Pagod

Do I need to give more effort?
Do I need to alot more commitment?
Do I need to sacrifice more?
Do I need to work my butt extra hard?
Do I need to be more responsible?

Ewan ko. Pagod na ako.

On Alcohol

Alcohol is perceived as something that can help out in difficult situations. It is the cure to relieve stress and anxiety. It is a source of courage and confidence. After a bottle/glass or two… three… four and so on, you tend to change your behavior. You have this feeling of well-being wherein you become talkative and relaxed. It is the time and opportunity in which you are able to blurt out whatever it is inside your head and heart for the world to hear.

On the negative side, due to alcohol speech may be slurred, coordination is impaired, visual attention is impaired, etc. These actions may be a cause of arguments. You tend to utter things not meant to be divulged. You tend to display actions not usually done. You tend to see unreal things.

So for the “alcoholics” out there, handle your alcohol properly. Yes, maybe all you need is alcohol to gain courage. However, always remember: alcohol should go straight to the belly and not take any kind of turns to the mind, heart or wherever.

On Day 3

Food for thought: you only fail once you stop trying.
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I nearly lost hope
One point is what I yearned for
The bleeding won’t stop

So so desperate
Gave my ultimate effort
Pushed to the limits

So near yet so far
One pass and successful catch
Oh, butterfingers!

Frustration aroused
Upset on the missed chances
Heat and tempers clashed

Exhaustion kicked in
Things became more challenging
Another setback

Feel so dishearten
It hurts emotionally
But cant back down now

Please give me the strength
The confidence, heart and will
to fight and play on.

On Mixed Emotions

The outcomes of the two games were extremes. I am happy but sad. Fulfilled yet frustrated. I am happy that we finally got our first W for NY 2001 but sad because bokya kami the next game. I am fulfilled because somehow I saw the fruits of our hard work in practice, yet frustrated because we still have a lot to learn.

Indeed, day 2 was a roller coaster ride of sorts. The twists and turns were electrifying. The drop was a very high one that I haven’t recovered yet. As they say life is like a wheel, sometimes you are up and sometimes you are down.

When will I get out of this pit?

On Bwakaw

I perceive you as someone full of pride. Thus it caught me off guard when I found out that you somehow got affected. Affected to the point that you had to seek advice from someone with wisdom. I do not have any intentions to put you down. However, I will not apologize for my actions.

I hope you did not misinterpret my actions. If you are bwakaw or not, that is fine. It is not important. If that is your style then go for it. You are who you are and I accept it. Early in the careers of Magic, Bird, MJ and Kobe I bet they had their own share of "I think I can do it all" mentality. After their own share of disappointments, look at what they have achieved and I guess they would not have accomplished what they have without having that mentality and attitude.

My actions may have appeared negatively but I will not apologize for it. Why? Because I don't want
to hinder you from achieving your full potential and eventually greatness. All I can do is accept your nature and give you (tough) love and understanding. I hope your pride can accept that.

On DK

The early origins of DK began 1st quarter of 2010 when a group of beginners decided to form a team in order to join those PUA organized leagues. DK made its first appearance in the Summer League of the same year under pool C. It was quite an experience. The level of competition was way different compared to the other instances the individuals played in – Plastic Virgins, Nestea Fit, Heads Up, etc. In order words, DK went to school in Summer League. Despite DK’s noob exposure, the players did not lose hope and continued playing. Some inserted themselves in M&M and Spirits alongside other teams --- SLU, Paterrors, DUO, Warriors and RG.

Now DK is back together and is set to play in New Year League 2011. And guess what? DK is in Pool B2! I don’t know if that is supposed to be a compliment or if some politics were involved. Well whatever, bring it on. Our skill level may not be at par with the other teams in our bracket but what can we do? We can only push ourselves and give it our best starting in training and hopefully that good attitude will carry over to the games.

How would we know what we can and cannot do unless we try?

Ultimate!

On Falling Inlove Again

You know that you are my first love and you will forever be a part of me. It is difficult not to think about you and what more when I decided to distance myself from you. However, that was a decision I had to make to become a better person.

We’ve been separated for half a year but here I am again, trying to make another come back. Yes, I am a comeback queen, but how could I resist you? You are a huge influence in my life. You have somewhat shaped who I am today. So, would you accept me willingly or would make me have a hard time?

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try, it’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?

How about you?

M&M 2010

The whole league was a truly challenging experience. It was the venue where the ladies can shine for there were no men in sight. There were no athletic guys to count on. Each one was forced to step up and work on my so-called game. We only had each other.

I merged with a fairly new team. Practice was not held weekly. If we were lucky enough to have training we were not complete. There were some teammates who I only saw during game day. It was stressful.

How do you expect to perform well if there was no right preparation? How do you work as a team if there was no communication? How do you know what to do if it something is not explained in detail?

It was not smooth sailing. There was no synergy. Personalities clashed. Conflicts aroused. Individualities were provoked. It was that bad that there came a point that I missed my original team and sadly I wanted the league to be over. But, I did not give up. I kept fighting the battle. And I am happy as each game progressed we started to work as a so-called team.

Despite all the adversities M&M was one for the books. I was given the chance to exercise my patience and push myself to my limits. All in all, I learned a lot. We may not have gotten a W but I gained experiences that can make me a better Ultimate player.

Salamat PaTerrors!

On Making Do

I may not possess every characteristic a talented competitor should have but I make do with what I have to achieve something -- a goal. A goal not to waste what Kuya Jess gave me. Thus, I need to work hard and improve my so-called skills.

I do not have the physical qualities of a great athlete. I cannot run as fast as a cheetah, jump as high as a puma and certainly not as flexible as worm. All I have are my feet and legs that can bring me from point A to point B. Limbs that allow me to engage in different activities such as ultimate.

Self improvement, I need you! So I can be the best that I can be individually to develop my game and eventually help my team. Positivism do not leave me so that whatever experience I encounter in the future I will continue to fight.

Ability is what I am capable to do. Motivation determines what I will do. Attitude determines how well I do it. So help me God!

NFCH Day 6 - Best 150!

I started the day without any expectations other than giving it my all to help redeem our measly performance from last week. It was a win-win situation already, with the kit, friends discovered, new lessons learned and instant exercise I was already a winner. To quote my brother, “I am just doing this for fun.”

When I got to the venue, I felt no one wanted a repeat of last week thus the cooperation of each Probie. Despite the fact that we only became Probies last week, we acted as team and that felt so good. We stretched together, did drills and prayed together. Even if our drills were “sloppy” and our cuts will not bring us to Boracay, we did not let that dampen our spirits, took it as constructive criticism and continued to give it our best.

1st game: Probies vs. Team 5 (Race to 11)
We were up against a team like us – a loser from last week. It was a win or go home type of game. We did not know how this team plays so we sent in our strongest line. Lessons: Trust = One must believe that one’s teammate can deliver. Knowledge of the rules = to make sure that the other team is not taking advantage.
Final score: Probies: 11; Team 5: 5

2nd game: Probies vs. Unit 1 (Race to 13 for 50 mins)
Another win or go home game. This time we were against team with league experience who had a clean slate team that kicked our asses last week. It was a tight game... pang championship na. “Our offense is not bad it is our defense that sucks.” Lesson: Defense is crucial.
Final score: Probies 13; Unit 1: 12

Lunch time. It dwelled upon me that if we win, we could actually go to Boracay. However, as what I mentioned earlier, whatever the outcome may be, win or lose, I felt like a winner already. Of course, 2-0 from 0-3 was an accomplishment in itself. Then again, why settle for that if we could go all the way?

3rd and final game: Probies vs. Spacegrapes
Just like our 2nd game, the team we were up against kicked our asses last week and has league experience. After two games earlier, we were physically tired. Count on the heat to drain our energies. No wonder -- Camp Hot. I guess it was our pride or adrenaline that kept us going. Good thing there was unlimited hot Nestea to fuel us.
Game time! Two teams battled to be champions and for a trip to Boracay. With everything that was at stake, tension increased. Hearts pounded faster. Cheers grew louder. Deep into the game, fouls and violations were suddenly called. A flying cap scene occurred. Nobody expected the outcome. I myself had doubts, but when I started the day, I told myself, I might as well give it my 110% and have fun.

Lessons: Communication, teamwork, trust, hard work and prayers. Congrats Probies!
Final score: Probies: 13; Spacegrapes: 9

Thanks Probies and of course, super thank you to our Coach. I really learned a lot.

“So paano guys, see you in Boracay?”

NFCH Day 5

0-3.

We tried hard as in very hard but it was not enough. I am not a sore loser but seriously, our asses were kicked! The score was not even close. The games were not even exciting. I bet fanatics would have dozed off. :(

This just showed that I definitely have a lot to learn. Basics and everything! I have tons to work on and improve. I seriously need to at least like running. If I cannot help in offense, I should at least make bawi in defense.

Aja! Good luck to team Probies next week!

NFCH 1

We were excited and ensured ourselves of a good slot – a non-cancer slot. We were that early that we had time to grab some breakfast. I think we enjoyed our grub too much and when we got back, the session had started already.

We injected ourselves in the group. Apparently, we are common faces and the instructor did not teach us the basics anymore. Boo. We just practiced our wobbly throws. Then at the latter part, we had some scrimmage. It was bitin, but I wanted to try out some other sports.

Zips it was, but it was a complete fail for me. Crap. I really have no sense of coordination. Oh well towel. At least I tried. Hahaha!

Overall, it was a good day. We got to sign up for Unilab run and grab lunch too. Our effort was not wasted. The early bird got the worm!

On Nestea Fit Camp Hot

Nestea Fit Camp Hot was a 6-week course sponsored by obviously Nestea. I guess the goal of the camp was to promote a healthy and active lifestyle in preparation for summer. Obviously, their main objective was to endorse and advertise their newest drink with L-Carnetine something.

The camp offered a variety of activities namely beach basketball, beach volleyball, touch rugby, flag football, yoga, hip-hop, zip and ultimate. For only 150 bucks, one got a kit and a chance to learn the sport under the country’s top players. To top it off, the winning teams had the privilege to fly to Boracay. Not bad, right? “So paano, see you guys in Boracay?”

On This Game

YOU have caused me so much pain. I have given YOU a huge part of my existence. I divided my family life to accommodate YOU. I turned down socials and trips in preparation for YOU.

After everything that I did for YOU, I still fell short. All the sacrifice and hardwork never seemed to be sufficient. I always ended up second… third… of fourth, but never the first.

Did YOU ever love me? Is there even sense if I still pursue YOU? Is it even worth it to give YOU another go? On the other hand, should I walk away from YOU to avoid the opportunity of more pain?

How is life without YOU? Would it still be worth living?

I love this game, but do YOU love me?

Ultimate Frustration

It truly hurts so much when one is looking forward for something then when the time finally arrives, it is cancelled.

On A Player's Commitment

I need to be willing to make a commitment to being as good as I can be each time I play. I need to be willing and ready to do what has to be done to make a positive contribution in the most difficult of situations. I need to compete in each game as though there is nothing I will ever do that will be more important. I need to, more than anything, want our team t be the very best that we can be.

Is this to much for me to ask myself as a player?

On Torpe

On my way to my ULTIMATE experience, I received an SMS, which read:

“*Insert my name* punta ka b today?”

Suddenly I felt an unknown surge of sensation in my body. My heart beat faster. After three grueling minutes of emotion containment, I replied:

“Yup. You?”

His answer:

“I’m thinking pa. Wala ako kasama. Haha.”

At the back of my head, what do you call me? Am I not considered as company? Ouch. In my vain attempt not to nag him, I just said:

“Anye. Tara na!”

In which I got this response:

“Cge, let me think abwt it hehe.”

After that last SMS, I did not reply anymore for I do not want to harass him. I do not want to blow my cover. I might appear that I want him to come so I can at least catch a glimpse of him… Even if that is what I really, want deep down. On the other hand, I just want some uncertainty of not knowing if he will make it or not.

To my dismay, he did not show up. Oh well. Then again, why did he ask if I would make it? Is he not comfortable and satisfied with my company so he decided not to go? Or is he shy because he will in his lonesome?

Hay. Ayaw ko ng torpe.. pero gusto ko *ata* siya.

On "Hi"

How would you feel if you bump into your old school friend whom you have not seen for what seemed like months? This friend of yours was part of one of your high school groups. However, this friend is not just an ordinary friend; this friend was your interest during junior year.

I did not notice him; he was the first who greeted me! Then again, with my grand entrance it was unavoidable not to notice me. With a simple “Hi, *insert name*!” a bizarre sensation occurred. Butterflies flew. Hair tucked. Head tilted. Eyes twinkled. Words stuttered.

It started with a “Hi!” and it left me high.

Para Kay Manny

All it took was less than 2 rounds
Congratulations, Manny PACMAN Pacquiao!
Yabang Pinoy!

On Drama

I just hate (I know hate is such a harsh word, but that is how I feel) it when people make such a huge fuzz of something when in reality it is nothing. In addition, people do not care on what that so-called fuzz is all about.

Do not get offended if people did not react to your "pampansin" actions, because like what I mentioned, they do not care.

The world does not revolve about you. Everyone has their own dramas. So please... grow up.