD and asked if my request is good to go. Sadly, no notification was received. I asked how will I know if my login is okay? TSD said that they’ll just give me call. After another 15 minutes, I got a call asking if I logged my in helpdesk. Camon, how will I log it there if I do not have an access? In the end, after an hour I was able to log in.

Lesson: do not forget your login.

On Escalation

How'd you escalate
And not appear like a kid
Whinning to her folks?

Patience's a virtue
But also has its limit
This is it. Enough.

Lord, please do guide me
And not let my emotions
get the best of me.

There are no freinds-friends
At work, we are co-workers.
We're professional.

No hard feelings... please.
Just want to get the job done.
Do you understand?

5 Years

Today is a non-working holiday thanks to the Muslims. :) Today also marks my 5th year in HS. Yes, it has been that long. And I thought I would be one of the first to abandon ship once I hit my 2nd year. Now, I am the only original member from my bootcamp. Talk about loyalty.

So what makes me stay here? My pay could be better. People are not how they used to be. Most of my friends have moved on to another challenge. I have not been lucky also in terms of projects. Puro paasa lang. But this is me, always full of hope.

There are really some things that do not turn out how we think it would. I still hope for a better 5th year. I wish things will finally go my way. If not, may I find the courage to leave and take new opportunities.

Transparency

How difficult is it to disseminate information? We are within the same vicinity and you still cannot find it within yourself to approach me and to talk to me personally. With the existence of technology, you have options. You can either email or text me. I wondered how come you did not utilize any of these resources properly. What stopped you?

Transparency is one of the foundations of a good organization. When everything is laid out in the open, questions are minimized and the matter is easier to understand. So why hide information? Why did you wait for me to act upon the situation before you reacted? Thus, lack of communication was showcased. How come you did not have the decency to discuss the matter?

All I ask is some transparency. Isn’t it my right to know? Why can’t you just be a little bit more honest and open? What happened is obvious. You do not have the wares of a great or even a good manager. You only had the guts to give a slight preview of the current situation so you will have someone to blame. Tell me now if my understanding is incorrect. But you are full of deceit and I don’t like it.